synopsis: As a camerawoman, it's your job to capture content for AMPERS&ONE. Instead, you somehow capture evidence that one of the members, Brian, is utterly head-over-heels in love with you.
pairing: brian x camerawoman!reader
word count: 2,551 words
content: fluff, reader in denial, brian gets slightly injured, awkward flirting
authors note: he was so cute in the behind-the-scenes for god I just had to write something! likeee that first pic with him on the metal grate oh my goodness he's adorable (♡ω♡ )
playlist: You Are In Love - Taylor Swift, Over The Moon - AMPERS&ONE, Love, Maybe - MeloMance, Every Breath You Take - The Police, Let Me Love You - DAY6, I.L.Y. - The Rose
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When you joined AMPERS&ONE's content team, you were determined to not get attached to anyone to make your job easier. Due to the fast-paced industry, the staff come and go constantly, evident as the last person with your current position was only in the team for three months. Professional boundaries exist for a reason, you never know when you'll have to leave. So you take the rule seriously. You show up, film what needs filming, hand in your footage, and go home without ever hanging out with the other staff or idols. A simple, foolproof routine.
Except Brian keeps making it difficult for you.
At first, he's just much easier to work with than other idols. When you're filming behind-the-scenes content, some members get awkward around the camera. Others try too hard to look candid, but Brian somehow knows exactly how to act natural. Whenever you're assigned to AMPERS&ONE, the editors are satisfied with your work because the footage always comes back usable.
The problem is that over time, he starts giving those reactions specifically to you.
Not the camera.
You. Only you.
And the thing is, he wasn't exactly subtle about it. After six months of work, the entire film crew has noticed how Brian would always help you carry equipment, how he would offer you food before he even eats, even going so far to give you his own hand warmers when filming during winter. Despite the teasing you've slowly gotten from your coworkers, you've decided to stick to your rule. No getting attached. So you leave immediately after every shoot, blatantly reject the younger editor who offered to take you out to dinner, and most importantly, distance yourself from Brian as much as possible.
However, this is proven difficult when the two-day filming of their comeback music video begins. You find yourself at the set quite early on the first day of filming, your breath fogging up from the cold weather. As usual, the setup takes up around two hours of the day, so the crew was instructed to arrive at the first location at four in the morning. A few members arrive at around 6:30, and the filming starts with Siyun and Kamden, then Jiho and Mackiah a few hours later.
The director calls for a break after filming a dance break portion at the second location, and you hurriedly head to the group's waiting room to ask the members questions for content. You find Kamden and film him quickly, then head to the corridor to eat lunch. However, your phone pings in your pocket and you sigh in annoyance as you see a message from one of the editors.
Hi! Would it be possible for you to film Brian as well since you're near their break room already? Please ask him which of the other member's parts he'd like to have. Thank you and have a good break!
Good break, my ass. There's twenty minutes before the next portion of filming and you haven't even touched your already cold sandwich. So much for trying to avoid Brian. You sheepishly head back into their waiting room and find him eating lunch beside Jiho while scrolling on his phone. Hesitantly, you clear your throat and pull your camera out.
“Sorry, I was instructed to film you for a bit. I was instructed to ask you which of the member's parts you'd want to have instead of your own,” you mutter as you uncap the lens cover. As usual, he grins up at you eagerly, immediately setting down his phone and chopsticks.
“Sure! That's all you need?”
You nod gratefully and set up the camera properly. The moment you start recording, he stares straight at the lens like he's in love with it, talking enthusiastically about how he’d like Seungmo's part. You have no choice but to cut him off after five minutes of talking, thanking him for his willingness to provide good content for Andears. As you turn to leave, a hand shoots out to gently grasp your shoulder. You turn to face Brian, slightly irritated that your break time is ticking away far too quickly, but your glare immediately softens when you see a plastic bag with a bento and coffee in his free hand.
“You probably haven't eaten yet,” he says while giving you a shy smile.
You immediately break eye contact, staring at the necklace he's wearing instead. “They gave the staff sandwiches, you don't have to give me food-”
“Take it. Or at least the coffee, it's still warm. Please, you've been working for hours. It's cold out and a sandwich isn't enough to give you energy.”
You open your mouth to protest but Brian stops you by shoving the plastic bag into your hands. You thank him quietly and rush out of their break room to finally eat. The plastic bag crinkles loudly as you place it down, prying open the bento box to find piping-hot miso soup, stir-fried beef, and a heaping pile of rice. You scarf down the food as quickly as possible then head back to the set to set up for the next scenes.
