A new sticker has been added to the body badges in my shop! You can now declare yourself so, so eepy that you have a disease. You can get this sticker on its own or as part of a four pack with all the badges included!
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A new sticker has been added to the body badges in my shop! You can now declare yourself so, so eepy that you have a disease. You can get this sticker on its own or as part of a four pack with all the badges included!
Not sure what to do from here, or what would look good. Do I look good? I genuinely have no clue, and I definitely don’t see me like everyone else sees me so… just guessing
Probably would help if I knew how to take a good selfie lmao…..
Anyways trying not to be super hard on myself, and acknowledge I don’t see myself how everyone else sees me.
I think one of the main hurdles to being body neutral is the inability to find clothes that fit. Now I definitely don't have the struggles that others have. I'm a size Medium - XL depending on the brand, and a size 12-14 in US pants, so I can surely find clothes in "my size" just fine. The issue I have is the optimal range of bust-waist-hip ratio that I very awkwardly fit in. Most clothing has the closest measurements to mine as 38-34-40 inches. My measurements are *juuuust* a few inches give or take. It is mostly frustrating to deal with the fact that I carry my weight in my stomach. I love my stomach. I love how soft and curvy my midsection is, and I acknowledge that my stomach will expand a little after a meal! What I don't love is how most clothing hugs me very tight around the middle and gives me stomach cramps and makes me feel like shit about my body. I've been clothes shopping more recently and it sucks to be discouraged. I've more than a few times really thought that I should lose weight for the express purpose of losing a few inches off my stomach so I could fit into a manufactured, arbitrarily standardized "size" of clothing. I'm more and more drawn towards tailored clothing, or even clothing made to be adjustable (ex. wrap skirts) and tailored clothing (which I cannot afford at the moment but would love a few bespoke pieces in the near future).
I stare at my reflection,
As if I can't recognise the person in there.
Her face is full of rejection,
From the people that she cares about.
She looked a little too far,
Just because of flaws, picked up cigars.
Didn't know how to let go,
But they said that's how it goes.
My body issues be showing up when I order clothes online and they are too big for me because my brain believes it is impossible for me to fit in a small despite the measurements for a small being my size.
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Anyway I ordered a medium and one of the shirts came and it doesn't fit like I wanted it to and I have never been hit with so much confusion in my life lmao.
I like the style of shirt though so I'll have to order more that actually fit properly 😅
I wore my new pants with floral print today and my favorite pair of sneakers. And for a brief moment I felt proud of my body. So I think I made some progress today.. :)
When you find out one of your favorite youtubers is under 100 lbs and now you feel the need to shed 50+% of your body weight 🙃
I hate myself for doing this to my body