#blayze talks

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Kit Herondale to the tune of Doors by Noah Kahan

my fave shadowhunter and my fave noah kahan song from the new album?? and they’re perfect. lyrics & analysis under the cut!

my book/song association masterpost

lyrics // analysis

I grew up pretending sticks were little guns

I would point 'em at my dad, and he'd get mad

'Cause God forbid I hurt someone // obviously johnny’s not mad at the prospect of kit hurting someone, but he is mad that kit is exhibiting shadowhunter tebdencies

I'd hurt anyone I could

Anyone who got too close, and anyone who wouldn't look // very herondale trait lol

I was born into a one hundred year storm // the first heir, the lost herondale. maybe that’s more than a hundred years

Foot of ice across Vermont // cold peace vibes a bit

And in that dark, and in that frost, a heart was formed // a heart, cause kit loves so much

Malcontented and unwarm // kit is not this but i could see him believing it about himself

You were unsuspecting, not unwarned // ty was always so confident kit would stay, despite all of kits warnings that he would leave

That I'm the trouble ahead // kit being the first heir kind of is the trouble ahead (in twp). and it has gotten his loved ones in trouble many times before

That I scream in my sleep

You're putting money on red, I'm a sure bet at a losing streak // kit to the blackthorns, to jem and tessa—to everyone who’s loved him more than johnny

I keep showing you doors, but you can't open them up // giving people reasons to leave

'Cause it gets harder to see me the closer you try to look // i do believe that one of the reasons ty is so enamoured with kit is not just because he is willing to help ty solve mysteries, but because he is a mystery in and of himself

I just live here, babe, but you're the one who decided to knock // sleeping outside his room for a week?

And you knocked

Have you ever stared directly at the sun? // ok kit describes ty as the moon more than the sun but still

Have you ever shared some closeness, so exposed

To have it spit back by someone? // arguably what happens (from kits pov) with his confession in qoaad

So, forgive me if I jump

At the rattle of your keys // kit doesn’t expect anyone to care for him or want him around after johnny (who i do believe loved him but was just bad at it)

"Oh, are you leaving?, " "No, babe, I'm just waking up" // i see this as ty to kit when kit realises things in twp

And now what?

I'm left staring at the ceiling, listing reasons you should pack all your shit up // again, reasons people should leave kit

(chorus repeats)

I'll be gone so long before the anger comes // kit leaving with tessa and jem before ty or julian or anyone can express any “anger” (they wouldn’t, but he expects that)

I'll be only what you've known of me 'til now

Oh, how I hope you're moving on // this is a lie

(chorus repeats)

I just live here, babe, but you're the one x 3 // imagining this playing when kit sees ty again at the beginning of twp

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band au where it’s simon’s band and clary tours with them as their like…artistic manager? and jace, alec, isabelle, and aline are in a band together. jace is obviously lead guitar/vocals, alec is bass, aline is synth, and izzy is drums (let my girl Hit something). magnus is the stylist or smth at whatever big festival they meet at. anyway drop dead would be sizzy’s song.

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anyway if anyone is wondering why we all love the marauders please go read the blue of distance by rebecca solnit it is transformative.

i have thought about it at least once a week for the past year (since i read it the first time) and it is just a beautiful piece that will brighten your world and open your eyes. anyway it is like 4 pages guys take the time to change your life

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cheating is wrong. however, i’m sure the book i’ve been reading for over a month is fine with the rotating lineup of rereads and fanfiction i have been ignoring it for

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joy is like. feeling reasonably good about an exam and then laughing with your friends for an hour and then getting lunch and bubble tea with a friend you haven’t seen in months and doing math and writing knowing it’s ok if you aren’t perfect

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Who am I?

Blayze

he/they/neopronouns (a man i hate used she/her a month ago and it gave me the ick so i no longer use it. i guess this is collective punishment? oops)

queer

About me

named myself after Diana Arbus photo "Blaze Starr in her living room" (that's why the username. also you’re in her dms i’m inherlivingroom haha. we're criss-cross on the carpet facing each other drinking tea and maybe our knees are touching). added a y for kicks

studying engineering (it's not harder than any other degree except business. i will still be complaining)

pianist, guitarist, and theory lover. prob won't post much about it but would love to share music thoughts!

writer when i have time for it (so not much rn lol)

hobbyist painter and potter but definitely don't have time for that rn. see eng point

camp counsellor (totally not a third of my personality)

obsessed with books. why wouldn't i derive happiness from silly little words?

probably going to post about songs & books a lot

spotify somerosesareyellow if you're interested

love art & flowers & everything pretty (fighting for aesthetic engineering i promise) (concrete HATER. iron rocks tho idk give me an I-beam)

Books I am Obsessed with

Major

aftg & the sunshine court, the locked tomb/gideon the ninth, the raven cycle, tfota, fourth wing (oops), harry potter (fuck jkr), shadowhunters (ressurecting for twp in november!!!! eek!), heated rivalry (came to me during a time of need...exam season)

Minor/Past

everything casey mcquiston, captive prince (oops!), grishaverse/soc, pjo/hoo, lotr, song of achilles, acotar, aaddtsotu, heartstopper, simon snow, shades of magic, anything becky albertalli, warriors (i was 10!)

Criminally Underrated Masterpieces

A Deadly Education by Naomi Novik (literally everyone should read it)

Seafire by Natalie C Parker (again literally everyone should read it. the real tied together by a red string fraying rope enemies to lovers)

++ so many more—ask me!