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"The Cycle is Not Always What It Appears To Be "

Thinking about this Age of Aquarius and the young people of this day. Usually the older generation thinks the young ones are crazy and wild.... "wilder than we were", they say.

What do I see?

Casual sex is a thing. After growing up in a household that turned out broken what's the reason or meaning behind believing in love that can last a lifetime? There is no longer a reason to believe in the fairytale, it's never going to happen. No reason to have children, this world is shitty anyway.

I get it, both sides, I'm the millennial in the middle.

What I think they are missing is how extreme their views are. The younger generations of today have outer planets in Aquarius(extremism is a known quality) and they may miss a lot of things, to show them that tradition does matter, even if it doesn't come as a fairytale.

They don't want marriage or kids, because of their experiences. And I get it, my childhood sucked too. But I think what they are missing is how much of their own power they are giving away, over their own lives.

They are intending to avoid the pain by avoiding the outward manifestation that they witnessed. I hate to witness the Bible, "...the evidence of things not seen", but that's what the divorce and broken homes were. The broken homes were evidence of hurt and sorrow that was not being dealt with.

My parents weren't brought up in an environment that encouraged positive mental health, that has only recently become a thing. So they were still dealing with generational trauma and unconsciously passed it on, as it was done to them. Some from every generation in this diaspora of the U.S. are able to figure it out and enlighten themselves to prevent passing this same pain on to their children as much as possible.

And now Generation Z and beyond have to do the same. Although from my vantage point they really have the tools. There are those of the Millennials who have strong Scorpio, 8th house placements, that encourage transformation of the mind preparing them to usher in those that will need it. With more outer planets in Aquarius and Sagittarius, it inclines them towards groups, group thinking, higher learning, expansion, experience, and the ideal.

For these reasons I have faith in them. I realize many are living unconsciously right now, but as they begin to awaken they will make radical changes that will bless us all.

What about the cycle again?

I'm saying the cycle is not always what it appears to be. They think by not getting married, the pain of unconditional love will be solved with avoidance. But what about intimacy of emotion. And the limitations of casual sex? What they are missing is that we are all human and have the same needs to live a well rounded fulfilled life. Most of us want to live a fulfilled life and in order to do that all the elements of our nature must feel active and engaged, no energy wants to be left out.

Fire, Air, Water, and Earth. Intimacy, 8th house, Scorpio, Pluto is Water. The themes here are sex, money, intensity, merging, intimacy, the psyche, the mind, power, where one engages with another and they become one. It's deep, transformative, occultic, maybe even taboo. Avoiding marriage to avoid intimacy also blocks other parts of yourself, you can't avoid the evidence of manifestation, what is going on within. It's not healthy, nor recommended. And if it is not acknowledged within it will make itself know externally. The true way to break the cycle would be to dive in. Therapy and occultic studies for those who want to go it alone, learn to understand your mind (the why's and how). Don't avoid intimacy, understand it. Break the cycle when you go ahead and fuck up, so then you can reap all the benefits and realize intimacy is really not so scary after all. Maybe those before you just didn't have the resources or tools, that you now do. You have the power to train your mind to think differently and see other perspectives outside your own.

Don't make the same mistakes by trying to not do what your parents did, that's the choice everyone always chooses to make, every generation does this. Lol. Stop making choices based out of fear... you're not in the jungle. If you were, then that may make sense. Lol.

Try something different for real and just live/be you. Meditate 🧘🏿‍♀️ and find what's aligned.

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So the INTJ side of me with my understanding of astrology understands that we all are each other. And that relationships are a mirror, so the robotic side of me is like ok so there's no point cause that sounds like unnecessary bullshit. *I have to acknowledge where some stereotypical thinking is coming from.* But then there's the longing side... fucking 4th house Venus in Cancer!

Then two, am I about to get even crazier... like I srsly speak astrology. And its literally a language that finds it's way into my conversations all the time. I love it, but I feel like I'm becoming a one trick pony and that is going to drive me insane.

I don't know what that solution is...

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"As an astrologist... I'm not calling on you to believe in anything, but yourself." -Me

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My sistas be having that beautiful gangsta ass energy!!!

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So it's late and I should be sleep, but I got hella pictures in my phone and.... I'm low on 🌳

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Your More Than 80% Water, Duh

This shit be crazy to me cause we are all aware of how people get wild under a full(for some fool) moon. We also KNOW we are made up of mostly water. The tides are affected by the moon alllllll the way down here on earth where you are made up of 80% water as well. But somehow we have the hardest time accepting that any other planets energies would affect us... Maybe because no one has wrote it in a McMillan school book or said it on a nationally syndicated television show and it's too late for them to beat it into us like they did Christianity. Well whether you want to common sense it out or not🚪 ✊🏾✊🏾✊🏾✊🏾✊🏾(*That's me knocking)... it's affecting you buddy.

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So it occurred to me… as I was listening to this guy talk about growing up in the 50′s and 60′s in America as a Black man. He mentioned the courage and gal that it must have took for Frederick Douglas to say the things he said to those wypypo in New York… but, them white folks back then probably didn’t know what the fuck Frederick was saying!!!!!!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I mean if I remember correctly even when I read his book all these years later, I had to search the dictionary a time or two. Use some context clues. 

