excerpt: Report from Rose V. after Beasthood recovery 08/19/2020 "... We think that Beasthood is about hating humanity, or having a twisted love humanity... I don't think it's about it being twisted at all. I think it's about feeling the weight of the love of all of what humanity does, the culture, the billions of people and how we all try so hard to love each other and to fix things and survive and create despite all of the hardships. I think it's about feeling that immense, body-and-soul crushing love and that weight and thinking, 'What do I do with this? How can I protect this as it has been? What do I do?'. It's a desperation. It's a wish that something was different. I think both Kiara and Kama felt it too. The sense of wanting to protect it within yourself. When Tiamat wanted to return humanity to its infancy and re-raise it, I think she understood and felt the pain and love of everything all at once. And being a primordial goddess, she felt its pain hard, because she looked after humanity and its growth for an astonishingly long time. And for Kama, who has been around for eras, this was one of their last chances to get any catharsis. But Kiara and I are different. The world treated us terribly. And we still loved it more than anything and desired a world of peace. She wanted to bring it inside of her. I want to turn it inside out. I still do. I still want a better way for humanity to exist. If I'm here, it's my responsibility to do it. I know, as things are, humanity will keep killing itself and I am hopeless to watch. I can't do anything. But I could never hate humanity. I could never. Humanity is what brought me here, it's what kept me here. Humanity made me what I am. What else is there? Genuinely, what else is there for us?"
