Warnings: fluff, soft intimacy, explicit content, kissing, gentle first time vibes, emotional connection, slow build, nervous Jack, reader is adult, comfort, soft aftercare, magic show setting, backstage moments, mutual pining turning real
Before the Horsemen were famous, you and Jack stumbled into first love behind the lights of their earliest show.
The night before the Horsemen’s first big show felt like the whole world was inhaling and holding it.
The backstage of the Las Vegas theater they’d be performing at buzzed with a nervous, excited electricity that settled into the walls like static. Curtains whispered when the air shifted. Footsteps echoed unevenly across the scuffed concrete floors. Somewhere in the maze of dressing rooms, Henley practiced timing. Merritt argued with someone over a missing pair of sunglasses. Atlas paced the hallway like a king waiting to be crowned.
Everything was loud, intense, tilted toward greatness.
And then there was Jack.
You found him in the one quiet corner of the building, tucked behind a stack of crates filled with props. A single warm bulb hummed overhead, casting a soft golden circle around him. He sat on the floor with his legs stretched out, back pressed to a wooden crate, a deck of cards flipping between his fingers in a restless blur.
Only, he wasn’t smiling.
He wasn’t bragging.
He wasn’t showing off.
He looked human. Tired. Young. Nervous.
You watched him for a few seconds before stepping into the light. “Hiding?”
Jack’s head snapped up so fast a card flicked out of his hand and skidded across the floor. “No. Maybe. I don’t know.” He exhaled dramatically. “You scared me.”
“You scare pretty easily for a magician.”
“That’s because you sneak up on me like some kind of ninja,” he said, but his voice was soft, almost shy. He gestured to the empty space near him. “Come sit. Please.”
You lowered yourself beside him, knees brushing. Jack stiffened, then relaxed with a small, shaky smile.
The backstage noises faded as the quiet between you settled into something warm, something familiar.
“You nervous about the show?” you asked gently.
Jack let his head fall back against the crate. “I’m terrified.”
You blinked. “You? Terrified?”
He laughed weakly. “Don’t tell Atlas. He’d have me mopping the stage for saying it out loud.”
The cards stilled in his hands, and he stared down at them.
“I just… I really want this to be good,” he said, voice breaking a little. “The show, the team, the dream. Everything. It feels like this is my shot and if I mess it up, I’ll never get another one.”
You shifted closer, shoulder touching his. “Jack. You’re the heart of this team. You’re the spark.”
He looked at you like he wasn’t used to hearing that from anyone. Like it meant more than you realized.
The bulb overhead buzzed. Jack’s breath trembled. He whispered, “You make me less scared.”
You touched his hand. “Because I believe in you.”
His fingers curled around yours, tentative at first, then firmer when you didn’t pull away. His breath caught like he couldn’t handle how good that felt.
“Can I tell you something?” Jack asked quietly.
“Anything.”
He swallowed hard, eyes fixed on your joined hands. “I like you. Not in a little crush way. Not in a hey, you’re cute way. More like… when I think about this show being perfect, you’re part of that picture. Part of what makes me brave enough to get through it.”
Your heart skipped.
He finally looked up at you, eyes bright and nervous. “Please say that’s not weird.”
“It’s not weird,” you breathed. “It’s really sweet.”
Jack’s breath eased, his shoulders loosening. “You’re not gonna run away?”
“I’m right here,” you said.
He let out a soft laugh that sounded almost relieved. “Good. Because I’ve wanted to kiss you for weeks and if I don’t do it now I might combust.”
You leaned in first. “Then kiss me, Jack.”
His lips met yours gently at first, warm and careful, like he was afraid of getting it wrong. You cupped his cheek, guiding him, and that was all it took for him to melt into the kiss. He sighed against your mouth, fingers sliding up your arm, trembling with how badly he wanted to touch you.
The kiss deepened slowly, sweetly, the kind that builds heat gradually, naturally, without rushing.
Jack pulled back just enough to whisper, “I want you. I want all of this. But only if you really want it too.”
You brushed your lips against his. “I do.”
His breath hitched, the kind of sound someone makes when a wish comes true.
