#breathee

[acaemia]

If you see this please send prayers or healing thoughts my way :”( please huhu

[awesamcozy]

im judging this a cold case i ddont have the mental fortitude to investigate but i think simce both photos are probably from the same day that theyre probably???? the same hoodie that was originaly seem on the mr beast episode of banter (bangs gavel) code green 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

[imagecristal]

Tonight @betonsalon @galerie_escougnou_cetraro #breathee (à Bétonsalon - Centre d'art et de recherche)

[heavnbound]

Why is my social anxiety acting up from indirect posts about people who are not me? Oh god

[heyashtisdale]

[blaugr4na]

HATTRIIIIICCCKKKKK ALEEEXXXXIIIIISSSSS

4-0

[miribalis]

Eugh

ah so this has happened before but i just realised it happened regarding the same thing or i don't know something like that

it's so unnerving because my brain is a mess of ideas and a thousand fucking details coming along with those ideas and when i try to put them down in writing i think it's alright but then i forget what i wrote and what i wanted to write and what i decided not to write because it's hard to do things like world-building and i had an idea essentially but then i tried to change it and then i tried out a few possibilities in my head to see if they would work but it backfired 

because now i have glimpses of all these ideas in my head and i'm so confused because i can't tell the what-ifs apart from the settled facts and i reread these two chapters four times now and i still don't know what i've been filling them with and i have all these papers around with other ideas and  and and it's so frustrating oh my god

and yes of course then there's the problem of feeling like i have to explain everything, i mean maybe some things ought to be explained in order for it to be better to understand, but where does that stop where do i stop and how do i keep track of what i've already written

oh god i realise most people might not even notice contradictions in details but it pisses me off so much and i really hope it'll get easier and better as the story unfolds but what if i'm doing something very wrong right now what if i'll forget and contradict myself later on

this turned out longer than i expected shit ok rants

[thestarsofpines]

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