Losing the will to do much of anything.
So, for the past month, I lost the will and desire to do much of anything other then video games. Like I'm not even addicted to the games, but I've just been getting idk, depressed maybe? Ive been pretty sad ever since my hero, one of the reasons why I became an animator, Monty Oum passed. Before that I fixed a bridge that I kinda teared down between a good person and myself. WHICH WAS GREAT! and they even helped me face something I was kinda scared of doing because of an outcome I thought was going to happen, which is good as well!!....except for my predictions were true... Which kinda made me feel worse about myself. I just been feeling like I've been terrible to people. Thank God I know how to put on a facade long enough for people to think I'm ok...but I'm kinda not. I don't want people to worry about me but the same time I do but don't.
I feel like I'm just going through life instead of living it. I don't know how to motivate myself anymore. It's not like my life is bad, quite the opposite, it's going great. In a relationship with someone I can trust whole heartedly. In the animation major with great friends, I have a style to dress as where I can look at myself and finally say "I look good". Living away from immediate family. But, I have no motivation to do a lot, maybe I am depressed or maybe I'm just lazy, I just know Im not motivated to do much and I'm kind sad ish.
