I bought it on Sekiguchi Shop (official web to purchase it), since they resold kumatan again, I didn't need to think twice to buy it (kinda rush rip my money 😭)
BUT LOOK HE IS SO FLUFFY AND SOFT (FOR REAL)
It feels like touching a cotton, actually I didn't expect it to be so good omggg
(Now I understand why Nobunaga loves and tries to protect kumatan 🥹❤)
through my broken and bruised eye, it was you i beheld.
Summary: Bearsace watches Mai grow up right before his eyes. (He is, after all, the one closest to her.)
Or: a friendship through the ages, told in three parts.
Author’s Note: I’ve been wanting to get this fic published for almost a year now; I had so much fun writing it as I hope you do reading it! Please enjoy one of the most niche fics you might ever read: Ikemen Sengoku in Bearsace’s POV, a la Edward Tulane. Special thanks to @rainebowkitty for reading it over super quick! You can also find this on AO3 here.
Pairings: Nobunaga/MC, but fic centers around Bearsace/MC friendship
Genre: Friendship, family, fluff, hurt/comfort
Rating: K
Word Count: 4,000+
Read Time: 10+ minutes
part one / broken. kyoto, 2004-2017.
What is this?
When he blinked into existence, he felt soft hands beneath his arms. He could not move or speak, but he could feel, and with the hands, he felt warmth.
Who am I?
“Oh, Mai, he’s beautiful!”
“Thanks, Dad!”
Where is this place?
“You’re absolutely the cutest thing I’ve ever made in my whole life. I think I’ll call you… Bearsace.”
This warm feeling in his chest… he wished that he could put a name to it, but everything was dim, and it was uncomfortable to him not to be able to see the face belonging to the long, silky brown hair as it bent over him. The hands caressed a spot above his nose and lips kissed it.
“I still have to sew another eye on you, ‘cause the other one was the wrong size, and I promise you I will… but even though you’re not complete yet, just know that I already love you so much.”
Love . It was a foreign word, but somehow, Bearsace understood that was the name of this feeling. He could not move, yet he wished he could gaze into the face of she who loved him so much— Mai.
Love. I love you, too, Mai.
—
By the time Mai managed to sew another eye on him, he already loved her with all his stuffed heart. He could see her clearly now that he had two eyes, and she was beautiful, and he admired the way she would seat him beside her sewing machine and model gowns for him.
Mai had many ambitions. Bearsace would support them as much as one stuffed bear could. She was his best friend— his only one, to be fair, because every now and again her mother would glare at him and make some snide comment about being too old to play with toys. Bearsace would glare back.
And you’re too old to be judging your daughter like that, but you don’t see me complaining!
—
Mai became very sad very often because her job was not the best one. She would come home, take off her uncomfortable-looking shoes, and Bearsace would always feel his heart swell with bittersweetness anytime she came through the door.
He would wait patiently on the couch, where she placed him every morning, as Mai would slip silently into her room and change into a fuzzy pair of pajamas— Bearsace loved those pajamas!— then, when her hair was up into a messy pile on her head, he would swell with happiness when she finally settled onto the sofa and pulled a blanket up around her legs, taking him into her arms.
Their favorite show was My Vintage Love, a story about a girl who fell in love with a CEO. Well, it was Mai’s favorite show; Bearsace didn’t care much for it. Personally, he enjoyed The Berenstain Bears, which came on the television one day while Mai was at work, but Mai never turned it on on purpose.
It was definitely one of their worst fights.
Fortunately, it was pretty much the only thing that they fought about. Oh, and her job. Bearsace didn’t like anything that made Mai sad.
Sometimes, when she was curled up on the couch, she’d talk to him about anything and everything. Her dreams, her passions…
“Someday, Bearsace, I’m going to make clothes for women everywhere that make them feel beautiful and happy. Every single piece is going to be made with care and love...”
Like me?
“...sorta like the way I made you.”
I knew it. What will you do when you reach that high?
“I was wondering what I’d even do when I get to the top. Maybe I’ll start my own magazine, or maybe I’ll create a fashion line that emphasizes the beauty in every woman’s body, regardless of shape, size, or whatever society calls ‘imperfection.’ I loved you even before you had both your eyes; why shouldn’t every woman feel that same love?”
Yes! He cried in happiness. Yes, this is such a good dream, and I support you completely. Mai, you won’t forget me, even when you are making others as happy as you make me?
“Man, I’m hungry,” she said with a yawn, placing him on the armrest and setting him down before trudging to the kitchen. “I’m gonna go order in some takeout.”
