#bodydysmorphiarecovery

[violettenightshade]

At last, I’m learning to embody my divine femininity. I wasn’t created in this gorgeous vessel to shamefully hide in the shadows. The female form is art and I’m here to express that beauty. ✨

Growing up Catholic with a neurotic mother and abnormally hyper sheltering, hyper critical parents was…tough…and that’s an understatement. Up until 2 years ago the last time I wore a bikini was at 5 yrs old. Even when I started feeling brave enough going to the beach with a swimsuit, I put on a cover up. I’ve struggled with severe body dysmorphia the majority of my life. After being on this pole dancing journey for a short 2 months, I already feel my confidence levels ramping up. It’s been an amazing positive influence so far.🙌

[mydearsaviorloves]

Sometimes #bodydysmorphia just creeps out of no where and you feel like that 230lb girl again. . . Ugly, fat, disgusting. . . I’m getting better, but pics like these? I don’t see a difference. I’m not looking for pity or anything but to show - people struggle. . . God in His grace and mercy is showing me things but there are Times friend....when I still feel fat. Ugly. Disgusting. . . . Just being real folks. .. no ones perfect. We all struggle. Like that famous saying folks: Be kind to all you come across friends, because you don’t know what they struggle with. . . . . . . . #jesusfreakfit #struggles #bodydysmorphiarecovery #mentalhealth #weightlossjourney #weightlosstransformation #onedayatatime #itsokaynottobeokay #losingweightjourney #losingweightishard (at Ballenger Creek, Maryland) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByKz3-YANLV/?igshid=10z8wwgtedywb

[makingstrangemaneuvers]

Heard from the grape vine that these aren't grapes They're grape shaped flowers. Hello????!? Feeling really good in my body this week! I bought myself a crop top and didn't panic before putting it on, so YAY making strides with #bodydysmorphic struggles!! What's your favorite part of your body?? . . . #bodypositive #bodydysmorphiarecovery #curvy #happy #cute #croptop #cropped #longskirt #highwaist #highwaistedskirt #style #fun #cute #confident #bluehair #purpleflowers #coolaesthetic #blueaesthetic #purpleaesthetic #ludwig #hellostarseed #sirianstarseed #selflove https://www.instagram.com/whattacoffeecat/p/BwStcCJg8qr/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=163aav50v9dz7

[mydearsaviorloves]

Dang. Left was 2+ yrs ago. I’m struggling badly today w #bodydysmorphia ... I see the difference and I think: I’m just holding in my stomach. I almost didn’t want to post. Sigh. We’re off to @oldnavy so I can get some new clothes cause things are literally falling off of me. I’m just scared as to what size I am right now. . . . . . . #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bodydysmorphiarecovery #onedayatatime #weightlosstransformation #weightlossjourney #ketotransformation #ketoweightlosstransformation #fit #fitmom #fitmominthemaking #ketogenicdiet #keto #weightloss #losingweight #momlosingweight #sigh #mentalhealth (at Frederick Historic District) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuzK3aUg8dV/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17wckt2cuxbpf

[madiplusthree]

For those of you who don’t know this, for years(well let’s face it still an every day struggle) I battled bulimia and body dysmorphic disorder. More so during my teen years I was constantly obsessing over the next binge and purge. I haven’t binged and purged since July 2015 by the grace of God. The amount of time I have spent obsessing over unhealthy ways to lose weight in my 23 years of life is absolutely absurd. My body dysmorphia constantly has me critiquing every little thing about myself wether it’s my skin, my hair, my arms, my stomach, or my feet. I often see things physically that aren’t even really there. I am trying so hard to love myself and the body that I was given as I am raising two beautiful little girls who are watching my every move and are listening to every word that comes out of my mouth. My eating disorder tendencies started at such a young age watching my mother(who I thought was an invincible beautiful princess), family, and close friends critique themselves and their physical appearance. Seeing people who I thought were so beautiful calling themselves blemished, unattractive, and fat made me constantly obsess over my weight and the way I looked as I knew I was by no means as beautiful as they were so I must have been pretty damn unattractive and flawed if they’re stating that they are incredibly physically unattractive and flawed. I so badly want my girls(and Jack too!) to realize how incredibly beautiful they are both inside and out and that they don’t ever have to follow the modern day stereotype of what beauty is. Earlier, I had a moment of confidence. A moment where I felt okay with exactly what I looked like. Okay with my stretch marks, my mom pouch, my skin, my flat feet, and everything in between. This was that moment. Everyday, challenge yourself(even when it seems impossible!) to find at least one thing you can say you love about yourself. Over time you will begin to fall in love with who you are and the beauty that is you.❤️☀️ #EDawareness #bulimiarecovery #bodydysmorphiarecovery #fightthegoodfight (at Aurora, Illinois)