An hour later, you set up the camera under the platform for the scene where Siyun has to hit Brian with a prop brick. You watch from the monitor as the music cues and Siyun whacks Brian at the side of his head, the prop brick barely crumbling. Once the director yells cut, Brian stumbles to his feet and walks back to the waiting room, the white debris from the brick still stuck to his hair. You find yourself trailing after him without thinking, too worried to keep distancing yourself. You find him sitting down, a blanket wrapped around him as he winces while brushing the debris away.
You hesitantly walk up to him, trying your best to act unfazed by the pain he's in, muttering softer than you usually sound.
“Are you…okay? Do you need a medic?”
Unsurprisingly, Brian offers a small grin. Despite clearly being in pain, he's prioritizing your feelings, trying to assure you that he's okay. You almost believe him as he speaks in a deep, soothing voice, a voice you’ve always found to be comforting.
“I'm okay. I guess Siyun didn’t realize the prop was that hard. We were both expecting it to crumble immediately, but it was pretty solid. I swear I didn’t get a concussion though, don’t worry.”
You sigh softly, slightly annoyed that he’s trying to pretend that he’s okay. “Sure you don’t need a medic? Or anything else?”
Oh, no. You realize that you’ve worded that badly when Brian lets out a tiny smirk.
“Anything else, huh? Hmm…then I think I deserve a kiss for this. It did hurt a lot, you know.”
A scowl immediately reappears on your face, your earlier concern vanishing. “Absolutely not,” you snapped, trying your best to hide the heat rising up into your cheeks.
Brian laughs at this, a warm, resonant sound that fills the room as his eyes crinkle softly. You realize that you can feel your heartbeat thrumming against your chest, a warm, giddy solace spreading through your body despite the biting cold. The realization jolts you back into reality, and you immediately back away, taking on a professional tone again. You’ve gotten far too close this time. Too dangerous.
You manage to sputter out an excuse to leave, the restraint in your voice evident. “I'll get a medic to check on you. Don't move around too much.”
You scramble out of the room, ignoring the intense desire to hear him laugh again. But as you call over one of the medics, you realize that you can't get that smile out of your head. That angelic, unforgettable smile that somehow never fails to make you feel safe.
The next day, you arrive early at the third set. It's considerably colder than yesterday, but the morning sunlight is somewhat warm enough to keep you from shivering while preparing your camera. The director puts you on standby for the morning, since most of the scenes are simple enough for a few staff to handle. Instead, you find yourself watching from the sidelines as Siyun, Mackiah, and Jiho go through their parts with ease.
By the time the director calls for a lunch break at 1PM, almost everyone is quivering from the winter. You’ve forgotten to wear thicker clothing before leaving the house due to sleepiness, so you head to one of the warmer waiting rooms to eat the food they’ve provided for the staff. The door creaks open after a while and you look up, expecting another staff member, but smile politely as Seungmo enters, holding a paper bag.
“Sorry for intruding,” Seungmo says quietly, “but Brian-hyung told me to find you. He couldn’t give this to you because he’s getting his makeup done so he told me to give it instead.”
You thank Seungmo courteously as he hands the warm paper bag over and leaves quickly. The moment he’s gone, you pry the bag open and find a canister of seaweed soup along with the expensive lunch you know they provide for idols. You find a sticky note on the side of the soup canister after pulling it out, handwriting hastily scribbled but undeniably Brian’s.
We’re both working late today, so please eat well. You need energy, so at least have the soup to stay warm. Be safe.
The same, comforting warmth from yesterday envelops you yet again as your cheeks heat up. He’s been thinking about you even if you haven’t seen each other today.
He’s worried about you.
Only you.
The thought fills you with giddiness as you happily eat the lunch he’s provided you. You’re halfway through the meal when you freeze. The realization that he’s gotten through you, that you’ve been thinking about him hits you.
You’ve gotten attached. Not to a staff member, but to an idol. A man who’s supposed to be unattainable. You realize that you can’t help thinking about the way he’s been looking at you for the past few months, the affection in his gaze from across the various sets you’ve both been to, the memory of his smile permanently fixed in your mind.
Brian is completely, utterly, head-over-heels in love with you. And now, you’ve realized that you feel the same.