He felt his heart pang in a little bit of disappointment. He hated it when she ignored what he said.
—
Bearsace hated Mai’s other friends. Like “love,” it took him a while to find the word for “hate,” until Mai slammed her phone into the couch, snarling,
“I absolutely hate Yuka!”
Ah, Yuka. A fine piece of work, she was. The first time he ever met her, Bearsace was on the couch as usual when Mai came home with her.
Hello! Bearsace had said, excited to make a new friend. But Yuka ignored him and tossed him to the side to make room on the couch for herself. How rude!
Not to mention, she seemed to have no idea what it meant to be a good friend, the way Bearsace did. She rolled her eyes at Mai, suggested she find something “better” to do with her time… really, how bad of a friend could one person be?
“All she ever does is beat me down on my dreams… she thinks I should go back to school for something more— more— more reasonable ?! She says I’m not talented enough to be a fashion designer? I hate that!”
It’s okay, Bearsace said, falling over into her lap. I’m here for you.
—
It was on a rainy day that Mai whooped for joy. Bearsace wished he could turn around, because currently he was seated on the couch watching My Vintage Love and he would rather be spending time with Mai.
But she came into the living room soon enough and lifted him into a hug, which made him very happy.
What’s going on, Mai?
“Oh, my dreams are so close! All I’ve gotta do is nail this job interview and then it’s no more time-wasting coffee runs for a devil boss, no more getting yelled at for even the little mistakes— no more of that for me. I’m so close!”
If a bear could dance, he would. But for now, he was content to revel in the joy that Mai felt as she danced, and danced, and danced.
—
“Fine stitching you’ve done on it,” said the interviewer.
Bearsace rolled his eyes. I’m not an “it,” he responded in a biting tone. He looked to Mai, wondering if she might share in some of the same annoyance that he did, but she held her tongue.
“I did all the stitchwork by hand,” she explained.
“Tell me, what was the reasoning behind acrylics for eyes, instead of buttons?” The interviewer poked him in the eye, and Bearsace wanted to flinch away.
Watch it, jerk. I use those to see.
Mai smiled that amused smile. “I guess I just figured it’d help him see better.”
—
When Mai got the call that she got the job, she squealed and ran into the next room to call her father. Bearsace was not jealous that she did not go to him first; after all, he knew that she would be a shoo-in, anyway.
He looked upon Mai with pride when she picked him up and squeezed him to her chest.
I knew you could do it.
“What do you say we go do something special, just you and me?”
—
“I wasn’t expecting this much rain!”
Bearsace fit rather comfortably in her purse and was also impressed by the deluge that hit them at the temple at Honno-ji, though why Mai considered that a vacation was beyond him.
But it was special. They were there together, after all.
What absolutely was not special was this downpour! Mai’s hair was dripping, and also the hiring packet in her purse was going to get soaked. Never fear, though— Bearsace flopped over inside Mai’s bag onto the hiring packet, protecting it from the rain.
Thunder rumbled overhead and Bearsace found himself fearful; he couldn’t see anything! There were voices; one was Mai’s, and it sounded afraid, and he desperately wished to protect her. The other sounded as if it belonged to a man, and Bearsace felt alarm bells ring in his head. At all costs, he had to protect Mai.
Run, Mai, run! He had barely managed to say the words when a flash of white took over his world. All he could feel was fear.
part two / bruised. azuchi, 1582.
Bearsace didn’t like the Oda forces, or whatever other clown names they chose to call themselves.
He tried, he really did.
Hello! He cried again, excited when he saw the strange man taking a nap on the burning roof. Hello! I am Bearsace. And you are?
“I am Oda Nobunaga… How would you like to rule the world at my side?”
That seems like a pretty good deal, Mai. We should take it.
“Uhh, thanks, but no thanks.”
But that’s a good choice too.
And then they were running quickly through the bushes. Wryly, Bearsace couldn’t help but point out that they would not be running if she had taken that man’s offer, but Mai, of course, ignored him again.
—
Bearsace tried very hard to make new friends. After discovering that he had traveled five-hundred years to the past, he was surprised for a moment, but only a moment. He was, after all, a talking bear.
Hello! He said to the man with the eyepatch. I am Bearsace. And then the man held a sword to Mai’s throat, and from that point, Bearsace would snap his teeth at him instead of greet him politely.
It’s nice to meet you! He said to the man who did not really smile, but wore a lot of yellow, which confused Bearsace, who associated yellow with the color of happiness. I hope we can look at each other happily. The man did not speak, except to insult Mai. Never mind. I hate you.
