Years ago - about nine - I made some really dumb decisions regarding how to balance a new relationship and a friendship that meant a lot to me. Things were not easy for me, given the fact that this friendship carried a lot of feelings and emotions that made my partner jealous. After all, I had a crush on this friend for the longest time and would have definitely dated her if I had been given the chance.
All these years later, with the relationship having come to a messy end, I look back and regret not handling this situation in a more mature way. I find myself missing this person and our friendship almost every day, and it is difficult knowing I need to come to terms with the fact that we will never be close again.
It is strange, we followed each other on IG a while back and I tried interacting with her but got no response. Still, she follows me and has not removed me from her followers. Despite being raised by women and being surrounded by so many of them throughout my life, I can't understand their thought process most of the time.
Anyway, if anyone happens to come across this snippet of my thoughts and has anything they could contribute to my musings, they're more than welcome to do so.