Being friends with benefits with Kokonoe
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A quiet wet sound echoed through the dark room. Kokonoe was sitting alone in her underwear, lit only by the screens, one hand on the mouse and another down at her crotch.
She hated it. Going through heat. As rare as it was and how short it was compared to time she spent not in heat she still found it an incredible hassle. Other than the constant state of arousal and the stench that would always fill the room the worst part was how hard it was for her to actually get off.
She had tried all sorts of material and toys to no avail. Right now she resorted to simply rubbing herself while disinterestedly scrolling simply out of obligation.
As she sat there her mind suddenly drifted to someone. There was a new rookie field agent she had been using to run errands. She did it with all rookies up to the point they realised they were being used or someone explained it to them. But this one was different. They didn’t seem to mind being used like that. Some of the other agents told them they could just ignore her but they kept doing all the things she asked. She started pulling up their file. She noticed the way they seemed to get a bit flustered around her.
While there were many who tried hitting on her only to be sent running. This is the first time someone had such a… cute… reaction to her. Kokonoe started pulling up some recordings she shouldn’t have. Due to the lone nature of tasks given to field agents they had their own small “dorms” instead of sleeping in usual barracks. These weren’t supposed to be under surveillance but she had her own system installed to keep more control.
She started speeding up. She imagined getting them to service her. They were already listening to any request she had. She imagined them ravishing her, doing anything she wanted and following her every instruction. Maybe she’d let them do what they want, maybe let them cum and then they could… together… The sense of catharsis she felt when her orgasm finally hit her was incredible.
She started cleaning up and quickly closed the tab she had opened on their genetic information. The experience did have her thinking if the thought of them could satisfy her this well, maybe pursuing her idea of getting them to help her relieve herself was worth it.
***
In practice she wasn’t as smooth as she hoped.
“Fuck me.”
“Huh?” You couldn’t do much but be completely taken aback by the question.
“Did you not hear me?” she asked.
“No it’s just… Why are you asking me?”
“Because I’m going through heat and need someone to relieve me”
“Ok but why me?”
“You got a problem with doing it? Do I disgust you? You have something against half-beastkin?”
“No that’s not it it’s just-”
“Then there’s no problem!” She cut you off and dragged you off to her room.
She didn’t have a proper bed and instead relied on a mattress on the floor. You watched her as she got on all fours and pulled her pants and underwear down enough to give you access to her vagina. She wasn’t bothering with taking anything else off.
“Well what are you waiting for?”
Her question shook you from your daze. You lowered yourself and began to fuck her. Kokonoe was shoving her head into her pillows both to hide the expression she was making but also to muffle any noise she made if it escaped.
You were having a decently enjoyable time. This isn’t what you had in mind but beggars can’t be choosers. When you finally managed to make her cum you were promptly told to leave. While you could complain about not getting to cum you were pretty sure she didn’t care.
Meanwhile in the room Kokonoe was angrily masturbating. Cursing herself for sending you away like that before you could truly fill her desires.
***
The next session was far different. While you were giving her your all Kokonoe seemed far harder to please. Nothing seems to have changed but she just can’t seem to get pushed past the edge.
“Close your eyes!” she barks a command at you.
You do it. You hear some shuffling and after a while you decide to open your eyes again. You see she is now on her back and has fully taken off her pants and underwear since it’d be an obstacle in this position.
“Hey, what did I say about looking!?” You quickly close your eyes again.
“Sorry it’s just hard to do anything if I can’t see what I’m doing.”
“Just shut up, I'll guide you.” She slowly points you towards her entrance and you get started with thrusting. Kokonoe bites down on a finger to suppress her voice while she watches your face. She loves how she can see everything you’re feeling in your expression despite your eyes being closed. Your expressions of pleasure keep pushing her further and further and when she sees you about to cum she finally gets hit by her own orgasm.
While you’re happy about getting to not only finish but finish at the same time as her you are kicked out with the same speed as last time.
***
At the start of your next meeting she immediately laid on her back and told you to close your eyes. Before long she again realises it’s not doing it for her. She tries some stuff on herself but it doesn't help.
“Look at me”
“What?” you ask, eyes still closed.
“I want you to look at me.” You opened your eyes. You could see her jacket was open showing you her perky breasts.
“Hey, eyes up here!” she says while motioning with two fingers for you to maintain eye contact.
You could see the things she felt in her expressions despite how much she tried to hide what she was feeling. Kokonoe was watching your eyes very carefully. What was really doing it for her wasn’t the fact she could see your expressions better but the fact that you could now see hers. Despite her trying to hold back it was plain to see what she was feeling.
You did sneak glances at her body which she scolded you for as if unaware of her own hypocrisy. As she saw you getting closer she herself got closer and the knowledge that you knew was what sent her off the edge.
After that you were once again unceremoniously kicked out of the room.
***
When the time came for you to relieve her again you knew what to do. She got into position, you stripped to give her some eye candy and got to work. You did your best to maintain eye contact and ignore her eyes meandering.
