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[thegullwitch]

I think, with my practice, it’s more of a mishmash of things and I like to study new branches of witchcraft and go all in and then eventually integrate it into a whole practice based in chaos magic and folk magic.

So apologies if it’s hard to nail down what kind of magic my blog is about - it’s kind of about all of them as I meet them along my path!

Right now, it’s gonna be a lot of glamour magic! I hope that you enjoy!

[thegullpersonal]

So when are we going to talk about how the infantilization of nonbinary people makes it very difficult for nonbinary adults to be taken seriously?

[thegullpersonal]

So when are we gonna talk about how all the metaphors we use to explain mental illness symptoms, even in the professional sphere (like IN the DSM) make it pretty much impossible for people with Autism to receive proper diagnoses?

[thegullpersonal]

Today my Autistic ass is realizing that nearly 100% of my distress and emotional problems and issues come from difficulty with transitions.

I’ve always, ever since I was a little kid, struggled to fall asleep. What’s that? Oh a transition from wakefulness and doing things to sleepiness and just lying there perhaps???

I also struggle to get up out of bed (transition) and then get ready (transitions galore) to go out (major transition AND sensory overload).

I have trouble with things like “bed times” and “wake up times” because it is a forced transition. I have trouble working on a schedule because of this.

I have trouble at work because I work at a high school and we have a minimum of 6 blocks during the day. Thats minimum 12 transitions cuz theres one at the beginning and end of each block.

I mean it’s even the little things! When I finish a book I’m unable to read another one for like, a week or so afterward because I’d be transitioning the world in my head.

Literally everything you do is preceded by and followed by a transition. And transitions cause me significant emotional distress.

When I was a kid (I’m turning 30 this month and only got diagnosed about a year and a half ago) my parents struggled taking me anywhere. I would freak out and sob when we left the house and then, once we got to the next thing, I was fine. Then, when it was time to leave again? Freaking out, crying. It had nothing to do with the place and everything to do with the sudden and uncontrollable change.

Like, is this true for anyone else? Am I discovering something that people who have been diagnosed since childhood already knew? Give me some feedback people!!!

[thegullwitch]

The more I trust in and explore my psychic skills the more I realize how much they really have always guided my life. I’ve always known when things are going to happen. Not far off in the distant future, but in the immediate future. And because of that I have a freakish ability to avoid danger. Like, I even know when a car is about to try n cut me off.

Its so cool because I remember what I wanted more than anything as a child was psychic abilities. I used to think they were something some people were born with. Now I know we all have these gifts, they just manifest differently in each person!

Idk, turning 30 has me reevaluating a lot of things. Making me think big thoughts about my life.

[thegullpersonal]

I go by my birth name in some places and my chosen name in others and it really feels at this point that I am just a nameless entity. What’s my name? Who knows! I am alpha and omega and was never born but always was.

[thegullwitch]

I’ve been basically non-stop sick since the first week of the school year. I had some kind of respiratory virus (that everyone I’ve talked to at the school has come down with too) and now I have a weird stomach bug. I’m so tired.

So I want to post about witchy things, but there have been very few witchy things (or anything other than tv and books) happening in my life.

Thank y’all for stickin around!

I will be celebrating the Equinox pretty much all weekend though, so maybe content on the horizon? (I’ll take pictures!!)

[thegullpersonal]

So, I’m like 99% sure that I can’t do my practicum in the Spring. And at first it was rough. I found out this morning at work and I had to take a PRN. I texted my friends and my wife and my mom about it.

But like, I’m okay. Like weirdly okay. I can do my practicum in the Fall. Which means I can spend the time passing my state exams so I can fully teach. If I did my practicum in the Spring, I wouldn’t be paid. For like, 3 months. It was gonna be tough. If I do it in the Fall, theres a chance that I can do it as a full time teacher, as a paid teacher.

So maybe this was just meant to be? I feel like maybe it was if I’m so at peace with it already.