W.C 2.8k | WARNINGS/GENRES; Starts off strong with HEAVY ANGST, INVOLVES SMUT mentions of self doubt and heavy self deprecation, lots and lots of crying, sudden mention of marriage, slowly turns into warmth and lovely mixed with sexual energy, rough sex/making love, comfort sex, mentions of crying while kissing, mentions of cum eating, after care, cuddling, very cute fluff at the end
I Feel Good era wasn’t feeling as good as it should.
We had been working nonstop with tours, concerts, schedules, traveling, practicing, music and song writing,
so it was safe to say everybody was feeling a bit sensitive around this comeback time and the last time this happened was 19.99 era.
The guys and I just came back from promotions for I Feel Good and 123-78, however, during the actual live take for I Feel Good, Jaehyun messed up.
It wasn’t even that bad or even that noticeable, honestly I didn’t even catch anything when I was on stage NEXT TO HIM but that didn’t matter.
All that mattered to Jaehyun was that Jaehyun noticed it and it turned his whole day upside down.
As soon as we entered the dorm, I heard Jaehyun sniffling along with his breathing becoming heavier. I followed him into his bedroom and shut the door behind us which led to Jaehyun immediately breaking down.
His hands flew to his face as he sobbed into his hands.
I felt time stop as I stood there for a minute processing the fact of my boyfriend, crying in front of me.
There was nothing wrong with him crying, I always told him how he had the space to be comfortable and vulnerable with me whenever he needed but I had never seen him break the way he did in front of me.
For a minute I wasn’t even sure what to do. I didn’t know what to say or how to act. My mind went blank.
My body acted on it’s own
“ Jaehyun..” I spoke softly and stepped towards him lightly
“ NO BECAUSE—“ His voice cracked as his sobs broke through his speech, as if he couldn’t control the fact he was crying and his hands flew off of his face as he threw them up in the air in frustration.
“ OUT OF—“ I heard his breathing increasing and his sobs get worse quickly, almost as if he was hyperventilating while crying.
“ Jaehyun baby breathe—“ I stepped closer and grabbed his hands firmly but gently
He shook his head and tried to face away from me but failed
“ OUT OF ALL THE TIMES I COULD HAVE MESSED UP- LIKE ALL THE REHERSALS WE DID AND OUTFIT CHECK AND MIC CHECK- I MESSED UP ON LIVE “ Jaehyun raised his voice as tears streamed down his face rapidly and his face grew red, small whimpers coming out
“ JAEHYUN- Jaehyun- It’s okay-“ I comforted him repeatedly hoping my voice would make it through to his ears through his spiral ramble
His ramble continue while he looked down at our hands that were in one another’s grasp
“ Jaehyun baby please it’s okay, listen to me, I promise it’s okay.. “ I spoke as I brought my hands up to his face, cupping his cheeks into my palms.
“ it’s normal for people to make mistakes, people make mistakes all the time.. you can make mistakes too and it doesn’t change you “
He whined and shook his head
“ I don’t understand how you could want to stay with someone like me who messes up all the time and is just- such a mess ! I’m a mess up ! “
I bit my bottom lip and held back the own tears of mine that were fighting to come through. It’s hard to watch your romantic partner be brought down by something so small and beat themselves up for it especially when you see them as nothing but perfect, even during the imperfect moments.
“ Jaehy-“
“ NO I DON’T GET IT- I DON’T GET IT. You don’t wanna be with me- You shouldn’t be with me, I’m not good for you and you deserve everything in the world and more and I don’t and you give me so much and I don’t do anything for you- You’re never going to ever want to marry me as a man as I am “
The pure sadness that I felt from hearing Jaehyun talk so lowly about himself was excruciating but then I caught onto something he said.
“ Jaehyun- You want to marry me? “
“ WELL YES BUT I CAN’T MARRY YOU WHEN I’M LIKE THIS “
I don’t even think it’s registering to him that he just admitted something big.
