You have a passion don't you? A drive to work and a need to create? What's that like? I've been in a rough time lately and I just wanted to ask someone I consider a true artist what it's like to have a talent you can use. I hope I didn't take up too much of your time.
(* I don’t know if i would describe it as something as life devoting as that, i mean, in the end, this is something i do for fun, even when i’m working.)(* You definitely need passion and a drive to create things, but I think once you start to bury yourself under the pressure of the “need” to do it, it starts to become less fun and more a job to get over with.)
(* You can very easily drown your desire to draw anything by piling on the pressure. With my work, especially my paid work, If I sit and drill into my mind that this is of life and death importance, of course i’m gonna choke when it counts.)
(* That’s how many artists end up with an artblock that they cant overcome, even with force or hiatus. Many of my artist friends have ended their drive to draw that way.)
(* Drawing is very much about the desire to draw, the want, the will, once it becomes only a “need”, all those things can quickly fall out of line. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t work with urgency when being paid, but i know for certain that screaming at myself to be creative only makes it all the more impossible.)
(* For me, when I’m drawing and feeling the pressure or a lack of drive, i play music or have a video playing that i dont need to pay too much attention to. And sometimes you just need to draw anything to get the process started again, even if it comes out terrible (not for work obviously).