and all the skies turned gray || birius
Bella pressed her lips together and sat down on the ground, the warm grass moving around her thin legs and she just sat there. She didn't talk-- she couldn't talk. The words on the gravestone were all blurry-- but his name was perfectly clear. Sirius Karofsky-Hummel. The tears were on the edges on her eyes but she wouldn't let them fall. He was gone and he wasn't coming back. He wasn't going to come back because he was taken away form her just like her fathers were.
How much could one girl take? How much loss and how much heart break before she just gave up? Bella wasn't herself anymore. Not since she got the news from Everett that he didn't make it. Part of her was missing. She didn't talk to many people, she faked smiles only once a month and Kyle was the only reason she was passing her classes at Stanford-- always telling her that Sirius would be yelling at her for not doing work. She didn't want to be a lawyer anymore, she didn't want to be anything. Sirius was the one that told her to chase her dreams, always told her she would be a good lawyer, that he would always support her and be there with each of her cases and now he couldn't be there. He was gone.
Swallowing slowly-- basically forcing the saliva down her throat she took a breath and got up. "I'm sorry." She said quietly to the gave and pressed her hand to her lips before she touched the tombstone, once single tear falling from her eye and off her face to the top of the tombstone. It was a horrible thing-- made Bella feel disgusted in herself for crying. She tried to wipe it off but she knew it wasn't going to dry from her hand. Letting out a breath she had been holding, she looked at the grave one last time before walking off.
She wasn't Bella Smythe-Anderson. That person got buried the same day as Sirius.
