where are you? I’m searching for you while stucking in xanax. I fucking hate you and your shadow, how it devours me in the middle of a sleepless night. I thought I could do it, but the ketamine is already in my veins and it’s carrying your name in my blood to my rotten heart. I should’ve stopped when I got the chance. I saw you in every corner of my ill mind. I want to kill you, kiss you, devour you like you devour me. half undressed, I walked out of your haunted house, I want to burn you down with it, in it, screaming my name until nobody remembers yours. I don’t want to live like this, I asked too many questions, I gave you too many answers and reasons for you and your ego. are you really going to live without me? while I’m still screaming to somebody to shoot me. jail of sin, I opened my legs as I opened my heart, thinking we could share our blood. mixing it together. but I drowned in your tears, lost all my control and you weren’t there to entertain me.