Chapters: 4/?
Fandom: Good Girls (TV)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Beth Boland/Rio, Beth Boland & Rio
Characters: Beth Boland, Rio (Good Girls), Emma Boland, Annie Marks
Summary:
It was typical for him to leave before she woke, they were still casual. Definitely still casual. He had... what was it? Other side dishes? Right. It was honestly better this way. Less messy. Sure, she had feelings but she hadn’t been in a new relationship since the 10th grade so...
It was humid and sweaty under the bedsheets. She woke up to hair sticking to her forehead and sticky limbs twisted in sheets before she even noticed he was gone.
Any lingering feelings of longing, any fantasties of staying for breakfast, walking to a cafe... that was scrubbed off in her morning shower. Swallowed with coffee and a brisk walk to work. You get what you get. She was simply lucky to be alive and remain in his good graces. This... these extra benefits.. were just for fun. Besides, she couldnt afford to -
Beth’s spiral was interrupted by the bedroom door clicking shut.
“Coffee.” He slipped back into the room without a sound, his hands occupied with two large to-go cups.
She snapped her hand back from the left side of the bed where it had been exploring his absence, lost for words but also momentarily distracted by his five o’clock shadow and crumpled tee-shirt that had been haphazardly thrown back on.
“You.. ‘re still here?”
“Ya. Nothin on this morning.”
She must of looked a strange mix of alarmed and confused, as he chuckled when she rolled onto her back, pulling the sheets up around her neck.
“Am i interrupting somethin’?” He mused.
“No, no, .. I just...” This was just new that’s all. The outstreched coffee was welcomed into her hands and she adjusted her poisiton to sip.
He seemed unfazed. Soft, even, as he took off his jeans and sighed back under the covers.
They drank their coffee in content silence, chitchatting as they took their time adjusting to the day. It was... eerily straight out of fantasties but she pushed the thought away. Casual. Hooking up. Side dish.
Yawning and laying back down, Rio pushed himself up against her side, breathing in her neck.
“Mm. Love that shampoo you got. Love you.”
Beth shot upright, threatening the coffee to spill onto her brand-new duvet.
“Excuse me?”
Rio moved (annoyingly) slow up to sit, laughing as he did.
“Said I like the way your hair smells.”
“Uhuh, the other thing.”
The way he grinned was truly infuritating.
“Said I love you. why, wassup?”
She turned to face him head, her heart beating audibly in her throat.
“Rio...”
“Watchu think this is?” His faced quirked in faux-disbelief “This ain’t no like situation sweetheart.”
“But I... I’ve..” Her eyes drift down to the ragged skin framing his shoulder.
They stared at each other for a moment or two, his eyes a little sheepish.
“Exactly. I’m still here aren’t I?”
“I - I..”
“Nah, nah. You don’t gotta say nothin’. Thats not how this works. I don’t needta hear it back.”
‘You don’t?
“Nah. Been loving your stubborn ass for a long time now. You haven't exactly made it easy either.”
“Oh.”
They laid for an hour or two, drifting in and out of sleep, and he stayed. He stayed. He stayed.
He huffed a laugh again, rolling to his side and pulling her in. Unfazed, while her world continued to rock upside down.
She turned to face him finally, burying her face in his chest.
"How are you planning on getting home?" He asked looking around and gesturing today the parking lot
"I dunno...I was just so mad I didn't think that far ahead. I'm probably just gonna walk"
"Damn that's kinda far"
"It's only half a mile"
"Well I'm gonna walk with you I walked here earlier and I don't want you walking alone by yourself at night who knows what could happen to a fox like you"
"You don't have to do that I can take care of myself I'm a boss bitch" I said smiling at him and we slowly started walking
"Well that is true" he said laughing. This was amazing seeing him laugh. Seeing him feel things that weren't anger or lust. I was falling and I wasn't sure what I was gonna do.
"You know my apartment is closer if you want we could go there instead have some drinks then I could drive you home if you want"
Wait a minute did he just invite me to his apartment for drinks. This can't be real I'm dreaming. Wake me up right freaking now or I'll loose my shit.
"I-um s-sure"
"Cool it's this way"
As we walked it was mainly silent the rest of the way. Just cars passing by and my heels clicking. At one point I stopped because we walked past this thrift store.