You pulled him closer, settling into his lap, your knees bracketing his hips. Jack flushed but didn’t hesitate. His hands settled on your waist, gentle and reverent.
“I’ve never done this with someone I care about,” he admitted quietly. “So just… guide me if I’m awkward.”
You kissed him again, slow, reassuring. “I’ll take care of you.”
His eyes softened, his body relaxing under your touch, and the two of you moved together into something warm, intimate, exploratory. Every kiss deeper than the last, every touch tender and patient. Jack’s nervous laughter between soft moans, your hands learning him, his breath catching when you whispered his name.
Jack made you feel cherished, and you made him feel chosen.
And before the night ended, before the lights and the cheering crowds and the storm of fame that would change everything, Jack held you close and whispered:
Summary... Four lucky fans win the contest of a lifetime: a chance to join the F1 grid for media week, shadowing drivers and getting the ultimate behind-the-scenes access. But what no one knows is that there's a fifth seat—a secret winner whose name never appeared on the announcement list. She’s not a fan. She’s his wife. And their entire relationship is a secret. But not for much longer. Hidden glances. Stolen moments. A marriage no one suspects—until media week turns into a pressure cooker, and secrets start to crack under the spotlight.
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They called it the opportunity of a lifetime.
The Fifth Seat Experience—sponsored by Formula 1, endorsed by every team, plastered all over social media like the golden ticket to Willy Wonka’s chocolate factory. Four lucky fans, hand-picked from thousands of entries, flown in for Media Week to shadow the drivers, get exclusive access, live like insiders.
Except there were five of us.
And I wasn’t a fan.
Well. Technically, I was.
Just not in the way everyone else thought.
The other four winners were bouncing in place as we waited for our credentials outside the paddock gates—talking over each other, gasping at every car that drove past, snapping selfies like they might blink and miss someone famous.
I kept my sunglasses on and my mouth mostly shut.
It wasn’t that I wasn’t excited. I was.
But it’s hard to squeal over a driver when you sleep next to one every night.
"Y/N L.," the coordinator called, her lanyard outstretched. “Guest Winner #5.”
Winner.
Right. Sure.
The plastic badge felt heavier than it looked as she clipped it around my neck. I could feel the name tug at my skin.
Y/N L.
Like I’d never taken another last name.
I tucked the badge into my jacket, heart thudding harder than I liked. I didn’t have a plan beyond blend in and survive. No one—not the fans, not the other winners, not even the media team buzzing around us—knew the truth.
No one knew I was married to Charles Leclerc.
And if everything went smoothly this week, no one ever would.
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They assigned each of us a driver pairing. Luck of the draw.
Callie, the girl with the Mercedes hat and long acrylics, screamed when she got Lewis. Tom practically wept when he got Max. The other two, Serena and Rachel, were with McLaren and Red Bull.
I got Alpine.
Safe. Distant. Harmless.
Not Ferrari.
Not Charles.
“Bit of a bummer, huh?” Serena said sympathetically, glancing at my badge. “Alpine’s been quiet lately.”
I shrugged. “Quiet’s kind of my thing.”
She laughed and wandered off, which suited me just fine. My heart was already crawling up my throat because I could feel him before I even saw him.
It always happened like that.
Some sixth sense. Some magnetic pull.
He appeared at the edge of the garage bay—white polo, sunglasses, hair slightly messier than usual like he’d been dragging his fingers through it. He was talking to someone from the team, nodding, focused.
Until he wasn’t.
Until his head tilted just slightly and his eyes landed on me.
And stayed there.
Two seconds too long.
Three.
Four.
Then, like he remembered himself, he turned back to his conversation.
I swallowed hard.
God, he was terrible at this.
-
The rest of the day passed in a blur of team tours, media station walkthroughs, and overexcited chitchat. I smiled politely, answered questions when asked, and avoided cameras like they were fire.
But Charles kept finding me.
Not overtly. Not dramatically.
A glance as he passed in the hallway. A half-smile in the corner of the hospitality tent. Once, I could swear he deliberately lingered behind me in the lunch line just so he could whisper, “You’re torturing me.”
I didn’t turn around.