After the lunch break, you head to the arena set to help prepare the cameras and lighting again. You watch from one of the monitors as they complete their group dance scenes, then one of the staff hands over the responsibility of the camera rig to you for Seungmo and Brian’s solo parts.
Seungmo’s part flies by quite quickly, only needing one take, then you adjust the angle again while waiting for Brian to prepare for his part. You watch through the camera as their manager shows him what to do, but you can’t help but snicker when he makes direct eye contact with you, grinning widely.
The last scene, a group dance with Kyrell in the middle wraps up the shoot at around 2AM. The director instructs everyone to start packing up immediately, and you forget about Brian for a while, too cold to think about anything else. As you quietly start walking away from the set and pull out your phone to get a ride home, you hear a familiar voice behind you.
“Wait, you’re leaving already?”
You turn around, a stupidly happy expression on your face, then remember that you’re supposed to be distancing yourself and stop, awkwardly clearing your throat instead.
“Ah, yeah. It’s cold and it’s late, so I’m heading straight home. Thank you for the lunch earlier, by the way. You really didn’t have to.”
Brian freezes like he hadn’t expected you to thank him.
“Oh, right. The lunch. That was nothing.”
His hands disappear into his puffer jacket as another chilling gust of wind blows across the now-empty set. The rest of the staff have already left, and Kamden, who was with Brian earlier, is nowhere to be seen. For a moment, neither of you say anything, then you glance away first.
“Well, I should probably get going-”
“Did I do something wrong?”
The remorseful tone in his voice stops you in your tracks. You immediately turn back to face him in confusion.
“What?”
Brian looks around nervously. It's strange seeing him like this. On camera he's confident, playful. Right now he looks like he's about to throw up.
"The past few weeks." He laughs weakly. "You've been avoiding me."
Your stomach drops quickly.
"I swear I wasn't-"
"You were."
His voice isn't accusing. If anything, he sounds guilty. You open your mouth to reply, but nothing comes out. He’s right. You’ve been avoiding him. The smile he gives you is small and despondent.
"I knew it."
"No, Brian, it's not-"
"It is, though."
"Brian, wait-"
"I’m sorry if I creeped you out or something."
The words come out in a rush, like he’s barely thinking before he speaks.
“I just really wanted to impress you but I heard that you aren’t interested in dating, so I’ve been trying my best to get on your good side so we could be friends first. I thought I’d have a chance if we became friends before I tried to make you fall in love with me. Wait, this is all coming out wrong. I just…like you. A lot. I didn't mean to make this so awkward.”
A horrified laugh escapes his lips as you gape at him in surprise, watching as his ears turn red. For several seconds, you can only stare at him. Every excuse you'd made for his actions. Every time you'd convinced yourself you were imagining things. The lunches he’d always give you, the constant offers to help carry things, the way he'd always look for you first whenever they arrived on set. All of it suddenly made sense.
You laugh, completely surprised at the predicament you’ve gotten yourself into. His expression falls immediately.
"Oh. I’m sorry."
"Brian- wait, no." You step forward before he can retreat. "No, no, that's not why I'm laughing. Listen to me for a second, will you?"
Brian looks like he wants the ground to swallow him whole as he snaps back weakly. "Then why are you laughing?"
You cover your face as you feel your cheeks heat up quickly.
"I thought I was imagining everything. I thought you were just trying to be polite, okay? And I wasn’t avoiding you because you creeped me out. I was avoiding you because I like you too."
Brian's mouth actually falls open.
"...What? You like me?”
You immediately regret confessing because now he's smiling. God, you loved that smile.
"Brian."
"You like me."
"Stop repeating it."
"You like me."
You smack his arm playfully and he laughs even louder, pulling you closer. For a second, the two of you just stand there, grinning like idiots in the middle of an empty, freezing parking lot at two in the morning. Then Brian clears his throat awkwardly before speaking.
“So…are you free this Friday?”
The smile that spreads across his face when you nod is worth every second of torment in the winter. And for the first time all night, you don't feel cold at all.
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notes: so basically this was the dream that i saw yesterday and i wanted to write it out. this is actually the only thing that i like about being tired cause whenever im tired i see comforting dreams and i just love it. (but then i end up craving cuddles fr) and anyways… AMPERS&ONE FIC DEBUT YOOOO yay
The heavy evening rain splattered loudly against your window, the relentless patter pulling you from a deep, comfortable sleep. With an annoyed tsk, you shifted beneath the blankets, ready to stretch away the lingering drowsiness.
