So, as puberty has been a thing in my life for the last few years, it's been taking me through a lot of ups and downs. Last year I was pretty unhappy with my life, with the people surrounding me, with the place where I live, with everything I was given, basically. One day, I took a walk with a dear friend and her dog and then I saw it: all the beauty around me. The weather was gorgeous, the grass was high and there were loads of flowers all over the fields. I realized how ungrateful and blind I’ ve been before and as I realized that, some strange kind of happiness, true, genuine happiness flooded all over me. I had really happy times back then and I remember just bursting into tears of joy and happiness for no reason. It was just so intense and unreal. I would wake up everyday and be happy about everything, and I have no clue how I got to this point.
But of course, nothing is forever and I turned ‘normal’ again. I wasn’t as unhappy as I’ve been in the beginning of 2014 (where I would just cry all the time, wanting to run away. Wanderlust can be such a horrible thing sometimes). But I wasn’t that little bundle of happiness as well. Shit got worse and worse. And now I’m sitting here, admitting how bad I felt in the last months. I would panic because of school, I would distance myself from anyone I used to love, just like friends and parents, I would just lose my motivation to live and have the same old boring days over and over again. The first thing I tried to change was, how anxious I felt about stuff. ‘Cause let’s be real: Stuff happens and once it did happen, you cannot affect it anymore. So just take it as it comes. It’s like the thing with the lemons and the lemonade. When life gives you something bitter (or sour in the case of the lemons: sour) you can either cry over it and get into a spiral of sadness or even depression and always live in the past with your thoughts, or you take it as it comes and get a new perspective. You can’t change what already happened, but you can change the way you look at it. Everytime you’re upset about something, just take a second and ask yourself “Is this going to affect my life in 1/ 5/ 10 years time from now on? Will this matter to me when I’m old and have grandchildren? Will this affect my health or the health of my beloved ones?” if the answer to those questions is “no”, then stop worrying. It doesn’t matter. For heaven’s sake, IT. DOESN’T. MATTER. Don’t waste the precious moments of your life worrying about stuff that won’t matter to you in 1 or 5 or 30 years, if you will. Realize that every single second that passes, will NEVER come back. You will never ever be as young as in this second right now. Every second that passes, is a second that will never return and is a second less of the precious time you’ve got on this earth. Don’t trade your time for sadness. Of course, nobody can be happy and content all the time. There will be moments when you’ll think: Wow, this shit’s really f*cked up. I can’t handle my life right now. I do have serious worries.” Everyone does sometimes. But in the end, it’s not about what happens, it’s about how YOU choose to deal with it. People are so good at being negative and spreading their negative vibes. You are, and so am I. Everyone’s guilty of that, for sure. But what, if we give it a try and make an effort, do be better than that? What, if we seriously try to be better, than our fears, our negativity, our hate for others or ourselves? What if we swallow that mean comment we would like to tell someone we don’t like? What if we decide, to let the good outweigh the bad? What if we try not to think bad thoughts? Wouldn’t the world be such a better place?
Also: if you wake up one day, noticing you aren’t happy with something that you can change, DO IT. It’s much easier to change something about the things that you don’t like, than to complain about it and waist your energy on that.
If it’s something you can’t change, get a new perspective: It could be worse. You are given such a precious life. You (are likely to) have a healthy body. You have acces to fresh food and water everyday. You’ve got a roof above your head. And if you are reding this, you even have got acces to the Internet, which, all of that, is much more than a whole lot of people on this world could ever dream of. Get your head out of your ass and start appreciating everything you’re given.
And get those negative people out of your life. If they don’t make you feel good, if they don’t grow and serve you, if they take away your postive energy, get them out of your life.
There is so much more to life than always looking for the bad. Know the value of everything you’ve got and look for the good in it. Be the one all of your friends know as the positive, happy one. You might not be happy now, but you will get there. It will get better. I promise.