“Don’t make it obvious,” I muttered under my breath, grabbing a croissant I didn’t want.
“I’m not,” he replied. “You look incredible, by the way.”
“Charles.”
“Y/N.”
I took my tray and walked away before my face could betray me.
This was not going to work.
-
Later, when the sun dipped low and the paddock began to clear out, the five of us were ushered into a small media lounge for a casual welcome session—iced teas, branded notebooks, a low-key icebreaker game.
It was fine.
Until he walked in.
The room actually shifted. Like gravity pulled everyone forward.
Charles Leclerc, fresh from interviews, sunglasses pushed into his hair, smiled politely as the coordinator announced, “And here to welcome our winners—your fan-favorite Ferrari driver!”
My breath locked in my throat.
“Oh my god,” Callie whispered.
“Charles is so much hotter in person,” Tom mumbled, not even trying to be subtle.
He waved at the group, then sat down right across from me on the low couch.
I didn’t look at him. I couldn’t.
“You all excited for Media Week?” he asked casually, accent curling around every word like sugar on the rim of a glass.
Everyone nodded. Gushed. Talked over each other.
I picked at the edge of my napkin.
Then came the icebreaker.
“Let’s go around and say one thing we’re most excited about this week,” the coordinator prompted. “I’ll start—I’m excited to see you all soak in the experience!”
Rachel: “The garage tours!”
Tom: “Meeting the drivers, obviously.”
Callie: “The paddock passes and maybe... a selfie with Charles.” She winked.
He laughed politely.
When it was my turn, I cleared my throat.
“I guess I’m just... excited to see the sport from the inside.”
Charles’s eyes met mine across the table. Just for a second.
I don’t know what I expected.
But I didn’t expect the corner of his mouth to twitch—barely—like he was holding back something.
A smile?
A secret?
Something.
Then, the coordinator clapped her hands. “Perfect! You all are going to have the time of your lives.”
Everyone cheered.
And as we stood up to head back to the hotel, Charles brushed past me, just close enough to murmur—
“Careful, amour. They’re starting to notice.”
And then he was gone.
Leaving my skin buzzing, my throat tight, and my heart whispering:
This week is going to ruin us.
-
I didn’t sleep much.
The hotel bed was comfortable enough, the room quiet except for the hum of the air conditioner and the occasional shout of someone stumbling back from the bar. But my brain was loud. Too loud.
I stared at the ceiling for what felt like hours, still hearing his voice in my ear.
Careful, amour. They’re starting to notice.
He couldn’t help himself. That was the problem. Charles Leclerc was many things—charming, reckless, maddeningly romantic—but discreet wasn’t one of them.
My phone buzzed from the nightstand.
Charles: Are you awake?
Charles: Room 314.
Goddamn him.
I stared at the message. I could say no. I should say no.
Instead, I was out of bed and tiptoeing down the hallway before I could convince myself otherwise.
-
He opened the door like he’d been standing on the other side, waiting.
His hair was damp from a shower, curls pushed back, shirtless in nothing but black sweatpants. A gold chain rested against his collarbone, and his smile tugged slow and crooked when he saw me.
“You came.”
“You texted.”
“That’s not a no.”
I rolled my eyes and stepped inside. “We said no sneaking around.”
“We also said no falling in love, and look how that turned out.”
He said it like it didn’t still knock the air out of me every time.
Charles closed the door softly behind me, then leaned his forehead against it, sighing.
“This is torture,” he muttered.
“Media week or marriage?”
“Being married and not being able to act like it.”
I turned to him, arms crossed. “You’re the one who wanted to keep it secret.”
“Because I wanted to protect you.” He looked over his shoulder, voice quieter now. “You know what they’d do with this. With you. The articles, the headlines, the dissecting every outfit and every expression. I just wanted a little more time.”
“And this is your idea of time?” I gestured vaguely. “Throwing me into the paddock with a badge and pretending we’ve never kissed?”
He pushed off the door and crossed the room in three steps.
“Pretending we’ve never kissed is impossible.”
He kissed me then—soft and sweet, the kind of kiss that said I missed you instead of I want you.
Though, with Charles, it was usually both.
