serious talk now. i’m joking around a lot today & i’m smiling at the dash & with my friends finally. these two 2 weeks has been really rough for me. i struggled with my own feelings & i couldn’t eat anything for some days & tho i tried to eat something, i couldn’t because i ended up throwing up everything. i lost weight & my body felt so week. i cried so much to get to the point i couldn’t cry anymore because really i had no more tears to share. i felt so bad about myself, i felt so insecure, so scared & so angry with everything & everyone around me. every time someome tried to cheer me up, i tried to say “ yhea now i’m fine. ”, tho i wasn’t. i didn’t wanna bug you all with my pain & with my shits. i didn’t wanna talk, but i wanted. & look at this. look at how many friends i got at my side, how many of you supported me, so much even tho i was acting like an empty puppet.
i don’t know what to say or how to put this in words. if i could i would hug each of you so much because that i think is the most powerful way to say how much you helped me & how much i care for u. just thanks. thanks from the bottom of my heart. i’m realizing how stupid & how silly i was for crying for something like that. really i was stupid af. but now, oh, now it’s a NEW START. i started to eat again, to smile more, to text my rl friends more, to text each of you more & to make new friends. i started to open myself more & to put my pain aside. i’m still healing but i can finally see results & the smile i have, while writing this, means you all did it, you all helped me & that i’m chaning & i’m feeling finally happy. thanks. thank you, thank you so much.