Kokonoe was pretty much satisfied. You were doing everything she wanted. While it was slow and steady she could clearly feel herself get closer to the edge bit by bit. There was something else present in her mind. It wasn’t the heat but another feeling. Like hunger, a certain greed. She didn’t want to just cum. She wanted to cum good, and to feel good. She wanted to give into the greed. She wanted to feed the fire. Not to just satisfy the bare minimum but to get more.
“Kiss me!” she commanded. While you were stunned for a second you knew questioning her wouldn’t get any results. You started to slowly lean towards her only for her to close the distance twice as fast. She was nowhere near conservative with her kissing having immediately stuck her tongue in your mouth. But there was a clear sense she didn’t just want to do that. She wanted you to do the same. She wanted for the two of you to become entangled up here just as much as you were down there. She wanted to become so close that you could combine… create… The orgasm hit and it was the hardest one she had so far. She gave into her greed.
She was still far from satisfying it but that would have to wait. For now you were getting kicked out again.
***
The following session was seemingly spectacular. You did everything she expected and got to cum.
However instead of kicking you out she asked for another round. Then another. Then another.
By the end you were completely exhausted. You put your clothes back on and were ready to leave but felt your sleeve get stuck on something. You turned around to see Kokonoe clutching it.
“Could you sleep here?” she said quietly, her voice barely above a whisper all while avoiding eye contact.
From an objective point of view the offer definitely wasn’t attractive. Sleeping on a mattress on the floor, sheets that clearly needed a change and surrounded by a varied scattering of dirty clothes.However half the stench was your fault and the experience was definitely improved by who would be sleeping next to you.
You laid down on your back and closed your eyes. Before long you were woken up by the sound of shuffling. You were too tired to open your eyes and the room was too dark anyways. You could feel what was happening though. Kokonoe was sneaking under the cover with you. Draping one of her legs over two of yours and getting an arm up to your shoulder. She laid her head on your chest and seemingly went back to sleep. Before you faded out again you seemingly heard a soft purring.
Kokone had the best sleep of her life though. Not that she’d let you know. She was very grouchy while making you leave in the morning despite the fact she was staying in bed.
***
When you were invited again things were very different. Instead of getting started as soon as you were there you were sitting on the mattress while Kokonoe kept rummaging through her stuff. The only thing you could do was ask:
“What are you looking for?”.
“Lube!” she snapped at you with terrifying speed.
“Why?”.
“Because I’m not wet enough!” she yelled angrily.
At that moment you were struck by an idea. It was stupid and would more likely than not get you hurt. But then again those ideas were the most fun to try so to hell with it.
“We could lay down and wait for you to get in the mood.” you said tapping the other side of the mattress invitingly.
She shot you a dangerous looking glare. You were scared but you had to stay focused.
“Look it’s not like I didn’t notice what you did last time and it might be a nice change of pace.” There were many things Kokone felt she should say but she decided against.
Putting her best angry face on, she got into the “bed” next to you. You two got into a comfortable spoon position with you being the bigger one. It was nice your face was above her head, your arm was pulling her closer and one of your legs was between two of hers. Kokonoe would describe her situation as horrible. The right word would more likely be overwhelming. Being this close to you meant she could feel everything. Your breath tickling her neck, your chest rising and falling, your heartbeat, your warmth, the safety of your arms.
You were simply enjoying it until you started to feel the presence of moisture on your thigh. To make sure you pressed your thigh into her only for her to respond by squeezing her legs around it telling you all you needed to know. It was time to start risking things again. You immediately attacked her neck with your mouth, sending one hand under her shirt to tease her nipples while another went into her underwear to test if she was wet enough. Kokone could only let out a loud moan in reaction.
She wanted to start yelling, to give commands but the greed was back. It wanted silence, it hungered for the unexpected so she was going to keep any words to herself and respond only in noises. After confirming your suspicions you flipped her onto her back, stripped yourself and then her. You latched onto one of her breasts with your mouth groping the other with your hand causing another moan to escape her. When you were done teasing her you inserted yourself and started thrusting away. Kokonoe was enjoying herself far more than usual squeezing around your length as you pounded into her.
Her mind was getting scattered. You latched onto her mouth but instead of fighting for dominance she was letting you do what you wanted with your tongue. In fact it was almost like she was pulling you in, wanting any and every part you could insert into her inside. Kokonoe’s mind was in shambles, the pleasure was destroying any thought she attempted to construct leaving her with only flashes. Wet, hard, warmth, sweet, pungent, slap, taste, touch, comfort, hold, peace, together, interlocked, ring, trust, fluid, presence, gift, closer, heat, combination, soft, small, happy… Through the chaos of her thoughts she could still feel you getting closer to cumming. In that moment, as you unloaded into her she heard three words said into her ear.
“I love you.”
Kokonoe was spasming. Her mind went completely blank as she lost herself in the hardest orgasm of her life. You were in a daze of your own but you felt you did a good job.