But before you could move, you felt a muscular arm draped around your waist and your forehead resting against a firm chest. You slowly lifted your head, blinking away the scraps of sleepiness and as your eyes adjusted to the dim light of the lamp behind you, they landed on the sleeping face of your boyfriend.
His plump lips were pushed into a faint pout, and one of his cheeks was squished against the pillow, making him look far softer than he usually did. A few strands of messy hair had fallen on his forehead and the adorable sight made you smile.
Carefully, not wanting to wake him, you lowered your head once more and settled comfortably against his arm. The warmth and the slow rising of his chest surrounded you again, and his arm instinctively tightened around your waist as he buried his face deeper into your hair.
But as if he sensed your movements earlier, he let out a soft whine. "Y/n...?" he mumbled, voice deep with hours of sleep.
A fond smile immediately spread across your face.
"Hm...?" You answered softly.
His nose scrunched slightly against the pillow.
"...Hi" The sleepy greeting was so random and adorable that a quiet laugh slipped from your lips. "Hi, bunny."
You nuzzled closer against his chest, your cheek sinking into the soft fabric of his shirt. "Wake uppp" You whined playfully. A low groan rumbled from his chest.
"Noooo..."
"Yes."
"No."
"Yes."
You tilted your head back, smiling so hard, to look at him, cheeks growing warm with love, only to meet his half lidded eyes looking down at you, filled with nothing but love.
His hair was a complete mess, Cheek still had pillow marks pressed into it.
"I love you... so much." He shifted closer and presed a lingering kiss against the top of your head and when he pulled away, he rested his chin on top of your head. The rain continued its steady patter against the windows like a lullaby while the bedroom remained wrapped in warmth and comfort. His arms remained wrapped around you while yours rested against his chest, still tracing different shapes.
"Bunny..." you whispered softly, your voice barely audible over the sound of rain. He hummed, his fingers running through your hair.
"Yes, my angel?"
The nickname made your heart bloom with affection.
"I love you more."
A quiet chuckle escaped him. He pulled back to look at you properly. His hand found your chin, his gentle touch tilting your face upward.
"That can't be true, though. I love you more than anything?" A sleepy smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Then he leaned down, pressing his lips against yours for 5 seconds. When he pulled away, a shy smile appeared on his face and he leaned down again to press a quick peck.
The sight below him made his heart swell with happiness and overwhelming joy.
His entire world was cuddled up to his chest, tucked safely in his arms like the cutest doll. You looking up at him through your lashes with an innocent shy look. A pretty pink shade decorated your cheeks, trying and failing to hide your shyness.
Carefully, he brushed a loose strand of hair away from your face, "You're adorable, you know that?"
You buried your face in his chest with a whine and his laugh echoed through the room.
He laughed at you before wrapping both arms around you. "Good night, adorable."
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“have you been looking for this?” your best friend's voice echoes from your living room, his footsteps trailing to your room. you were occupied with turning your space upside down just to find your headphones, a hand going through your hair as you frustratedly huff. you’ve been looking for ten minutes straight and still no avail. hearing his sudden shout, your head snaps to find his messy poof of hair leaning against your door frame, his lips curved into a slight smirk as he waves something tan in the air. your eyebrow raises in question but once you process what was in his hands, you gasp.
“brian! how– i’ve been– thank you!!” you shout in broken stutters, relief washing over your face when you finally see your headphones. you jump from your crouched position, too excited to think straight so you run into his arms head first. the sudden commotion knocks the air from brian’s lips, your headphones falling onto the floor accidentally. you didn’t have a care in the world though, too eager to wrap your arms around the boy's neck to pull him closer. his hands hold the small of your back to steady himself, a dazed smile painted on his face.
“it was on top of your cabinet, silly,” he mutters, an endearing chuckle leaving his lips as he relaxes into your hold.
your head fit perfectly onto his chest, his warm palms slowly gliding from your back to your sides. brian felt like an oversized jacket. the feeling made you forget about headphones and your messy room. heck, you couldn’t even remember the world in general. it was like you were floating in space but you didn’t mind as long as you stayed connected. the only thing you could focus on was how comfortable you felt, a soft sigh leaving your lips as the words slipped from your mouth without a second thought, “I love you.”
if you were theoretically floating in space, your words slammed brian back onto earth. no warning or a cushion to fall onto to numb the pain. suddenly brian’s slow sways halt, everything working in overdrive. his heart pounds, the sound ringing in his ears like a siren. redness flushes along his neck, cheeks, and ears. his hands were normal a few seconds ago, but now they’re covered in sweat – he’s surprised you haven’t noticed. three words that you often say to each other in a teasing tone, yet it has the poor boy questioning everything. brian always told you he loved you in a silly voice just to mask his growing feelings for you.. could you possibly be doing the same thing??
