what if Eddie realizes he's gay and he likes guys, he likes buck but of course he's never been with a guy before. so instead of confessing he decides he should figure out what it's like to even be with men. because he doesn't want to possibly ruin his friendship if he doesn't even like it.
so Eddie starts checking guys out, leaning into any flirty encounters. and Eddie feels good and he feels giddy.
and so one day Buck and Eddie are sitting on the couch, doing their usual thing; watching dumb movies and drinking beer. and then Eddie's phone lights up and a grindr tone goes off.
and Eddie freezes. and Buck looks at Eddie phone confused. because why is Eddie getting a grindr notification. and they end up sitting in silence. not moving an inch.
but when buddie gets together, the Buckley siblings are gonna have some really cute moments.
like just imagine at a Christmas event with the whole 911 fam, everyone is relaxing and there is soft laughter among the conversations. everyone's eating food and drinking. there's a garbage bag full of wrapping paper from the kids opening presents.
Buck is leaning against the wall, smiling to himself as Eddie helps Jee open one of her toys. Eddie's trying really hard not to curse in front of the young girl, but dammit the twist ties that were keeping this barbie in place were really doing their job. Buck snorts from where he's standing, finding it cute how Eddie goes from smiling and soft with Jee to giving a death stare to the Malibu Barbie he's struggling with.
Maddie walks over and stands beside Buck, her eyes on Chimney. He's helping Denny, Mara, and Chris with the new Nerf guns they bought. Chimney is also struggling very badly with the damn twist ties. Only difference being Eddie dealing with a giggly yet impatient child and Chimney dealing with three teens pestering him and making fun of him for fumbling so hard.
Maddie smiles, holding baby Robert against her chest. The baby coos at the sight of his uncle Buck, who gives him a gentle head rub. Maddie lays her head on Bucks shoulder, and he drops his on hers in return.
"We finally made it out, huh?" Maddie whispered, her eyes on chimney playing with the Nerf guns with the teens, dramatically falling back against the floor, still able to make them laugh.
Buck is watching intently as Eddie coos at Jee, handing her her Barbie that he finally got out. Eddie smiles, playing with her with one of her other toys, acting and making the young girl giggle at Eddie's facial expressions.
"Yeah," Buck whispered, thinking about how he needs to talk to Eddie about having another kid. "I think we did."
Buck, pouting: come onnnn can we please get a dog??
Eddie, shaking his head and not even looking at Buck: No. were not getting a dog.
Buck whines, flopping down beside him on the bed: But Eddddieeeeeee. why??
Eddie sighed, setting his book down to look at buck: because I'll end up being the one to clean up after it, and train it, and walk it and-
Buck shakes his head: No! me and Chris will pitch in, promise!.
Eddie still doesn't budge.
Buck pouts: My parents never let me get a dog. they always hated them, and didn't think me and Maddie could handle it. You'd be healing years of trauma my parents gave me and giving Chris a good memory-
Eddie groans, hand running down his face: you're so unfair- fine. but no scrawny white dogs. I hate those things.
Buck instantly smiles, laying beside Eddie and opening his Pinterest: dont worry, I've already been saving a few dog breeds that I like.
A few months later, they have a black lab. buck brings it into the bed every night, cuddling with the pup every night.
eddie eventually takes the puppy into chris's room, flopping back into bed.
buck smiles, ruffling Eddie's hair gently: I'm starting to get why you didn't want a dog..
Eddie grunts, nuzzling into bucks chest: I am not jealous of the dog. so don't even fuckin start.
Buck laughs softly, kissing eddies head gently: whatever you say princess.
Eddie and Buck are sitting on the couch, like they dooo. and they're drinking their beers and laughing at some cringe movie that Buck had in the watch list on their shared Netflix account. The movie cuts to a party scene, and two guys are making out with loud music playing. It's just like the usual house party scene in any movie.