I let myself melt for a moment, my fingers curling into the hem of his shirt before I caught myself.
I pulled back. “We can’t keep doing this.”
He rested his forehead against mine. “One more night.”
“You said that in Monaco.”
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Flashback – Six Months Earlier
Monaco. 10:41 a.m. Tuesday.
The Civil Registry Office smelled like lemon-scented floor cleaner and legal ink. The ceiling fans whirred overhead.
I wore a cream linen dress and held a bouquet of flowers I picked up from a corner stand on the way there. Charles wore a navy button-up and the softest expression I’d ever seen on a man.
We signed the papers in under ten minutes.
“Wait,” I said, just before he handed over the final page. “Are we really doing this?”
He smiled. Not wide. Not cocky. Sure.
“Yes,” he said simply. “And if you’re not sure, we can wait.”
I looked down at the page. Then at him. And suddenly, it didn’t feel scary. It felt like choosing the safest person in the world.
“I'm sure.”
He kissed the back of my hand as we handed it in.
We walked out married. No ring, no guests, no Instagram post.
Just... us.
-
I left Charles’s room just before sunrise. No one saw me. I checked. Twice.
By the time we got to the paddock, the PR team had split us up into pairs for the morning rounds. My assigned driver, Esteban, was nice enough—friendly, funny, not overly chatty. It was an easy match.
But every time we passed a certain garage, my lungs forgot how to work.
Charles was everywhere.
In the Ferrari garage. On the track walk. On the screen playing highlight reels in the lounge. I couldn’t turn around without seeing his face or hearing his laugh.
It didn’t help that he kept glancing my way. Subtle, but not subtle enough.
And it really didn’t help when Carlos came up to him after a media hit and clapped him on the back.
“So who’s the girl?” he asked with a smirk.
My blood turned to ice.
“What girl?” Charles replied, too quickly.
Carlos nodded toward me across the hospitality tent. “The quiet one. She’s pretty.”
Charles’s mouth twitched.
“Yeah,” he said. “She is.”
I looked away before I could throw something.
-
By late afternoon, the paddock had cooled, shadows stretching long. Most of the group had wandered off to post content or explore the garages. I stayed behind, sipping an iced drink I didn’t want, brain spinning.
That’s when the PR girl found me.
“Oh, hey! Just a heads up, a few people were asking who you are.”
My chest tightened.
“Is that a problem?”
“No, no—just curiosity. You weren’t tagged in the winner announcement, so some of the fans are like, ‘Who’s Guest #5?’” She laughed, like it was nothing. “Probably just internet sleuths doing their thing.”
I forced a smile. “Right. Totally.”
But I could feel it happening—cracks forming in the glass, light leaking through.
And the worst part?
I didn’t know if I wanted to stop it anymore.
-
Later that night, just before I climbed into bed, my phone buzzed again.
Charles: They think I’m flirting with a fan.
Charles: I’m going to lose it.
Charles: I miss you.
I stared at the screen, fingers hovering. Then I typed:
Me: Then stop pretending.
I watched the message sit. Delivered. Read.
And then nothing.
No reply.
Not that night.
Not the next morning.
Not until it was already too late.
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Group Chat – “Fan Five 💖🏁”
Callie:
anyone else notice how weird y/n was yesterday?? 👀
Tom:
like, quiet weird or secret-agent weird
Rachel:
she def knows someone. you saw her talking to a ferrari guy right??
Serena:
nah that was charles leclerc 🫢🫢🫢
Tom:
YOU'RE LYING
Serena:
not joking. i went back through my stories—she was with him near the media tent. paused the vid. they were talking close-close
Callie:
hold up i’m checking tumblr
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Tumblr Post
📸: [image attached]
👤: f1-unfiltered
“who tf is this girl Charles is chatting with in the media lounge?? she wasn’t on the winner list 👀 anyone know her @?? #charlesleclerc #fifthseat #mediaweek”
🗨️ top comment:
“he’s totally checking her out. look at his face omg”
🗨️ second comment:
“are we getting a Charles soft launch????”