“ Baby- okay look- I get it. I get what you’re feeling and I’m not here to throw away what your feeling because I believe it’s okay to be sad and sit with your feelings for a bit but I can’t stand here and let you be swallowed by your thoughts. You are nothing that you are saying over just a mistake you made on stage- MIND YOU I DIDN’T EVEN NOTICE IT AND RIWOO ONLY NOTICED IT BECAUSE HE IS AN INSANE DANCER AND HE MAKES OUR CHOREO. Jaehyun there’s nothing wrong with you and you are perfect for me..” I spoke firmly to him, slowly grabbing his waist and holding them, pulling him closer to me little by little
“ bu-“
“ Jaehyun there is no one else in this fucking world that I would rather be with. Do you realize that ? I want to be with you, I’m happy with you, you are my perfect person. I love you. I want you. Nothing has changed and nothing WILL CHANGE.” The more I spoke, he began to cry and turned his face towards my hands tha held his face and cried into my palms, holding my arm.
“ I love you so much, I’m so sorry..” He sobbed into my skin, his tears staining my hand and wrist.
I smiled
“ I love you too baby..” I said as I faced him towards my face and leaned in slowly to see if he would reciprocate and or want a kiss.
His teary puppy eyes looked into mine before quickly, cupping my face into his hands as well and kissing my lips passionately.
I kissed him back with the same amount of energy, my hands immediately trailed down and wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer against my body.
I didn’t pull him in to be freaky with him, I just wanted to be able to connect with him. I wanted him against my body and feel him and let him feel me too. To remind him physically
I’m there.
I’m here.
As we kissed, I felt his tears come into contact with my cheeks and it made me giggle.
“ stop crying, my love..” I mumbled in between kisses
“ I’m sorry..” He mumbled
I held him firmly in my grip as the kiss continued, I moved us further into the bedroom and closer to the bed until I felt the bed hit my leg as an indication of where we were in the room, without opening my eyes.
We stood there for another minute
or five.. I didn’t exactly count
duh..
The longer we kissed, holding one another in each other’s embrace as his tears stained my skin, I felt him grow hard against me and I couldn’t lie that I grew hard from kissing him as well
I slowly pulled away and opened my eyes. Jaehyun fluttered his eyes open and the both of us stood there lost in each other’s gaze as we tried to catch our breath.
“ How far do you want me to go.. because I know you’re having a bad day so we can just cuddle and lay here..-“
“ no-.. I want to have sex.. I’m hard you know.. and I just..” His eyes trailed away from mine
“ I just want to feel your love.. if you..know.. what I mean.. I just need you right now..okay?” Jaehyun continued and I laughed softly
Jaehyun rolled his eyes and scoffed
“ fine then don’t-“
I shook my head and slammed my lips onto his before he could finish his sentence before pulling away after a minute
“ No I want to if that’s what you want, I’m hard too and.. I just want to do anything you want to do- but I want to do it too you know.. just to let you know..”
Jaehyun giggled and nodded
“ yeah I know..” He looked down, I could see his ears were red, assumingly from shyness, his hands trailed down my shirt softly
“ Can I take your shirt off then? “ I asked him
He looked up at me then his eyes darted around the room and he let out another scoff
“ You’re very direct you know..” He mumbled
I laughed and nodded “ yeah I know..”
He stood there for a moment, pressing his lips together and looking at me with such the cutest shy expression ever before lifting his arms up
I smiled and kissed his cheek softly before grabbing the ends of his shirt and sliding it up and over his head, tossing it to the corner of the room where his pile of dirty clothes were.
I kissed down his collarbone and down his stomach, ending at his waistband of his pants. I kissed along his waist and the bottom of his stomach for a moment while staring up into his eyes. I felt his body tense up and shiver as my lips made contact with his skin and the soft exhales that escaped his mouth.
I stood up to my feet again and slid my own shit off, throwing it to the same pile of clothes from mentioned before I pulled him closer by grabbing his waistband and tugging his body towards mine. He giggled and looked up at me and I giggled as well, kissing his lips softly and feeling his body melt into mine, wrapping his arms immediately around my neck and holding me against him.
I groaned slightly as I held him against my body, leaving room for nobody between us. I felt his body rise in temperature against mine as we kissed, my hands trailed around his body and wrapped around his waist. Our lips in sync, moving against one another roughly and entirely filled with this love and warmth.
He pulled away at first and let out a gentle sigh, catching his breath again before grabbing my hands and putting it on his waistband.
