So I was on my days on giving up on love coz itās been rejections and heart aches for a bit too long before I met this amazing girl.
Iām an active youth in our parish(yep Iām a catholic and Iām gay so what?) And we organized this event so we could recruit more youth to be active in church. I was on another booth because there were only a few people coming in and no one was signing up for my committee so I kinda wanted to see how the others were doing.
I looked behind me to check up on my spot and there was this BEAUTIFUL GIRL walking towards my booth and the first thing that ran into my mind was āWOAH..ā and then I ran towards her to greet her. I introduced myself, she does the same thing, I asked her a few questions to get to know her, and she signed up! She became active in church and we got to work with each other ever since but we didnāt became that close because I didnāt wanna hit on her coz I felt that it wasnāt gonna work out like the rest did. Until one day, we were on a retreat and we just got to know each other more and I realized, I really cant stop myself from falling for her.
While we were on the car on our way home, we sat next to each other. It was a long trip because of the traffic so we decided to sleep in off. I guess we both wanted to get comfortable so she rested her head on my shoulder and so did I on her head and honestly, I couldnāt sleep at all coz my heart was going nuts! I asked for her hand to keep me calm and she willingly held mine. It was amazing! I felt like I was floating, like we were in a different place where thereās only the two of us, and I became so calm I finally fell asleep.
After the retreat, we kept in touch, we texted everyday from morning to midnight and I was just.. falling.. harder. But I still couldnāt tell her my true intentions because first of all sheās freak'n straight!!! I was so scared to tell her that I love everything about her, that I thank her for changing the bitter heart inside me and for waking me up each day making me want to love again. But I was just too scared to know if she feels the same way about me or not because that would mean losing her, that would mean saying goodbye to the good mornings and good nights and all the conversations we used to have, that would mean losing my universe. But I guess not telling her would also result in the same way, my feelings would be based on my assumptions on how I give meaning to every word she says to me so I had to clear things out.
So I finally told her I like herā¦
And to my surprise, SHE FREAK'N LIKES ME TOO!! And I was like āwoah what?? Srsly?!ā And I looked so stupid coz I was holding my phone, walking home, and I couldnāt take that big, weird smile out my face! But it was the best!
We went on dates, met each otherās friends and family, made it official, and now weāve been together for almost a year and everyday feels like the first day, every time I see her, I get the āWOAH..ā like the first time I saw her, but i donāt like her anymoreā¦
Now I love her so much more.