a pixie dyed here

[apixiedyedhere]

you should post recipes! your food looks wonderful♡

Thanks lovely ♡ I think I will now

[vanillatwilightwallflower]

Does anyone else ever feel like they’ve lost literally all motivation and all you want to do is curl up in a ball in bed and eat junk and watch films and avoid all other responsibilities for like 37 years or so

[apixiedyedhere]

Why am I like this.

Why are we like this.

[oumaimas]

Sleeping In the Forest, Mary Oliver

[apixiedyedhere]

Hey. Sorry.

I wish I felt better.

The words I really want to say would come out right.

It would be easy to reach across the sea of our differences and meet on a perfect island if only I felt better right now.

But don't worry.

Days like this come and go.

This is an off day and I don't mean to be like this. I'm not like this when I feel better.

And maybe, for the better, until I'm better at this, you should find better company.

It's not worth ruining you too.

[apixiedyedhere]

Curled up with a book, the cafe latte is still warm, a thin blanket tempers the AC's chill and the crisp sound of a page being turned soothes the mind, uncrinkling and smoothing out the inner disquiet

[transtarks]

“you have to stop buying every mug you think is cute” what’s that? i can’t hear you over the sound of all my mugs clinking together in the cabinet as i try to find space for this new mug i bought

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

I live for elegance, mystery and sophisticaton but I also live for rawness, audacious sense of living and passionate unrefinement of feeling

[cumprise-deactivated20211231]

Nothing feels better than a clean body, in a clean room, with a lit candle

[drunkenhills]

Listen. Cut your own hair. Dye it blue, then shave it off when you’re bored of it. Wear that outfit with those shoes. Paint your nails with all the colors of the rainbow. Get that tattoo. Go to the movies alone. Get coffee, then drink it at that special place you like. Mouth the words of the song you’re listening to on public transport. Put that thing on your wall. Bake. Draw. Dance in your underwear. Life is so much better when you don’t give a fuck

[lifeofaliceai]

[bookwormingparty]

[maddreamer-universe]

My saddest moments in life are when I feel happy, cause I have nobody to share my happiness with. And that’s why its sometimes so hard to stop daydreaming, cause I have to learn to enjoy this life alone.

[apixiedyedhere]

It's today, my friend. That means we made it. We're here. We didn't want to be. But we made it.

[apixiedyedhere]

There's a difference between not having friends but being likeable enough to have the potential to, and having friends, many friends, for every year of your life, that will never understand you, know you truly, nor connect with you in the way others connect with each other. There is this missing component, this broken piece, that you are aware of but have no name for. This must be what it feels like to be so completely unlike other people, or just born totally wrong in a weird but nameless way, that there is no possibility of ever having a true human relationship with anyone.

[apixiedyedhere]

I don't care about being pretty to attract boys or agencies or friends that only text to go drink. All I want is for some diaphanous elf looking Cara or Lacy to cross paths with me in a cafe or Trader Joe's or something and become my best friend so we can swap clothes, read the same dark fantasy books together, protect each other from psychos when we go out to the movies after midnight, drink fancy elderberry sparkling wine in my house, and not really talk to any other people, just being mentally screwed up together and healing together too.

I've been through enough drama in life and don't really care about a stereotypical future anymore. I just want to watch true crime with a thin-twin. Just us in cozy sweatshirts, so comfortable in our skins we can do stupid things like play fight if we're bored. Do each other's hair. I dunno. Relive the type of girlhood that slipped through my fingers because I spent my youth being toxic and sensitive at the same time.

Where are you, Anna or Ellie or Trish? Don't you want an only-friend too? Don't you want like what they had in the Victorian era? 2 beautiful damsels that never married just living in a house talking that ish and being bad arses because the world sucks but is kinda pretty and amazing too.

[theivorypiano]

me: *gets touched by random wave of sadness*

me: so, this is what poets of Romanticism felt

[apixiedyedhere]

I want to be the type of pretty that makes people ache inside and never know why. I want to be the girl who smells like frosting and ice cream and can wear Old Navy and make it look high fashion and alt. I want to be the girl who can lose her phone between her thighs when she sits down, and always carries a bomb asf purse that she worked her butt off for, literally. I want to spend less on food and more on luxury, write down anything that ever happens in a beautiful little notebook, and always be that interesting sliver of moonlight cutting across the floor when I join the party. I just want to be the fairy in the story, whose ways are capricious, whose air is mysterious and enchantingly strange 🌹