“brian,” you mumble once you finally acknowledge his heart hammering against your ear. you look up, your chin pressed into his chest to direct your sparkly gaze onto his face. it’s hard for brian to not make eye contact. it’s even harder to hold back his smile. you looked so tiny compared to him, he’s fighting the urge to stuff you in his pocket. brian loses the nonchalant war immediately as soon as you giggle at him, his doe eyes curving into crescents as butterflies swarm in his stomach.
“hi– yes, I love you too,” he tries to say in a matter-of-a-fact tone, but you couldn’t deny the rawness in his voice. his cute aggression for you was getting unbearable as he presses a quick kiss to your forehead without time to overthink it, his head dropping into your neck to hide, his hold on you tightening in embarrassment. friends obviously do this. duh.
your breath catches as soon as you process his actions, a huge grin overtaking your features as your hands crawl into brian’s hair. you could feel his warm breath against your ear, his soft lips below the skin and eyelashes above. not sure what to do, he goes back to gently rocking you back and forth, fully indulging in the moment. gosh, you liked each other so bad but you’re too much of an idiot to acknowledge it. what were you going to do?
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Warnings: Explicit sexual content, BDSM themes, Spanking, Impact play, Breath counting, Orgasm control, Dirty talk, Light humiliation, Use of honorifics (“sir”), Restraint, Edging, Praise kink, Aftercare
You try very hard to be good for exactly three minutes.
Brian’s desk lamp throws a neat cone of light over his keyboard, the rest of the apartment warm with rain-glow and the soft hiss of the oven’s preheat. He’s in a hoodie with the sleeves shoved to his elbows, jaw tight like he’s chewing on a problem. Your job, obviously, is to distract him from being a responsible adult.
You start small. You fold yourself into his office chair backward and spin once, then twice, letting your socked toes skim the floor in slow circles. He glances over—one look, quick and fond—then back to the spreadsheet. You set a glass of water on the coaster by his elbow because you know he’ll forget he’s thirsty; he drinks without looking and slides the empty glass absentmindedly to your side like he’s paying a tax.
You steal his mouse for no reason at all.
He stills. You can feel the pause as if the air has weight. Then, calmly, “Give.”
You hide it behind your back like a five-year-old. “Make me.”
His mouth curves. “Last chance.”
“You always say that.”
He flips the laptop shut with two fingers. For a beat he just sits there, hands idle on the closed lid, watching you in the lamplight while the rain slow-taps the window. Something in his attention changes temperature. Your pulse answers.
“Stand up,” he says, voice even, no raise, no push.
Heat slides into your face and low in your stomach at the same time. You set the mouse in the middle of the desk like a peace offering and get up. The chair rolls back a half inch. Brian does not move yet. He lets the moment settle around your ankles like water.
“How are we doing colors?” he asks.
“Green.” Your voice is already softer than you meant it to be. “I’m green.”
“Good.” He rises. The chair creaks, the floorboard under his weight complains, the lamp makes that faint electric hum you only hear when everything else is quiet. “Bedroom. Hands on the mattress, bend.”
There’s no play in it. No theatrics. He just walks ahead of you, and you follow because he said to and because some part of you started as soon as he closed the laptop.
The bed is a mess of blanket and half-flattened pillows. The window is cracked, the rain louder here, a thin cool thread in the room’s warm air. Brian shuts the door with a click. He points to the foot of the bed. You brace your palms on the edge, bend from the hip, settle your weight through your arms until your body knows where to put itself. He steps behind you and skims one palm down your spine, quick and firm, not petting—marking position.
“You want to play while I work,” he says, tone conversational in a way that is worse than a shout. “So we’ll play my way.”
He hooks his fingers into your waistband. Denim drags over your thighs. The air kisses skin and you flinch because you can feel your own heat. He makes a quiet approving sound and adjusts your stance with his foot—wider—then nudges your left ankle a fraction back. You breathe out because it feels like a frame locking.