I look forward to being your close friend, he said to the man who was friendly and had a mole near his eye, and Bearsace soon discovered he liked him the best, because he was the only one who was friendly to Mai from the start.
The three who Bearsace did not particularly bother with were the one who reminded him of a snake, the one who lectured Mai too much, and the one who was dumb enough to take naps on the roof.
He didn’t really have time for negativity like that.
—
Fortunately, Mai was as smart and resilient as expected. With the help of a ninja— an actual ninja!— she built up a plan to return to the future after three months from now. That, unfortunately, meant that she was under the protection of these weirdos for the next three months. She was awfully lucky that Bearsace was there to defend her.
We’ll get through this, Mai. Together.
—
It was very irritating, the way that those warlords seemed to fall for her within a matter of weeks and fawn over her as if she was a doll. Mai, for her part, did not seem to be getting attached, which was good, if they were going to return to the present and finish Mai’s dream together.
Following two months in the Sengoku, his friend began to spend some time away in the evening, which was nice but also lonely. Bearsace could not sleep, but he could sit and stare at the ceiling and think. Usually he would not get bored of it, except that he could not stand guard over Mai if she was not there.
She actually seemed to grow happy, which made Bearsace happy. That was really all it took, and because it seemed to be those handsy Sengoku warlords who made her so, he gave them his grudging respect.
—
Mai cried sometimes. She always wore her heart on her sleeve, but it was the small, conflicted sobs in the middle of the night that snapped Bearsace out of his daydreaming as he kept watch over her.
Don’t cry , he said as his heart ached. Please don’t cry.
It was then that Mai reached for her purse and pulled out the hiring packet, and Bearsace’s heart broke a little bit more.
We have so many plans, don’t we? You can’t be sad for those.
She sniffled and held the papers in her hand.
Look! I kept them nice and dry for you. Surely that must mean something. All our plans, all our dreams… I will stick by you. Don’t give up yet.
Mai ignored him again. She tore the papers in half.
—
“I’m not going back.”
The only person— or bear— more surprised than Sasuke was Bearsace, himself.
What do you mean you’re not going back?! You didn’t speak to me before making this choice on your own, so that we could make it together?
“I thought you might say that. What gives?” Sasuke gave that secretive smile.
“To be honest with you, Sasuke… I’ve fallen in love with Oda Nobunaga.”
You WHAT?! The roof man?!
“Oh, is that so?”
Be quiet, Sasuke. Mai, how could you not tell me this?
“Well, to be honest with you,” Sasuke continued, “I’m not going back, either. You see, I have found some employment here that I can’t bear to leave in such a tumultuous time. You understand. But Mai, by my calculations… it seems that we may be forced to return.”
Yes! Don’t give up on our dream, Mai! Bearsace exclaimed, though he immediately wished to take it back once he saw the crushed look on Mai’s face.
“Please tell me that isn’t true, Sasuke. It took a lot of soul-searching to choose that he means more to me than any desk job.”
Look on the bright side; we’ll have the chance to be happy again, in our own time, right?
Sasuke launched into a long-winded explanation that Bearsace was far too agitated to understand, but it seemed to boil down to this:
As long as Mai and Sasuke remained in the past, time itself would remain wrathful and relentless.
—
Mai stayed in her room that night and cried. She did not meet Nobunaga, whom Bearsace now realized she snuck out every night to see. She cried until Bearsace feared her chest would cave in with sadness. He leaned against her thigh and allowed her to bury her face into the top of his head until the tears stopped… and, inevitably, they would start again.
How could he have known that Mai was falling in love? In dismay, he realized that the seam between them was tearing faster than he could patch it up. He tried talking to her many times that night— would try to offer words of encouragement, that even if they had to go back, he would always support her no matter what. But no matter how loud he yelled, she only cried harder, ignoring him.
“I don’t know what to do,” she whimpered. “I can’t leave him.”
Those were the first words she had spoken since Sasuke left, and Bearsace was immediately at attention. For the first time in a long time, Mai picked him up and looked him straight in the eye, and hugged him.
With a pang in his chest, he realized that she didn’t hug him quite the same, anymore.
It’s going to be okay. Can you please, please just respond to me once? I’m so afraid for you.
Her tears stained his fur, and he didn’t realize that anything could quite hurt this bad. “What do I do, what do I do?” she repeated, as if doing so would create a solution.
Mai…
“Ugh, what am I doing…?!”