🗨️ third comment:
“her lanyard says Guest #5… we missed one 😭”
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Twitter (X)
@f1teaofficial
👀 something’s brewing. who is mystery “Guest Winner #5”? we’ve confirmed she wasn’t in the original contest posts…
#fifthseat #f1drama #charlesleclerc
⬇️
Photo Attachment: blurry screenshot of Y/N and Charles mid-conversation
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Private Messages – Charles → Y/N
9:47 AM
I’m sorry.
I saw it. The post.
They think I’m flirting with you.
10:02 AM
I hate this.
I hate not being able to tell them you're mine.
10:17 AM
Please say something.
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Voicemail – Left at 11:26 AM
"It’s me. I know you’re mad. I don’t blame you. I should’ve protected us better. I let the cameras turn you into a stranger. And I hate that.
I love you.
I love you, and I don’t care who knows it anymore.
If you want to end this, I’ll respect it.
But if there’s even a small part of you that still wants me to fight for us—please, just... call me back.”
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Text – Y/N → Charles (unsent)
You said you’d protect me.
But I’ve never felt more alone.
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Drafted Notes App Entry – Y/N
Title: If They Find Out
They’ll say I used him.
They’ll say I didn’t deserve him.
They’ll say it was a stunt.
They’ll tear me apart.
But I love him. And I’m tired of pretending I don’t.
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Instagram Story – @scuderiaferrari
🎥 “Behind-the-scenes at Media Week Day 2!”
Pausing at 0:41 reveals Charles, standing off to the side, watching something—or someone—just off camera.
Blink and you miss it: a small gold band on his left ring finger.
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There’s a kind of silence that only happens in chaos.
Like when your ears ring after a crash, or when the world tilts just a little too far to the left. That’s what it felt like in the paddock the morning the photo dropped.
Not an explosion.
Not a scream.
Just a silence so loud I couldn’t hear anything else.
Everywhere I went, I felt it. The glances. The hush when I passed. The way even the media team looked at my lanyard a beat too long before waving me through.
Guest Winner #5 was no longer anonymous.
And Charles—
Charles was furious.
I didn’t see him until the mid-morning break. I was on my way out of the Alpine garage when someone caught my wrist and gently pulled me around the corner.
He didn’t say anything at first. Just stared at me like he hadn’t slept.
“Hi,” I said, softly. Too softly.
“You didn’t answer me,” he said. His voice was rough. Tight.
“I didn’t know what to say.”
He let go of my wrist. Stepped back like I’d burned him.
“I should’ve said something from the start,” he muttered. “We should’ve owned it.”
“No, Charles,” I snapped. “You said we should keep it quiet. You said—‘just one season, let me keep you safe.’”
“And I was wrong.”
That shut me up.
He raked a hand through his hair. “I saw the post. The edits. They’re tearing you apart already and they don’t even knowyou.”
My throat tightened. “They never were going to be kind.”
“I don’t care if they’re kind.” He stepped closer. “I care if they hurt you.”
God, he looked wrecked.
And I wanted—more than anything—to kiss him. To close the distance and forget the rest of the world existed.
But I couldn’t.
So I whispered, “Then let me go.”
His face broke open like glass.
“No.”
“Charles.”
“No.” His voice cracked. “You can’t ask me to pretend you don’t belong to me. Not after everything.”
“I’m asking you to protect me. And if the only way to do that is by stepping away—”
He kissed me.
Fast. Desperate. The kind of kiss that didn’t ask permission because it was already falling apart.
I melted. Fought it. Melted again.
But we were still in the paddock. Still surrounded by cameras, journalists, fans.
And I pulled away just before it became a headline.
“We can’t do this here,” I breathed.
“Then come with me.”
“What?”
“Now. Just—just come with me. Five minutes. No one will notice.”
I hesitated. The badge around my neck felt like a noose.
But I followed him anyway.
-
He led me through the back of the hospitality tent, past the fake plants and behind a row of stacked crates, where no cameras pointed and no PR eyes roamed.
A supply closet.
Of course.
It was dark. Cramped. Smelled like rubber gloves and microfiber.
He shut the door behind us and leaned against it like he was trying to breathe.
“I feel like I’m going to lose you.”