"Wow" I said putting my hand against the glass and admiring this gorgeous antique pair of earrings. They were rose gold looking teardrop dangle earrings and they sparkles from the street lights.
I saw him realize I stopped and walk back to see what I was looking at. And call me crazy but out of the corner of my eye I could have sworn I saw him admiring me more than the earrings.
"Yeah they are..really beautiful"
I smiled and looked over seeing he was inches from me. I leaned and little and so did he. So close I couldn't bare it. I just looked into his eyes and he did the same to me. In the moment we connected and I know it and I know he felt something too. We leaned a little closer. It's happening I suddenly forgot everything I ever knew and started panicking so I just closed my eyes and breathed he must have sensed my nervousness. He leaned forward and rested his forehead on mine and sighed.
"Elizabeth" he breathed barely audible.
I just stayed silent not sure what was going to happen.
"I...I can't. I'm sorry" he said leaning back up and turning to stare at the sky. I wanted to breakdown and cry right there. But I didn't.
"It's okay you know? I get it. Cmon let's just get back to your place and then skip drinks and just take me home since we are almost to your apartment anyway." I said maturely and started to walk again
"Elizabeth" he sighed sounding frustrated and torn.
"I'm really sorry"
"Don't be its okay" I said turning and then walking again. He caught up and we walked the rest of the way silently. Nothing but the cool breeze,my heels tapping,and the low hum of cars every once in awhile.
We walked up to his apartment complex things getting awkward a bit.
"Don't you want to come in for a second to rest your feet? One drink?" He asked nicely trying to pretend what just happened didn't.
Not wanting time argue or do anything to make him cold again I agreed. We proceeded to walk in to his apartment and I sat on his couch taking off my heels. He lit the electric fireplace and went and got bourbon and two glasses with ice. Our drink.
I curled my legs under me and sipped the drink and looked around avoiding eye contact. He came and sat down in the chair next to the couch sipping his bourbon and staring at me look around like a shy teenager.
"Elizabeth"
"Hmm" I said still looking away
"Elizabeth. Look at me."
I slowly glanced and looked over at him he had put his drink down and was resting on his hand on his knee.
"Talk to me"
"About?"
"Are you really ok? Because you don't seem like it. This aint gonna affect anything right? With the buiz?"
"You gotta be fuckin kidding me. Yes Rio. I'm fine and yes the business will be ok since that's all you care about. I don't know if you noticed but I can't really do anything to quit or fuck it up so yeah it's fine" I said angry at this point standing up planning to just leave and get a Uber.
"The business will be ok and to save you trouble I'm just gonna order a Uber thanks for the bourbon." I started to walk out
He stood up quickly "no no Elizabeth I didn't mean it lik-"
"You know your just like fucking Dean except a gang leader and better at hiding being a dick"
"Hey! Don't say that! I'm nothing like that scumbag. I would never treat you like that!"he said raising his voice and walking towards me
I backed up a little out of fear "oh really? Because your acting like him right now! You know I'm so stupid for a minute I really thought oh he is a good guy he can be sweet and kind like any human but nope it was just all fake to what? Fuck me? Just like dean? Or to make me think things aren't just in my head? Give me a sliver of hope to just take it away? Or were you just gonna fuck me take me home and know that your precious business won't be affected because you have me wrapped around your little finger and your just gonna use me just like dean does and treat me like noth-"
"IM NOT FUCKING LIKE HIM ELIZABETH! I CARE ABOUT YOU UNLIKE THAT FUCKING PUSSY YOU MARRIED! I WOULD NEVER DO ANY OF THAT!" He blew up raising his arms in the air every muscle flexed and tense anger fuming in his eyes. He took a breath and still very frustrated continued
"I don't like myself around you! I feel things I shouldn't for you! And I'm trying my best to hide it because you can't know! The truth is your way to fucking good for me! I need to keep this mask on so you don't know the truth or else everything is at stake! And yes I care a lot about the business because one slip and I loose everything! My son! My life! Shit!....YOU! And then I have nothing! So excuse me for wanting to fucking watch out for myself!" He let all this out and I just stood there shocked
I had never seen him like this. I wanted nothing more than to hold and kiss him and tell him it's ok.
Me: *Watches Beth and Rio argue and fight, not communicate, go behind each other’s backs, and treat sex like a competition with absolutely no emotional attachment*