Also just want to get ahead of the ball on this one because out of the groundwork’s I keep seeing these accounts- *ahem* I know recently I’ve been using the phrase “I am a monster/I am your monster/what monster is this that you’ve allowed into your bed/etc.” and I’ve been seeing more and more monster knight posts on my feed as a result. However I’d like to clarify this with you monster knights:
You are a monster because you’re literally a monster.
I am a monster because my service to someone is breaking every bit of humanity left inside me. I am a monster because I serve dutifully and I see how other people get to act freely around them while I have to be a rigid thing. I am a monster because I am the only one they can trust around, to protect them and harm them. I am a monster because serving you brings out the truth in me.
hi im just here to say blurry lines by @pr0dbeomgyu is literally the best fic i have ever read, it was legit one of the first fics i read actually. I'm honestly so sad that it ended :(( ive gotten so attached to the characters that i once literally legit up prodsputnik on google until i realised it isnt a real person 💀
but all good things come to end ig 🙁 thanking the writer so hard right now for this absolute masterpiece <3
now yall better go read blurry lines right fucking now.
2:15 am, a series in which the birds are screaming, it’s raining, and I wear a crown of colorful lights because it’s pride month and I need any little joy I can get
It´s hard for me to understand why ppl fail to see Donna´s patterns being repeated by Carmy.
It´s so obvious!
The Donna that bitched in Fishes about no one helping her and yet threw a spoon at Steve and slapped Sugar when they stepped into the kitchen to help is the Carmy we saw making and R&Ding a whole menu by himself and making unilateral decisions throughout S3, pushing Syd away, and then bitching about "expo killing them". He wasn´t a team player, but then bitched about his team. That´s all, Donna, very little Carmy.
The fact that people don´t consider behavioral addictions disorders really grinds my gears. I mean, if there´s no substance involved, no one seems to fucking notice or acknowledge an addiction that should be spotted from the literal moon. I get that the DMS-5 is to blame for part of such an abomination, but I also get that more than 50% of ppl haven´t read, let alone studied the DMS-5 in their fucking lives, yet they have eyes and a brain, right? Workaholism, gambling, orthorexia nervosa are actual disorders that cost ppl their lives too, just like any drug OD or alcohol poisoning or drunken driving, or substance-induced suicide.
I recently read a great post about how Carmy is repeating Michael´s patterns with Syd, and yes, it´s true. Just like in Michael´s case, his heart is in the right place, but his way to go about it is all fucked up, and just like Michael, and like Donna, Carmy is an addict who has hit rock bottom, and not contextualizing him as such is just wrong, not only from a clinical standpoint, but also ethically. And apparently it is important to point out that contextualize, understand, and justify ARE NOT synonyms, so I will point out another thing that seems obvious to me, I understand Carmy, I don´t agree with him, and thus I do not justify him. It´s possible to comprehend someone without agreeing with them; it´s called exercising discernment.
It´s very clear in my mind how I want the Sydcarmy love story to go, but it´s also clear to me that, unfortunately, that that´s not how the Sadist is developing it. Why do you think I call him a sadist? I don´t put everything in the same category. For me, wishful thinking, predictions, and canon meta-analyses are 3 different things that sometimes, if I´m really lucky, intersect. Since S2, when the C person was, IMO, unnecessarily added to the plot, the times when they have intercepted have been fewer and further between.
Since Syd´s character has a lot of layers but none of them is fully pathological, her mental health bill is almost clean, so her patterns are not as obviously unhealthy as Carmy´s, I get that too. But as I said here:
💬 0 🔁 3 ❤️ 26 · Making each other better at this comes with a price · Why is everyone operating under the assumption that Carmy "escapes",
To me is an act of so much love to see someone fully, with their flaws and all, or with those aspects about them that we wish they polished, or changed because they push all of our buttons, with all their opportunities for improvement, etc, and still love them, maybe disagreeing with them, but accepting them in their constant change trusting they will grow and evolve and even if that doesn´t happen in the time span we wish it did, if we love them unconditionally, then we still trust. Even when this part of us may not be on board with them, or would do what they did. Empathy is not putting ourselves in the other´s shoes, that´s an awful misconception viralized by motivational coffee mugs. Empathy is understanding the other person based on THEIR context, not our own, and being able to separate the two in a compassionate and respectful way. It´s not agreeing with their POV, justifying them, or only supporting them if they agree with us. It´s understanding that we may not agree, but we can still understand each other and respect each other, and that mutual understanding and respect is a form of love/compassion in and of itself because in that way the other person is not alone on their journey, they feel seen and accompanied. But under no circumstances does it mean we must let go of our own belief system to be empathetic. That´s codependency, where we disappear and lose ourselves in the other; we mimetize and blend with the other person, losing or bruising our own individuality, which is a self-destructive trait and a form of lack of self-respect, not to mention a clear sign of low self-esteem. So if we ever experience something like that, we gotta know we are displaying our own red flags and act accordingly.
I have the feeling that the way in which we judge fictional characters directly translates into how we go about our personal lives, and I might be wrong about this. In fact, I sure hope I am, because since S3 on, and off, I have been seeing soooooooo many red flags that try to pass as "team Syd", or "Carmy doesn´t deserve her", or my new personal favest (not) "they are not right for each other". And it´s like, wait, I´m all about freedom and democracy but what fucking show are you watching? On what planet does someone who doesn´t love you do what they do for each other, and in what galaxy did they air the show where none of them ever fucked up or could have or should have done things better or be more honest with themselves and the other, or haven´t lied by omission? Because on the show I have been watching for 4 seasons now, all of those things happened, I have the screenshots, the script transcripts, and the soundtracks. My argument is definitely not invalid. So... back to my point, subjectivity and different points of view, democracy and freedom? SURE! Now, decontextualization, jumping to conclusions without having first a 360 and a thoroughly well-formed viewpoint of the show we are all watching and all the characters on it that interact with each other FOR A REASON? Nope.
What really scares me is that, like I said, this is not about those characters at all; this is a sample of real-life behavior.
I will die on the hill that this is not about fiction for most of those who do that; this is who they are offline, too, and when they are not watching the show.
And believe me, I wish I were wrong, but sometimes I happen to read the news.
I like how noone can tell me i cant when its a thing noone can give me a opinion on cant when i cant banean it and i alone have to determine some things that i can and still are banes on because the lines got all blurry like this and its fun yaha ha ha
