Well, I went to the doctors… And it seems like they’re going to take me serious this time - had a breakdown after some things happened but they just told it was because of that I was feeling as bad as I was - and well… There wasn’t enough time set off to really do much else than talk, but it seems that they want to have me back in and have a test for depression… And made me promise I had no intentions of taking my life. Not that I’ve had any thoughts like that at all, and I mean that. But well… It’s seems like I at least can get some help now and move forward… Just hope that means I’ll get better. Well, it will… I just… I hope it doesn’t take forever, and that I can finally feel happy for real without having this… This dark present in the back of my mind, trying to take over… God, I feel like I’ve already cried enough today, and now the waterworks are starting up once more… But uh yeah… I’ll get to know more about it all next Tuesday and then I’ll see what they’ll do to help… At least that’s progress…
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I AM GLAD YOU WENT TO THE DOCTOR LOVE! I HATE THAT THEY DIDN’T TAKE YOU SERIOUSLY THE FIRST TIME YOU CAME TO VISIT BUT ALL WILL BE WELL NOW. *he pulls you close for a hug* I BELIEVE IN YOU DEARHEART, AND WE ARE GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS. IT’S OKAY TO CRY LOVE. IF THAT IS WHAT YOU NEED I WILL HAPPILY BE THE SHOULDER TO SUPPORT YOU. IT IS INDEED PROGRESS, I AM VERY PROUD OF YOU MY DEAR. *he looks up at you and kisses your cheek* WE MUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD TOGETHER MY SWEET… I WILL BE RIGHT HERE FOR EVERY STEP.
((Seriously I’m so happy you went to a doctor, I remember my first experience with a doctor for this stuff. I was terrified. You’re going to get through this honey! You’re not alone. I care about you, J cares about you, and Blue loves you to bits. We’re all in your corner. -Mod K))
