Jan 11, 2019
Sometimes I really think I'm a sort of bad energy vacuum. It's not that people feel better around me because of me, but because I take in all the worries and sadness and loneliness they feel and absorb it into me, where it dies like bacteria in a bamboo cutting board (Google that).
The reason why I feel numb all the time is a defense mechanism caused by either empathy overburden or, maybe my natural hyper sensitivity. After a while your whole psychological makeup finds ways to cope with your specific problems and that can mean personality or paychological tradeoffs.