I looked at him. Really looked at him.
“Why now?” I whispered. “Why is this the moment you suddenly want to tell the world?”
He was quiet for a long time.
Then—
“Because I watched you lie in that welcome lounge. I watched you say you were excited to see the sport from the inside like you weren’t already part of my world. Like you didn’t wake up next to me three days ago.”
He stepped forward, eyes burning.
“And I hated it.”
“Charles…”
“I hated pretending we didn’t mean something to each other. I hated hearing them talk about you like you were just some fan. I hated the way Carlos looked at you. I hated how beautiful you looked and how I couldn’t even touch you.”
I swallowed hard.
“I hated that too.”
“So then let’s stop.”
“Stop hiding?”
“Stop lying.”
My heart was beating like a drum in my ears.
“You really want to do this?” I asked. “You’re sure?”
He didn’t hesitate. Not even for a second.
“Yes.”
And that’s when we heard it.
The voice outside the door. Someone calling his name.
“Charles? You back here?”
We froze.
He looked at me, eyes wide.
I looked at the floor. The walls. The door.
My fingers found the lock. Clicked it open.
And just before I stepped out, I looked back and whispered:
“Then do it. Say something. Or this is the last time I follow you.”
I left him standing there—speechless, shirt rumpled, heart in his throat.
And I didn’t look back.
-
By evening, the internet had moved on.
Sort of.
They’d stopped asking who I was.
Now they were asking something else.
“Why is Ferrari so quiet today?”
“Where is Charles Leclerc?”
“Is Guest #5 even a real fan?”
“This week is feeling scripted.”
And just when I thought maybe things were calming down...
I saw the photo.
It was blurry. Candid. Taken from a distance.
Charles. Standing alone near the pit wall.
Holding something in his hand.
A ring.
My ring.
--
Flashback — Six months earlier
Monaco, the night after the wedding
The courthouse was already closed.
The florist stand where I bought my bouquet had packed up and gone home.
The streets were glowing, just barely damp from a midday rain, and the city felt like it had exhaled.
And I was married.
To him.
To Charles.
We didn’t throw a party. No cake. No fireworks. Just a hotel suite high above the harbor and a bottle of champagne neither of us had planned on but somehow ended up with anyway.
“I can’t believe we actually did it,” I whispered, toeing off my sandals as he unlocked the room.
“I can.” His smile was lazy, wide. “I’d do it again right now if we hadn’t just paid the filing fee.”
The room was warm. Gold lamplight, cream linens, a view of the marina that looked like something out of a painting. I walked to the window and pressed my fingers to the glass.
Down below, life was buzzing. Music. Laughter. Everything too far away to touch.
“You okay?” he asked.
I nodded. “Yeah. I think I just... didn’t expect to feel this calm.”
“Marrying me is calming? That’s a new one.”
“Shut up,” I said, but I was smiling.
I heard the soft pop of the champagne cork and turned around just in time to see the foam spill over his fingers.
“Smooth,” I said.
“I’m rusty. I haven’t had a reason to celebrate in a while.”
He poured two glasses and crossed the room, handing me one with a small clink.
“To what?” I asked.
He looked at me, then at the tiny band of gold now resting on my finger.
“To the quiet kind of forever.”
I blinked once. Twice. Then I clinked my glass to his.
“To us.”
We didn’t drink right away. He leaned down and kissed me first—slow, warm, like he was trying to memorize the exact way I felt under his hands tonight.
“Mon amour,” he murmured. “Ma femme.”
His wife.
I kissed him back like that name had always been mine.
-
Later, I was wrapped in sheets, tucked against his bare chest, legs tangled and lips swollen, both of us laughing over something dumb we couldn’t even remember anymore.
The window was open, letting in the soft hum of the city and the faint smell of ocean salt.
Charles traced lazy shapes on my back.
“Do you think they’ll find out?” I asked.
He didn’t pretend to misunderstand.
“They’ll guess,” he said. “Eventually.”
“But not yet?”
“Not yet.”
“Why?”
He kissed the crown of my head. “Because I want to keep this—you—to myself for a little longer.”
“Selfish.”
