#bpdshit

[xx-mattimax-xx]

dogs are curious creatures.

they'll give unconditional affection, even when hit.

and hit.

and hit.

And.

Hit.

till one day, hackles are up.

teeth are bared.

and suddenly,

i know exactly why i bite.

[sleepybpdmess]

I literally cannot stress this enough. I hate all my past fp. I hate all of them. Fuck every single one of them.

[hidain]

someone: *doesn’t answer me within 2 minutes*

my shit brain: they hate you and want you to die

me: i’m sure that’s not right-

brain: they want you to die You Fucking Fool

me: fuck you’re right

[xx-mattimax-xx]

about me.

tw: fast moving gif in the center of post. may trigger epilepsy, psychosis, etc.

name: matthias, mattie, matti, ty, max, matts, matt (but ONLY if I like u...)

pronouns: it/its, he/him (I highly prefer it/its currently)

shockingly, i consider myself to be a binary trans man, but moreso in the way a dog is a man. or a doll is a boy. the best way to describe me is a gothic little loverboy. I am a system currently seeking diagnosis. I do not want to engage in syscourse.

I do not check every single blog that follows me. Much of my art is mildly nsfw or has themes that may be mature. My work is tagged forcemasc for reach but is also generally just transmasc positivity. Minors, do not dm me, but rbs and comments are okay!! 🐶

ANY ART THAT IS MORE THAN POSITIVITY AND IS SEXUAL WILL BE MARKED AS MATURE. MDNI WITH THESE.

open to neopronouns (vamp/vampself, any canine neos, any angel neos, any doll neos); considering using mogai microlabels, but everyone seems to hate that and it stresses me out tbh. i use we/they/us and i/me/myself interchangeably depending on who/how many i'm talking about.

age: 24

alterhuman/theriotypes: canine (domestic and wild), porcelain doll, ball joint doll, angel, fallen angel, seraphim, demon, incubus, vampire (full list here)

main/most resonant theriotypes/kintypes: dog, ball joint doll, vampire, angel, demon, eren jaeger

consider myself to be an inumimi. the most dog boy of all time. the puppy of all time. bark.

hobbies: making bead bracelets, writing poetry, writing self-indulgent fanfic, drawing, reading philosophy, cosplay, digital camera photography, web 1.0 nostalgia, and thrifting. planning to start youtube channel!

also, i'm extremely sensitive due to bpd, pls be so nice to me actually. my bpd also impacts how i see my alterhumanity and my gender #mygender. My BPD is my mental condition, but u know it's buy one get twelve free w/ this shit

I'm openly chronically ill and disabled. I am more than happy to talk about my diagnoses but would prefer to via dm. I have trouble remembering to take my meds and tbh a little reminder ping never hurts.

current interest: RED DEAD REDEMPTION 2, DATE EVERYTHING!!!!, nevermore webtoon, tadc, missing 411 videos, socialism, communism, philosophy (specifically absurdism), poetry, collage/dadaism works of art, weimar republic germany, vampires, fursuiting, understanding mogai/neopronouns, the front bottoms, goth art and music, drag

life-long hyperfixations: monster high dolls, geography, maps, globes, fall out boy discography, eurovision (this one hurts because zionism means i haven't partaken in years), language learning, attack on titan, fnaf, the outsiders, the great gatsby, farenheit 451, hetalia ( :( ), cosplay, ouran high school host club, homestuck, musical theatre

just graduated college and am now working a full time position where I do grant writing :3

music i like: FALL OUT BOYYYYYY, 3oh3, my chemical romance, joy division, the cure, cobra starship, seventeen, nct, bts, exo, bauhaus, atreyu, the used, silverstein, and many more!!! i love playlist making, so pls pls pls ask for a playlist trade <3

tags:

#ruff-times : alterhuman works, but also general yapping

#divine-intervention : angelkin/demonkin

#the-toy-shop : dollkin works

i block freely. i have a personal dni that i do not post because strangers don't need to know what triggers me. However, if you use TMA/TME or are unwilling to discuss transandrophobia and how trans men/mascs DO FACE MISOGYNY, this is absolutely not the blog for you.

Claimed anon tags: 🥩🦴

[xx-mattimax-xx]

new pfp, same disorder, rapidly changing me

[xx-mattimax-xx]

i bite.

why are you still fucking surprised.

i always have. always will, even when my gums are empty and teeth decayed, why will you still be fucking surprised.

i'm a monster.

i never got domesticated enough. or enough interaction. enough softness. whatever the fuck makes you so on edge, i got it in bulk.

i love you

and i will bite.

you cannot love the monster out of me.

[xx-mattimax-xx]

⛓️🗝️I promise I still love you all.🗝️⛓️

I'm sorry I haven't been speaking to anyone. It's getting bad again. I'm really trying. I'm really trying. I'm really trying. You have to believe me. I'm really trying. I'm really trying. I'm really trying I'm really trying I'm really trying I'm really trying I'm really

[xx-mattimax-xx]

"consdering using mogai microlabels, but everyone seems to hate that and it stresses me out tbh" Discover more about your identity without fear, friend! Tap into microlabels if they make you feel more validated and seen. afteral, not everyone needs to know you identify as them! ^u^

what this ask felt like:

my oversharing BPD/autistic/neurodivergent ass thinks everyone needs to know everything, especially when it's on a personal spot like my blog #myblog

This actually put it into perspective 🥀🦴♥️🐶🐕🐾

Thank u friend <3