“ off..please..” Jaehyun mumbled
I chuckled and nodded, listening to his words and I began to unbutton his pants then unzip them, sliding his pants and boxers off in one swipe. He followed my movements and kicked his feet out of them and kicked them towards a random direction before he quickly did the same to me.
I watched with a small smile as I watched him take my pants off of me, then I followed him as well, kicking my feet out of them and towards the same direction as he did.
After helping me take my pants off he came back to my front view, grabbing my hands and putting them onto his waist before pulling me closer against his body
“ now..” Jaehyun mumbled
I tilted my head and grinned
“ what now? “ I asked teasingly and he pouted
He huffed before responding
“ sex.. fuck me now.. I want you now..”
My grin turned into a smile and I laughed, I pecked his like for a moment before kissing down his neck and down his collarbone, then kissing his shoulder firmly.
“ of course.. “ I mumbled against his skin before turning him around, his back facing me.
I quickly grabbed the lube that was on his desk nearby, squeezing some into my hand before rubbing it along my dick. I looked back at him after doing so and he looked back at me, watching me with his eyes in awe which did cause my face to heat up from just the pure shyness of it all from him watching me in that way.
I pressed my hand against the lower part of his back and bent him over onto the edge of his bed. I kissed along his back, up his neck and kissed along his ear, biting softly as a small wince left from him.
I grabbed my dick and inserted myself into him slowly, I gasped softly at the feeling as if it’s my first time having sex with him
but it’s not
and Jaehyun’s head fell forward, I watched as his hands gripped onto the bedsheets and he held them in his palms.
Eventually, I finally bottomed out inside of him and we both let out a relieved moan/sigh.
“ fuck baby you just feel good every fucking time..” I mumbled into his ear, leaning my body into him and he groaned in pleasure into the bed
I stayed still inside him for a moment before I wrapped my arms around him, pressing against his chest to force him to lean upwards and stand, his back against my chest while I held his body against me.
He looked over his shoulder to look at me and I smiled warmly
“ hi my baby.. I’m here don’t worry..” I mumbled against his cheek where I kissed and he whimpered softly
and I took that as a sign to finally move.
I kept my arms wrapped around his body tightly while I began to thrust deeply into him. He threw his head back onto my shoulder and let out a loud moan, his hands tried to grab at my sides to try and hold onto something.
I started off with slow and deep thrust and quickly changed my speed towards fast, rough and deep thrust. I crumble under pleasure too quickly and at this point, not only am I chasing this orgasm of mine but I’m almost in a trance as I hear my boyfriend moan my name loudly just for me and I need to give him what he wants and desires for quickly.
I let out breathless moan as I continued to thrust roughly into him as Jaehyun’s moans continued to be loud, his body began to shake in my grasp and one hand of mine immediately flew to his dick, wrapping it around him and stroking him quickly at the same pace of my thrust.
Jaehyun gasped loudly and threw his head back against my shoulder once more
“ fuck yeah- fuck- cum for me baby, you can do it, cum for me- all over my hand- I want it all please baby- fuck~” I spoke in between grunts and moans, not stopping my thrust or any movements in the process
He nodded his head repeatedly, his moans becoming suddenly louder
“ p-per-permission-?” He moaned out, checking he got permission from me to release and I laughed breathlessly
“ fuck- yes baby i’m gonna cum- cum with me-“
As soon as those words were even uttered out of my mouth, Jaehyun practically screamed in pleasure and my hand rubbing his tip repeatedly making him arch his back off of my and squirm around.
I came shortly after him with a loud moan, throwing my head back, thrusting myself deep into him and burying my cum into him.
I slowly came to a stop and slowly let go of Jaehyun who fell forward onto the bed, bent over.
I chucked breathlessly and grabbed a wet wipe, wiping all the wetness from his thighs then with a towel to dry it off with one hand before leaning over him, licking all his cum off my hand
and he watched in admiration.
I hummed happily before cleaning myself up quickly, then going back to Jaehyun. I laid him down on the bed carefully before laying down next to him and throwing the covers over us
“ they heard us..” he mumbled, laying on me
I laughed and nodded
“ I mean- yeah probably, neither of us even tried to stay quiet.. especially you “
Jaehyun laughed loudly and pushed me
“ Don’t say that ! “
The both of us laughed and I held him close to me again as he laid on my chest and his words echoed in my head
“ You want to marry me ? “ I asked
He shot his head up in my direction with a shock looked and then covered his mouth in realization
“ I said that didn’t I..” He said into his palm and I nodded my head with a smile
“ you did- is this going to be a pattern of you surprising me with things like this suddenly? It’s how you confessed to me too a year ago, remember ?”