“Absolutely.”
I turned to face him, cheek pressed to the pillow.
“I don’t want to hide forever.”
“You won’t have to.”
“But when it starts—when they know—”
“I’ll handle it.” He brushed his knuckles along my jaw. “I’ll take every hit if it means you don’t have to.”
My throat tightened. “You can’t protect me from all of it.”
“Maybe not. But I can try.”
And then he pulled me close again, tucked under his chin, his voice barely audible.
“I want a life with you. Not just a ring and a secret. A life.”
My eyes stung.
“I want that too.”
He held me tighter.
“Then we’ll build it. Slowly. Quietly. Until one day... no one’s surprised to see you in my garage. Or on my arm. Or wearing my name.”
“Not even the media?”
He smiled against my temple. “Especially them.”
We didn’t fall asleep until after 3 a.m.
And just before I closed my eyes, I looked at the clock glowing faintly on the nightstand.
11:11.
Make a wish, I thought.
I didn’t need to.
He was already mine.
--
There were three microphones on the table.
Three cameras aimed straight at my face.
Four other fan winners.
Twelve journalists.
And one Charles Leclerc.
Seated exactly two chairs away from me.
I could feel him more than I could see him—his presence like a magnet I was desperately trying not to lean toward. His voice when he answered a question was low and measured, but there was tension behind it. Like he was holding his breath every time someone said my name.
Because yes—this press conference?
It wasn’t just about the drivers anymore.
It was about us.
“Let’s talk about the now-viral Fifth Seat post,” the moderator said, glancing at the cards. “There’s been a lot of speculation about Guest Winner #5—Y/N, right?”
I smiled, as calmly as I could. “That’s me.”
The room chuckled, polite but interested. Someone’s pen scratched loudly against a notepad.
“You’ve been paired with Alpine, but fans noticed some interaction with the Ferrari garage. Care to share what that’s about?”
I didn’t look at Charles.
I looked directly at the moderator, and I lied.
“I was lost. Someone pointed me in the wrong direction. That’s all.”
He smiled like he bought it.
Charles didn’t move.
But I saw the way his hands curled into fists on the table.
Liar, liar, ring finger on fire.
-
The rest of the conference passed in a blur. Questions about team dynamics, fan engagement, media perception. I said what I needed to say. Charles said very little.
And then came the final question.
“For all five guests—if you could spend a full day with any driver, who would it be?”
Everyone turned toward us.
Callie answered first. “Lewis, obviously.”
Tom said Max. Serena picked Oscar. Rachel said Carlos and then blushed bright red when he grinned.
And then it was my turn.
My mouth opened.
My heart thundered.
I looked straight at the cameras and said:
“Esteban’s been amazing. I wouldn’t trade my assignment for anyone.”
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw it.
Charles flinch.
Barely. But it was there.
A fraction of a second. A wound split wide open on camera.
The moderator wrapped up. Everyone clapped.
The moment I stood to leave, a hand caught my wrist.
Charles.
We were behind the curtain, out of view but not out of range. His eyes were sharp, glassy with something that looked a lot like heartbreak.
“You don’t have to lie for me anymore,” he said. Quiet. Bitter.
I pulled my arm back. “You said you wanted to protect me.”
“Not like this.”
And then he kissed me.
In full view of the other fan winners.
In full view of the PR team.
In full view of the Ferrari social media intern, who audibly gasped behind her phone screen.
It was soft. Quick. But it was a statement.
When he pulled back, his voice didn’t shake.
“We’re done pretending.”
-
Ten minutes later, the Ferrari garage was in full-blown crisis mode.
“Are you insane?” the team manager asked.
Charles shrugged. “A little.”
I stood beside him, fingers linked tightly through his.
The PR rep was pacing. “Do you want to crash the website? Break the internet? Do you know what you just did?”
He looked at me. Then back at them.
“Yes.”
The intern finally spoke up from the corner. “Do you want us to, like... post something?”
Charles didn’t even blink. “Yes.”
I squeezed his hand. “Are you sure?”
He nodded.
Then looked straight into the camera.
“She’s not a fan. She’s my wife.”
The silence that followed was deafening.