He was a very intelligent man. And he had so much opposition against him, not wanting him to do something as simple as read and write? So he had a mission and a personal fire that was specifically focused and he obviously had the energy to enact his mission. 

Basically when you trying to learn to do something that you are basically new to, you don’t realize what’s commonly right or not, you just trying to learn. I.e. all them big ass every other words he can whip out of his repertoire seemingly whenever he pleased. I can only imagine it was fiery when he was out speaking about something he felt passionate about.

All this to say the common people Im pretty sure were not as eloquent a speaker and neither did they have a vocabulary as rich as his. Like the common people today. And though the north was more “sophisticated”, things are what they are. With the way the races interacted there probably weren’t enough intelligent wypypo who actually comprehended what he was saying to rise against him. The other wypypo I’m imagining, the majority, didn’t want to admit he was smarter than them. It was probably easier for their egos to ignore him. 

Or maybe the journey of the underdog was just fascinating and admirable, to strong of a force to try to eliminate. 

Because he spoke some strong ass words and we know men were killed for less. 

Maybe it was a little bit of all if this. Either way I do respect him. 

Either way he lived. 

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“Being Black In America You Have To Work 10X’s Harder”- Saturn Transiting the 10th

Every Black kids heard that. 

So as Im reading this article about Saturn transiting the 10th and its affects, the writer assumes that- 

“Approximately 14 years before this transit, we learned, Saturnine lessons the 4th house- we built a secure foundation within ourselves.” 

Source: Saturn Transits: Houses 

https://cafeastrology.com/saturntransitinghouses.html

I just thought it was interesting, as I listen to these ignorant folks shoot firecrackers on this 4th day of July. Why, interesting? 

Because in our society children coming from a low-income family, specifically Blacks- cause I’m concerned about my people- we may not come from this assumed stable enough family/foundation that prepares us or supports us for our venture to find where we belong, 10th house. 

This is a deep thought for me. I’m trying to grasp all my points to make it all make sense. 

Basically what I am saying or rather pointing out, how the differences in our childhood/development affect us so many years later in life. Around that age of your Saturn return, 28.5 to 31, depending on the person. White children or children that are more well off tend to have a greater opportunity at developing a more solid foundation. In turn helping them be able to support themselves when it is time to face the world. 

How in this article it is automatically assumed, by the way that it is written, is a reflection I feel of the perspectives and differences that exist between the races. Why they can never understand the Black community being in the state that we are in. All they speak of is the surface manifestations of our spiritual conditions. Not wanting to go deeper and focus on how our spirit came to these conditions. The conversations have started now, but it needs to be deep like Dr. Joy Degruy. Why haven’t white Americans gone through a deprogramming like the Germans did? 

Like we all said it’s a system because anyone whose life isn’t mainstream/ordinary perspective is usually not included or even considered. Not that it is always malicious, like I don't think this one is, it still IS though.  

I do believe there is a natural way that we are suppose to develop as human beings, psychology has it broken all down. Im curious if astrology has it broken down in a similar way. Seems the answer would be yes. Especially babies, adult development isn’t studied so much- at that point we seem to be on our own. Unless you are able to have that strong foundation that was set 14 years before, with the establishment of more mature bonds with older family/adults 10th house purpose can be quite difficult.   

In the Black community because of our history in this country our family bonds are broken, beaten, and damaged in so many ways. I.e. Willie Lynch letter. It’s difficult for us to have these solid strong foundations. Our people are waking, but it is a slow moving beast. I want to be apart of it. I may be going into the belly, thats why I had to go through so much. I want to counsel. 

So when I read how so effortlessly someone speaks of solid foundations that were built when we were 14 in the hood, trying to survive normal kid stuff, and dealing with a father thats not in the house cause your mother left him because he was an alcoholic cause his mother was an alcoholic that used to let his daddy beat on her, cause she saw her mother get done the same way, because her husband was insecure because white men talked down to him in the world and all he was trying to do was be able to take care that woman back at home and kids that he keeps taking his rage out on because its pressure that is just closing in on him. He’s just trying to survive like his father and his father before him had to do. He didn’t know how to manage his emotions only swallow them so he could stay alive and go back home to that woman that he loved. It that why we feel pain is love. What slaves went through to stay together? Ones that were rapped and beat defending love trying to stay together. To have our souls ripped out of our hearts when our loved one was sold down the road never to be seen again. Slaves that learned to love or never love again. I can't even type the pain that exist. That we had to constantly swallow as Black people. To survive here today, 400 years of swallowing our pain. So much so that our throats are sore from all that has not been said. The pain inflicted has been more than doubled down on so many times. So much pressure that it comes from all angles. In the world, home, job, family, school, so much so that you may even begin to see it in the mirror. 

 And still people go on to assume that we/ the majority of us have a solid foundation to lean on as we go out into the world to learn then defend who we are. 

We have been taught not to love ourselves, but we fought, still berated and told no to love ourselves. When I see the protesters. I [feel] our ancestors.   

I believe I am here for a reason. And a reason that will be known about.