Before you could finish that thought you were literally thrown out of the room.
“Hey! I don’t have any-” the soft sound of clothing hitting your face prevented you from finishing the sentence. You quickly got dressed and ran to your room feeling bad about taking things too far. Meanwhile in her room Kokonoe was curled up into herself. Taking turns between banging the back of her head against a wall and going back to sobbing with her head between her knees. Why did she do this to herself, why did she let herself get attached, why did she like it so much, why did she wish she didn’t close herself off, why did she wish they were still in the room with her? Why couldn’t she just get used to the loneliness.
***
The next week you spent trying to apologise to no avail. As soon as she’d spot you she’d start getting as far away from you as possible. If you tried to follow the doors would automatically shut in front of your face, getting locked by a security override.
Meanwhile Kokonoe was being eaten alive by a combination of anger and self-loathing. She couldn’t take it. Anytime she saw you you had that stupid guilty look on your face like it was your fault. She was the one who made you do all those things and didn’t give you a chance to refuse. You should hate her. You should be glad to never speak to her. Why did you have to be such an idiot? Why couldn’t you just move on. Every time she’d check on the cameras in your room you’d be pacing around thinking of what to do or having imaginary conversations in the shower practising how you’d apologise.
Why did you just have to make everything harder for her? Why was this weird feeling in her chest? She couldn’t do anything anymore. She wanted to smack you just so you’d stop looking like that. How was she supposed to deal with this? Everyone in her life would leave her at the drop of a hat so why did you keep staying?
***
Until one day she didn’t see you. She checked all around the base and found no signs. She hacked all the group chats on base to try and find out where you were to no avail. She kept sending Tager and Lambda on scouting missions in any sector she could think of.
“No matches here.” Lambda reported.
“Look Kokonoe we’re doing our best but you could at least tell us what you’re looking for.” Tager tried to reason.
“Just shut up and keep looking.” Kokonoe hissed.
Day by day Kokonoe was looking more decrepit. After checking all camera footage and mission reports to try and get an idea where you could’ve gone she settled on simply remote piloting a drone to search for you herself. Kokonoe wasn’t healthy by any stretch of the imagination but now she was looking downright horrible. Her lack of sleep and constant searching left her eyes horribly red with even worse bags under them. She was also foregoing food for the most part leading her figure to become more skeletal. Not to mention the complete absence of any and all hygiene.
After she passed out due to a combination of malnutrition, dehydration and insomnia she found herself cleaned and taken care of by her two subordinates she knew she couldn’t do anything like this. She had only one option left.
***
She was standing in front of the clinic in Orient Town. She hated having to do this but she had no choice. She pushed open the door and entered. She was about to say something but when her eyes landed on you in a bed the words got stuck in her throat. Then from the side Litchi’s voice brought her back to reality.
“I’ll bring you a chair.”
While she wanted to say something the feelings within her were preventing her from organising her thoughts. She sat down next to your bed.
“They should be up soon, you can read the notes on the nightstand.” Litchi mentioned before leaving to take care of something else.
Kokonoe’s eyes immediately jumped to the piece of paper containing information about your health. You had been stung by some sort of insect and were kept due to a fever with hallucinations. From the notes she could see your condition had been steadily improving. The knowledge that you were fine took a huge burden she refused to acknowledge off her.
She spent a while just watching you sleep. There was a certain sense of intimacy in watching you sleep. Simply getting to see you so peaceful felt like a reward for all the things she went through to get to this point. Then she noticed your eyes slowly start to open.
“Hey.” you said weakly.
There were many things Kokonoe wanted to do. She wanted to greet you back, she wanted to yell at you for getting in this situation, she wanted to jump with joy, she wanted to run away, she wanted… But there was only one thing she was actually doing. Sobbing. Quietly sobbing. Curling up into herself, she couldn’t even bear to look back at you as she muttered “I’m sorry…”. Before you could try to respond she started to explain her life. Her mother’s death, her father abandoning her, her time with the NOL, how she became a criminal and the crippling loneliness throughout.
“So yeah I’m sorry for what happened, it’s all my fault but probably for the best we keep some distance between each other from now on.”
She had finally ended her speech and calmed down. There were many things you could do but you were certain it was time for another risk. Keeping your poker face you motioned with your finger for her to get closer so you could whisper something. When she got near enough instead of quiet words in her ear she got a soft kiss on the cheek. She immediately pulled back covering the cheek with her hand. This was the complete opposite of your other kisses. Before it was aggressive, desperate and messy but this was soft, intimate and loving.
“I meant what I said.” you noted simply.
Kokonoe was getting overwhelmed. Everything she thought about herself, how she imagined her life would go, how she saw relationships was being destroyed and rebuilt rapidly leaving her “genius” brain to try and process it all.
“The doctor mentioned this great restaurant nearby so we could try it out when I’m out of here.”
Kokonoe was snapped out of her thoughts. Reevaluating her life could wait for now she only needed to do one thing. Respond with a soft but for the first time in a while genuine smile.