He laughed hard and nodded
“ yeah I remember! .. but..” Jaehyun spoke
“ I uh-.. did.. mean it.. you know.. I want to marry you..”
I laid there and stared at him before I melted into a big smile
“ I would like that too if you’re okay with that..”
Jaehyun nodded and smiled sheepishly, laying his head on my chest
“ BUT THATS NOT OFFICIALLY US GETTING ENGAGED, RIGHT ? “ Jaehyun shot up again
I laughed “ NO not at all “
He sighed in relief and laid down
“ okay.. good..”
“ because I want to be the one to ask you and give you the ring..”
relations with my members in my boynextdoor dr! (pt 1)
ִ ⠀ 🐈⬛ HAN TAESAN ⠀ ͝ ︶⠀ ׁ future lover
i probably wouldn’t have talked to him during our trainee period if it wasn’t for woonhak honestly. not because i had anything against him, i was just pretty reserved since i wasn’t fluent in korean and he was 3-4 years older then me. but he was the one that taught me and woonhak the basics of music composition and i will always be grateful to him for that! we were able to bond over punk rock and alt music bands, we both have different faves but we had liking mcr in common. but now when you get close to the guy it’s clear he’s the ragebaiter ™ like it’s actually ridiculous. but all his teasing is his love language, so at the end of the day i don’t mind much. he’s a very thoughtful person too, don’t believe the nonchalant and cold hearted allegations…
ִ ⠀ 🦁 KIM LEEHAN ⠀ ͝ ︶⠀ ׁfuture lover
i could listen to him talk about sea life all day everyday. or anything really, yes boy with the big brown eyes tell me all about your interests. sometimes we have information swap sessions where he’ll tell me all about fish and then i’ll share fun facts abt reptiles. without leehan i probably wouldn’t be able to have my ball python bc im actually not able to stomach feeding him his frozen rats, so leehan does it for me ☺️. when we’re feeling lazy on our off days we usually just keep each other company while playing on our nintendo’s. very relaxing would recommend
ִ ⠀ 🧸 KIM WOONHAK ⠀ ͝ ︶⠀ ׁ twin!
dumb(me) and dumber(woonhak). actually my day 1 he is my best friend forever😭😭😭 when i first started training he was one of the first trainees to approach me and ended up being the reason i was able to learn korean so quickly. we’ve basically been attached by the hip ever since predebut. our favorite pastime is watching dramas together, be rlly doesn’t play about his dramas like seriously. he’s always trying to get everyone to watch what he’s watching. he such an active watcher too like?!?!?!😭 quiet down and let me process what’s going on please. he’s quick to eat whatever food i end up not liking but he doesn’t even stop there he’ll eat the snacks i save for later too i have to lock my shit away 👎🏾
but anyway so love my family so very much i need to shift to this reality now😭 got the layout and inspo from @musefied
you have motivated me to bring back my girlnextdoor dr despite haven't listened to kpop in... technically six months 😝
OMG???? that genuinely makes me so happy i think everyone should have a girlnextdoor dr 🙂↕️ feel free to yap about it in my inbox~ 'cause i need to know EVERYTHING
the name I go by here is Minji, I'm not gonna say my age but I am a teen, you can interact if you're 18+ just don't be a weirdo !
I discovered shifting in like 2024(?) I did script a whole fame dr but I never tried shifting because I didn't believe in it, I rediscovered it in february of 2026 and I've believed in it since.
Also english is not my first language (I'm Italian) so sorry if I make any mistakes !
My drs
boynextdoor dr (my main)
stray kids dr
yes I only have two no I don't count that fame dr😔
Dni
racists, sexists, homophobes, transphobes, Israel supporters, trump supporters, right wingers, pro ai, pro life, anti-feminist, ppl against race change, pedophiles, ppl who have sungho as their s/o, anti shifters, ppl who stan bts, blackpink, aespa, kiss of life, exo, bigbang or any other racist/sexist kpop idols
