We love doing things we know will make us upset but still doing it anyways!!!!!!!! I don’t know why I do this to myself!!!!!!! Now I wanna fucking hit things!!!!!!! Why can’t I be fucking normal!!!!!! Why can’t I just feel normal shit and not fucking nothing but sadness rage and too much fucking energy!!!!!!!!!! I need a fucking therapist to talk to about all this shit!!!!!!!! But insurance is shit and I can’t afford it!!!!!!!! I love living with multiple mental illnesses all at once!!!!!!!!!!!! Every person who talks to me wants something in return!!!!!!! Why can’t people just be fucking genuine!!!!!! I don’t understand anything!!!!!! I’m so confused all the fucking time and I feel like everything is wrong and I feel this crazy amount of guilt that I’ll never get rid of because I can’t make things right and maintain a semi normal mental health!!!!!!!! I’ve been off my meds for a week can you tell!!!!!!! I just truly don’t think I’ll ever feel happy without feel bad about it!!!!!!!! Every happy moment lately just remind me how shitty everything is every other time!!!!!!!!!!