"is it like kissing a girl?" Eddie asks, making Buck's head whip to the side. he looks at Eddie, but Eddie's eyes are glued to the TV. watching. Buck looks over his face, smiling slightly.
"Is what like kissing a girl?"
"Kissing a guy. Is it the same?" Eddie specifies, and looks at Buck now. Buck visibly gulps, tilting his head slightly. Their eyes are locked, and god Eddie's eyes are so big and brown and beautiful and- any other adjective beginning with a 'B' you can name.
Buck runs his hand over his face, giving it a thought--because he honestly hasn't thought about it until now.
"uh... I don't really think there's a difference. kissing someone is kissing someone," Buck replies after some thought, taking a swig of his beer. His lips are glistening, and Eddie looks away.
"Hmm. I just thought.. I don't know," Eddie rubs the back of his neck, eyes on the movie. "I feel like kissing a guy is different." Buck shifts slightly, adjusting his position on the couch. They are talking about this now. Eddie picks up on the move, also adjusting to face buck better--movie forgotten.
"Why would it be different? its just kissing," Buck spoke. they haven't really talked about Buck's sexuality, not like this at least. sure, they talked about Tommy from time to time, but nothing that involved physical relations with men.
"Well- like.. facial hair. I don't think most men sound like girls. and like the obvious downstairs situation-" Eddie mumbles, cheeks red. Buck finds it cute.
"I don't really think the dick part really matters for kissing, I mean unless this is more of a sensual type kiss-" Eddie tosses a pillow at Buck, a small 'hey' come from the blonde.
"I just mean like.. do you have a preference?" Eddie asked, those big brown eyes filled with embarrassment and so much curiosity. Buck rubs the back of his neck, taking a sip of his beer and licking his lips. He doesn't catch Eddie following the movement with his eyes.
"A preference? Uh... I wouldn't say I have one, no. I think.." He thinks for a moment, shifting again. he looks at Eddie, eyes soft.
"I think it just depends on how connected I am to the person. like kissing a one night stand might not mean as much as kissing someone I've known for years, but it doesn't necessarily depend on gender," Buck explained, Eddie nodding. Buck brings the can of beer back up to his mouth.
"So did you like kissing Tommy then?" Buck chokes on his beer, wiping his mouth. he looks at Eddie, but Eddie's not backing down.
"I... didn't hate kissing Tommy. I also didn't feel all that connected to him either. dude barely knew me.." Eddie scoffed, eyeing buck.
"you guys dated for like.. six months."
"Eddie. He got me basketball tickets for our anniversary."
"But... you hate basketball?"
"exactly."
Eddie hummed, looking at Buck. His gaze dropped down to his lips, and Buck's heart skipped a beat. He subconsciously licked them, a thin layer of saliva coating his lips. Eddie's eyes followed.
"Do you think you'd like kiss me then?" Eddie asked bluntly, eyes still fixated on Buck's lips. Buck swallowed, his cheeks heating up slightly.
"W-Wha.. What makes you think i'd like kissing you..?" Eddie smiles slightly, finally lifting his gaze to look at Buck's eyes. Beautiful baby blues.
"You said you prefer kissing people you have a connection with."
"Yeah..?"
"and you didn't 'hate' kissing Tommy, but you barely had a connection with him.."
Oh.
"So... by your standards.. you'd like kissing me more then kissing Tommy." Eddie said, his eyes shifting back down to Buck's soft looking lips. Buck bit on his lower lip, Eddie's eyes fixated on the teeth tugging on his lip.
"I... yeah. I guess, by that logic. But you'd have to be a good kisser too." Eddie snorted, meeting his eyes.
"Ohhhhh I'm a good kisser, Buckley" he murmured, setting his beer down. Buck followed, setting his beer down next to his.
"Y-Yeah? Wanna go for the title..?" He whispered. They both smiled at the familiar words, and Eddie nods.
