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Is it sad that the only reason I'm excited to go back to school is because I have a uniform and I can stop wearing my own clothes that don't fit right and I feel ugly in....
in one of those moods :/
So I was just in the shower and just staring at myself picking out all that is wrong with me, and then I realised that all of my "faults" are so insignificant compared to the science behind my body. In fact all of our bodies. I mean I've never even thought about it but our bodies are freaking awesome and they're so clever. I mean think about it, really about it, can you see how amazing our bodies our. What is on the inside is what counts, I'm not talking about our personality I'm talking about what's psychically inside of us. Our heart is a fucking astonishing muscle, it keeps our blood flowing. Then our blood well in that we have white blood cells which help our bodies fight off illness. Our lungs, our liver, our kidneys, our brain they're fucking amazing and we're all too busy dissing and hating how we look to really appreciate the science behind us all. Our 5 senses, my list can go on. So can we just pay respect to how fucking astounding we are and just tone down the self loathing.
Okay I'm done, inspirational speech over.
I swear showers have this effect where I just go all metaphorical and in the moment believe the world is a truly beautiful place.
Its weird.
I wish I could sleep naked, but: A) I have no lock on my door. B) my parents will come in to my room in the morning, it's inevitable. C) I'm not even confident enough to even sleep alone naked.
Technology should be advanced enough that there should now be a tool that you can take and just wipe away any extra body fat that you don't want any more.
That would really be splendid. I could use something like that right about now.
playing Wii fit doesn't help me loving my body at all. especially since i gained a lot of weight and he's telling me I am overweight and that I should exercise more. I exercise a lot this afternoon. with wii fit and dancing with just dance and you have no idea how just dance makes you sweat. I better lost 5 lbs doing this. I want to go back in time when I was depressed and my stomach was flat. This was the perfect weight for me. I have 40 lbs more than I should.
ugh.
It's nights like these I really don't like my body.. well that's my depressing statement for the night! Soooo, how bout them blue jays?