Mai?!
“I’m talking to a dumb… a dumb stuffed toy! You can’t even talk or think; why do I still even depend on you?”
She had never raised her voice at him— not even when he wanted to change the channel from My Vintage Love to just anything else. Startled, he fell backwards as Mai snarled down at him, tears in her eyes.
“Sitting here crying isn’t going to do anything. I need to think of a way to stay.”
With a note of finality, she took him out the double doors and sat him down inside the storage closet outside. The room went dark when she closed it, and he yelled for her.
—
Bearsace did not speak for a long, long time.
—
A maid found him, once, and asked the castle head what to do with him. He said that because Bearsace belonged to the princess, she should put him back where she found him.
—
A rat ate one of his eyes and choked to death on it before the other one. It did not hurt as bad as Bearsace thought it would.
—
The roof of the closet caved in, and of all people, it was Eyepatch Man who found him.
“Ha!” exclaimed Eyepatch Man, tugging at his paws. “Mitsuhide, didn’t this belong to Mai?”
“Oh, dear. I hadn’t realized our beloved Lady Oda had forgotten anything when she left this room. How very much like her.”
“Look, he’s missing an eye. Guess he matches me, now.”
They forgot about him when they were done fixing the closet, and a castle boy put him back on top of a puddle of melted snow.
—
“Oh, it’s here somewhere…”
Mitsunari! Bearsace cried hoarsely. It had been many weeks (or months, or likely even years) since he had seen Eyepatch Man and Mitsuhide. He would have been happy to see anyone, but Mitsunari was a treat. Where is Mai? She cannot have forgotten about me…
“Just grab what you need and go. You’ll be late for the treaty-signing with the Uesugi-Takeda forces if you don’t hurry up.”
“You’re always so wise, Lord Ieyasu! I- oh, here it is!”
Mitsunari extracted a sword from the depths of the shed. It was ornate and lovely, and covered in dust.
“This will do for a fine peace offering, don’t you say?”
“A peace offering isn’t necessary, with Mai having strengthened our relationship with them so well. I still don’t understand why you were so insistent on…”
Bearsace could not hear what Mitsunari was insistent on, because neither of them saw him on the ground.
—
A young girl with carmine eyes and caramel hair was the next one who found him. Beaten down, Bearsace could offer little more than a weak hello. The girl tilted her head and tugged at a sleeve whose owner was partially hidden by the doorframe.
“Father, what’s this?”
part three / beholding. azuchi, 1592.
Nobunaga’s hands were oddly gentle when he propped the young girl on one arm and took Bearsace in the other. His face was blank, and those hawk’s eyes were boring straight into his.
But those eyes… they were softer, somehow. Content. Bearsace felt ashamed at the way he must look in those eyes that had clearly seen a happy life— were continuing to see a happy life. His face had grown tan, his hair cropped a little bit neater. A scar on his cheek that had not been there before was there now, but did not distract from his handsomeness.
That wry smirk was impossible to misplace, though.
“I recognize you, don’t I?”
“What is it?”
“Your mother made him. Have you seen her, little one?”
“She’s with my uncles.”
Bearsace was so surprised to see Nobunaga bend down to kiss the girl on the cheek that he thought his other eye might fall right off. And if the girl’s mother made him, and Nobunaga was the girl’s father…
“Leave us, Shingen and Mitsunari.”
Nobunaga had made quick time to the audience chamber, where two men and a woman were laughing heartily over a game of cards. The woman had her back to him, but she kissed the two men on the cheeks as they left, then turned around.
Her hair was shorter. Her eyes were bright, and somehow, the kimono seemed better-suited to her now than it had the last time he had seen her many, many years ago. She looked at Nobunaga and the girl with sheer love, and then her gaze dropped to Nobunaga’s other arm— where the stuffed bear sat— and turned disbelieving before filling with tears.
“Bearsace?”
...Mai?
—
Her hands were gentle as she plunged him into rose-scented water and washed away the dust of many years. Her fingers were gentle as they wove thread through his bursting sides. Her lips were gentle as she, like she had many years ago, kissed the spot where his eye would be.
“It seems like you’re just not meant to have this eye, Bearsace. I’m afraid acrylics haven’t been made yet, but between you and me, I think you’ll be just as cute with one acrylic eye and one button one.”
One thing that Bearsace had never noticed was that Mai stuck the tip of her tongue out when she sewed.
One thing that he did notice was that she was wrong many years ago when she told the interviewer acrylics would help him see better.
The button eye made his vision crystal clear.