---
Instagram Post – @charles_leclerc
📸: black and white photo
Charles, in a suit. Me, barefoot in that cream linen dress. Holding hands on the courthouse steps.
Caption:
Monaco. Six months ago.
We didn’t do it for the press.
We did it for us.
❤️
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Twitter/X Explodes
🔥 trending: CHARLES LECLERC
🔥 trending: FIFTH SEAT
🔥 trending: “she’s his WHAT?”
🔥 trending: MA FEMME
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Back in the paddock, later that night
I sat next to Charles on the pit wall. No cameras this time. No fans. Just the low rumble of tires being rolled back to the garage and the buzz of lights overhead.
He nudged me with his shoulder. “You okay?”
I let out a long breath. “I don’t know.”
“Too much?”
“Maybe.”
“Regrets?”
I turned to him. Let my hand find his.
“No. Not if it means I can hold your hand in public.”
He smiled—really smiled. The kind that started in his chest and bloomed onto his face like sunlight.
“You’re stuck with me now.”
“I’ve always been stuck with you.”
And this time, when he kissed me, no one interrupted.
No flashbulbs.
No questions.
No more hiding.
Just him.
Just me.
Just us.
---
Epilogue
The Best Seat in the House
Six months later — Monza Grand Prix
The roar of the crowd was thunder in my chest.
Pit lane buzzed with its usual chaos—mechanics darting, tires rolling, cameras clicking like shutters could stop time. I adjusted my headset and tried not to look too giddy as the Ferrari engineers handed me a branded clipboard.
I wasn’t technically staff.
But I wasn’t just a guest anymore, either.
“Looking official, Madame Leclerc,” someone teased as I passed.
I smiled. “Don’t I always?”
It had taken time, but people got used to me. The media storm passed. The internet’s curiosity dulled into mild fascination. I stopped being “Guest #5” and started being his.
His wife.
His person.
His home base between podiums and paddocks.
And now, every few races, I joined him on the road—not as a secret, but as a fixture. Quiet. Steady. Gold band glinting under fluorescent lights and camera flashes.
“Y/N.” His voice crackled through my headset.
I turned toward the monitors, where his car blinked red and white on the map.
“Oui, mon amour?”
“Look up.”
I tilted my head just in time to see his car glide past the pit wall during the formation lap. The Ferrari slowed for just a heartbeat—and in the split-second he passed my section, he lifted his hand off the wheel and held up—
Two fingers.
A peace sign?
No.
A V.
I laughed into the mic. “Victory?”
“No,” he said. “V for Valentine.”
God, he was ridiculous.
“Focus, Leclerc.”
“Always. Especially when you’re here.”
He sped off.
I turned to the monitors, heart racing, hands tight around the clipboard I wasn’t actually using.
Beside me, the Ferrari PR girl grinned. “You nervous?”
“No,” I said honestly. “Not about him.”
The lights dropped. The crowd screamed. The cars launched.
I think about the theatre des vampires performing backstage romance from moulin rouge! during some sort of fucked up montage of Amand’s relationships with both Lestat and Louis every time I hear it
which bmc song would be best to play at a theoretical wedding?
As like a slow first dance song?
Without altering the key, tone, tempo, anything like that, probably A Guy That I'd Kinda Be Into (Reprise) since it's soft and slow and gooey and sweet /pos. And it works as an instrumental or if you play it with the lyrics too.
Technically you could turn any song into a slow dance song if you alter it in some way and play it on piano, but agtikbi reprise is already so perfectly sappy without alterations.
But if we're gonna turn a song into an all out dramatic ass tango (like Moulin Rouge El Tango De Roxanne or Backstage Romance eat your heart out DRAMATIC) then I WANT A BIG ASS ORCHESTRAL VERSION OF THE PITIFUL CHILDREN
They are based off of Nini and Santiago in this AU, so this is specifically based off of Backstage Romance a medley of Bad Romance and Toxic (how fitting)
It doesn’t show it in this photo but Barty 100% has a chest tattoo-
NOT TO MENTION HE/THEY EVAN. THAT IS MY FAVORITE THING ABOUT IT.
