#bpd dating

[justanotherbpdbitch]

googling: how to stop feeling abandoned when my girlfriend falls asleep

[agentkikirogers]

Okay last update for those who have given me advice.

I told him I still have a crush on him

He said we dont have couple compatibility because he makes me pissed off often.

He said he saw himself getting mean in his head whenever I asked for reassurance so he stopped the relationship. He said it was on him. He said hes too harsh for my sensitivity. He needs someone who stimulates his brain and doesnt do small talk.

Ngl I cried last night because I really wanted us to get back together and I wish I wasnt so sensitive but I am. Im not beating myself up but I truly wanted him to be my forever. Theres several cons but so many pros I was looking for.

[chillychive]

Hey guys. If anyone who has bpd or has had a successful relationship with someone with bpd would be willing to chat that would be amazing. I need some advice.

[hawkingbishop]

I thought I was getting better about it today.

Nighttime makes it worse. Being alone makes it worse. Talking to them makes it worse. Not talking to them makes it worse.

Thinking about them again and my heart feels like a black hole now when it used to feel like the hottest star.

I wish we had met at a better time.

[hawkingbishop]

I need romance. That stays and lasts.

But everybody always leaves.

Either I fuck it up or they leave.

I’m always too much, too fast.

I just want to love and be loved.

[hawkingbishop]

I hate feeling broken and unwanted/unloved. More than anything else.

I love friendship, but I need romance too.

I need someone who can love me back the way I love them. But I have no clue how to find them.

Dating apps do not work for me. Nothing ever works for me. It’s so fucking exhausting and discouraging.

I just want to be loved. I want reciprocation. I want someone to want/need me. I want to be happy. I want to make someone happy and wanted and loved and needed.

But I always want what I can’t have, I guess. 🤷🏽‍♀️

[hawkingbishop]

It hurts so much to be rejected yet again.

I fucking hate my BPD.

And I hate dating apps. Not getting any matches. How/where can I meet people?

I am so lonely and discouraged.

[hawkingbishop]

I’m working with a friend and my therapist on drafting up like a checkin with her about how I still have feelings for her.

I’m so fucking terrified to tell her. But I bet she already knows.

Hopefully we can come up with something that’s not too BPDy like my first draft. I think I kinda went a bit overboard and said too much, so I wanna trim it and make it less daunting/overwhelming. Cause I wrote A LOT.

We met on Tinder in early May and started going on dates in early June. Then end of June, after 4 dates, she wanted to be just friends for now because she was still getting over an abusive ex. It’s been 2 months since then and we’ve remained friends and talk pretty much everyday and we cuddle while watching movies about once a week.

So I wanna try talking about it with her again to see where she’s at. I know most of what I originally wrote down might not be necessary and should just ask where she’s at before dumping anything on her. I don’t know. 🤷🏽‍♀️