Just letters
By next year i want to be able to move out. I think that's something for a change. Just being alone, independent and shit. Hah, It'll be nice to have a room mate so its easier with the bills but id rather not deal with anyone's drama. If anything i want someone that'll stay knowing that its just us. Not having anyone else but ourselves. Just me and that special person mmm. but that's not possible cus' people will always want better company. But once i find that 'special' someone that'll stick with me through thick n thin, be the reason why they're happy, their reason to be excited getting back to our place & not needing anyone else's company but just the both of us then maybe just maybe ill bring my walls back down.. & never let that person go. Because i know that I am selfish, & I want to meet someone who's also selfish enough to only want me. Not really isolating ourselves from everyone but more like starting fresh or better yet us against the world. I don't really want to say 'love' because at one point love was not enough to keep such promises nor someone's willingness to be with their loved ones. I just need someone who can understand me, someone i can trust, & someone who's down to do whatever just because she loves being with me regardless of any type of situation were in. Someone who'll never stay mad at me. Someone who wouldn't give up & take the easy way out. Someone who would choose me over anything else because we would build this thing we call 'love' that will never separate us.. My expectations were like this before i started dating anyone lol then everything got fucked up.. and now i'm here back to that state of mind, building my walls back up, with very high expectations.