"Sure.. Why not.." They just stared at each other for a moment. Buck shifted so he was sitting directly in front of Eddie now; Eddie then copied the movement. they were now sitting across from each other, on leg each on the ground, the other crossed.
Buck leaned in, licking his lips. Eddie followed. their noses knocked slightly. Eddie scrunched his nose and buck rubbed it gently.
"Mm, sorry.." Buck whispered, and they both laughed. It wasn't awkward. It was them. Them being idiots. Buck tilted his head this time, so their noses didn't bump again. Eddie tensed slightly, eyes big and round. Buck placed a hand on his cheek, both to reassure Eddie, and to keep him from moving.
Their lips met slowly. Buck's heart was thumping in his ears, and his felt like throwing up out of pure love that he felt for this man. Eddie let Buck kiss him for a moment before leaning into it and kissing back. He could feel his and Buck's stubble rubbing against each other, and it felt so good. Their lips moved in a slow and tender dance, gentle, and a little too gentle. Buck pulled back slightly, thumb caressing Eddie's cheek.
"Come on.. you have a title to earn up to," Buck whispered, words breathless against Eddie's lips. Eddie looked at him, searching his gaze, before leaning in and capturing his lips again. This time, it wasn't slow or careful. No. This made Buck shiver.
Eddie grabbed the back of Buck's head, pulling him closer. Buck obliged happily, shifting closer. he let out a small whine against his lips when Eddie tugged on his hair, earning a small smirk from Eddie. He did it again, making Buck whimper and part his lips-
Eddie took that split second of a moment to slide his tongue in and if Buck died right there it would be fine. Because he would be dying with Eddie's tongue down his fucking throat. Buck moaned into Eddie's mouth, their lips locked and their tongues moving. Buck shifted, about to throw himself into Eddie, but Eddie had other plans. Eddie placed a hand on his thigh, careful maneuvering Buck so he laid back against the couch. Buck happily followed, laying back against the familiar comfort of eddie's couch.
Buck's hands travel over Eddie's face and neck and hair. Eddie's hands stayed planted on his thigh and hair, tight grip on both. keeping Buck where he wanted him.
Eddie shifted his position, his knee pressing between bucks thighs, right against his semi-hard-on. Buck whined into his mouth, gripping his shoulder. He arched up, rubbing against his knee and Eddie just squeezed his thigh and moaned back into his mouth. Buck became a shuddering and moaning mess as Eddie pressed his knee closer, creating a delicious friction.
They broke the kiss, Eddie trailing his lips across Bucks face--corner of his mouth, cheeks jaw, nipping on the skin where his neck and jaw met. Buck whined quietly, tilting his head to the side. Eddie left a small hickey right there, placing a small peck on it before pulling back entirely. Buck pouted, missing the touch immediately.
"So? Did I earn my title?" Eddie whispered, placing a kiss on Buck's cheek, even that gentle touch made Buck shiver.
"Mhmm.. I guess. you might need to prove it some more though.." Eddie chuckled, leaning in and kissing him again.
~~
They were lazily kissing each other, limbs interlocked as they stayed on the couch together. Eddie had his head on Buck's chest, listening to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. Buck gently ran his fingers through his hair, letting out a soft sigh.
"It is different." Eddie whispered eventually. He lifted his head to look down at Buck, who rolled his eyes.
"Oh, is it now?" He whispered, brushing Eddie's hair out of his face.
"Yeah. But not because you're a guy." Eddie whispered, placing a kiss on his cheek. Buck smiles.
"No?"
"Nah.." He whispered, gently kissing Buck, who draw out a soft sigh.
eddie 'i cant let myself have joy, or express myself properly. I don't deserve to feel anything good and I'm destined to feel miserable my whole life' diaz
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evan ' sunshine and joy and literal golden retriever who is too sweet for his own good. he cooks and takes care of your kid and will love you unconditionally. is literally so perfect and joy joy joy joy' buckley