—
“Yumi, meet Bearsace.”
It’s very nice to meet you, Bearsace said. His voice was still sore from many years of disuse. He felt an unnamed feeling in his heart when he gazed upon Yumi— Mai and Nobunaga’s daughter. Her face was impassive, but with the same spark of curiosity that both her parents possessed.
“I was… very mean to Bearsace when I was younger. Do you think that you can take good care of him for me?”
The corner of Yumi’s lips quirked upwards as she looked at her mother with twinkling eyes. She took Bearsace in her hands gently, tenderly, and kissed the top of his head.
“Good night, Yumi, and sweet dreams. I love you.”
As Mai leaned down to nuzzle her daughter’s head, Bearsace noted that she always had the makings of a fine mother. She smiled down at Bearsace next.
“I’m so sorry that I got angry at you and left you in that shed. You were always there for me when times got rough. I love you so much, Bearsace,” Mai whispered in his ear and kissed the tip of his nose.
Slowly, Bearsace felt the frigidity that had taken hold of his heart begin to melt away. He did not feel empty anymore.
I love you too, Mai. It no longer hurt when she could not respond, because he knew now that he would always be with her.
“Good night. I love you. Say good night, Bearsace.” Yumi said. She lifted Bearsace’s arm and waved at her mother with it.
For one blissful, thousand-thread moment, Mai waved back.
epilogue / azuchi & kyoto, c. 1600s-2016.
Nobunaga and Mai died hand-in-hand on a beautiful spring day after living a long and happy life together. They were the last of their friends to pass, and were buried with them, too. Bearsace had come to love the strange family he had found, who had all found each other, too.
Even if they had hated each other for so long.
When it came Yumi’s time, she held the hand of her son and made him swear to protect Bearsace with his life. And when it came his time, he did the same with his daughter, and she with hers.
Bearsace did not throw his words so much now. He spoke carefully, affectionately, and with all the wisdom he possessed after so many years.
Sometimes, he would reminisce.
The way that Mitsuhide’s lips puckered before teaming up with Masamune to tease Mai.
The way that Kenshin and Nobunaga would spar in the courtyard, scaring the maids even from across the castle.
The way that Hideyoshi nagged Yukimura, and the way that Yukimura rolled his eyes.
They made his heart blossom and wilt and laugh and cry and dance and sing— all at once. This was love, Bearsace had decided a few hundred years ago. The way he could so clearly see in his button-eye the joys that they had shared together— and the way that, after so many years, he could not help but care so deeply.
Even after all these years, Bearsace was in excellent condition because of how well everyone had taken care of him. It was why, when a great, great, great— who-knew-how-many-greats— descendant of the Oda donated him to a museum, he was placed in the center of the Azuchi-Echigo exhibit, right across from a weathered painting that explained the importance of Mai.
c.1582: An ancestor of the teddy bear, “Bearsace” was hand-sewn by Oda Mai, famous peacekeeper of the Azuchi-Echigo Treaty, then passed through the generations by her descendants. This is one of the best-preserved artifacts of the Sengoku period. Generously donated to the Azuchi Castle Archive Museum by Oda Sakura.
“Huh. That’s weird.”
Bearsace had felt asleep for many years, missing the sound of her voice. When he heard it again, he almost felt his heart collapse in shock.
“This Bearsace kinda looks like my Bearsace.”
It took a moment for Bearsace to look down at the newspaper that Mai held in her hands, dated with the year of 2016— the year, he realized, before she and another version of him would go back to the Sengoku period. His eyes could not take enough of her in as she tilted her head, looking at him with a fond sort of bemusement.
Mai, he called, voice breaking with brilliant, shining emotion as she walked away, not thinking twice of the strange encounter. I missed you. Don’t forget to give me to Yumi, and don’t forget to sew me another eye.
But she was something of a white bird in a blizzard— he could not catch her. But he was content to watch as she walked away, farther into a life that he knew would make her very happy. This was all that he swore to do— was to protect her, so that she could finally be happy. The joy of it settled something within him, and visitors to the museum that day could have sworn that the bear’s face settled into a permanent, peaceful smile.
Day 15 of MC/OCtober! Moving away from Obey Me for a few days.
This here is purely a crack idea of Ikesen MC making a life size Bearsace costume. My MC would definitely use this to prank Nobunaga by putting it on and just sitting in the tenshu. Nobu would no doubt prank her back by pretending he didn’t know she was in the costume and just going ahead and cuddling with the Bearsace costume while wondering out loud where MC went.