“Counting,” he says. “Clear voice. Miss a number, we restart. If you move, we add five. If you reach back, we add ten.”
“How many?”
“Until I decide you’ve learned.” He puts his hand on the small of your back. “Ask me to begin.”
“Please,” you say, cheeks burning, electricity gathering under your skin. “Please begin.”
The first slap lands low and sharp. It is not a warning tap. It is a line. Your breath jumps. Heat blooms immediate and bright, a clean pain that spreads and sits. He waits, hand resting heavy over the sting.
“One,” you say, and already your voice isn’t steady.
The second lands higher, the third a precise mirror on the other side. You count them because he told you to. Four bites into the same spot as one, stacking the heat like coals. Five skips to the other side, not quite symmetrical. Six drops right where your skin is fresh and you swear into the duvet without meaning to.
“Louder,” he says. “You want to brat, you can say your numbers like a big girl.”
“Six,” you say, louder. Your cheeks are hot enough to fry an egg. He rewards you with his palm pressed flat to the ache, not soothing exactly, just proving he sees what he’s making.
Seven, eight, nine—he builds a pattern you only understand in the half-second before it lands. You brace. You still jolt. By twelve your thighs tremble. By fourteen you realize you are soaked and that the wet doesn’t embarrass you; it incriminates you, and that thrills you harder than you want to admit.
“Color,” he says, and his voice is still controlled, still easy.
“Green.”
“Count.”
“Fifteen.” Your voice breaks and you catch it, swallow the crack, start again. “Fifteen.”
“Better.”
Sixteen, seventeen. You lift your head without meaning to and he notices because he notices everything.
“Head down.”
You put your forehead on the duvet. He lands eighteen at the top of the curve where the sting lives longest and you choke on the breath you meant to count with.
“What was that?”
You hate him. You love him. “Eighteen.”
“Try again.” He taps twice, light as drumming, exactly where it burns. “From one.”
“Brian,” you say, a plea and a protest and a prayer.
“From one,” he repeats, and you hear it now—a line of iron under velvet, strict in a way that takes your breath away because he does not move, he does not negotiate, he just holds the frame and expects you to fill it.
“One,” you whisper, and the slap lands. Heat flares. “Two.” He ghosts his palm over the sting and your skin jumps under his hand like it knows him. “Three.”
The count becomes a rope to hold. Four through ten unspool in a rhythm he writes on your body, even when he breaks it on purpose to see if you’re paying attention. You are. You are nowhere but here, in your breath and your skin and the relentless way he refuses to be swayed by your little sounds. Eleven, twelve, thirteen—your voice steadies almost against your will. Fourteen, fifteen—your knees threaten to buckle, and he slides his hand to your hip and pins you down with a grip that says stay.
“Sixteen,” you gasp, and he hums praise that you feel in your spine like a current.
“Seventeen.”
“Louder.”
“Seventeen.” You bite it out. He gives you a sharp one for honesty, and you gasp the last number around the sting. “Eighteen.”
He stops. The quiet hums. You float in it, trembling, breath working in uneven pulls, skin alive from the small of your back to the backs of your knees.
“Hands stay where they are,” he says, and you hear him move—one footstep to the side, the rustle of him rolling his sleeves higher. “If you reach, we start again.”
You curl your fingers into the duvet and hold.
His palm returns to your heat and you flinch at the contact because the skin is singing. He leaves it there until you breathe, then slides two fingers between your thighs and pushes in. The stretch makes your eyes water. You are open for him instantly, slick and greedy and ruined. His laugh is soft and cruel at once.
“Greedy little thing,” he says. “All that noise and you’re dripping on my hand.”
You try not to make a sound. You fail.
“Count to twenty,” he says, and his hand is inside you and his other palm presses the small of your back and there is nowhere to go.
“How—”
“Breaths,” he says, and the word is a command and a kindness both. “You’re going to breathe for me. You’re going to feel every inch of my fingers. You are not going to come until I tell you to. Understand.”
“Yes.”
“Yes, what.”
“Yes, sir.” The honorific rolls out of you like a natural law. Heat blooms under your skin at the same time his thumb settles on your clit and does not move, just presses, steady and cruel.
“One.” You breathe in, out, count it. He presses deeper, curls just once. Your knees buckle a fraction and his hand yanks your hip back into place, not harsh, unarguable.
“Two.” You feel the way your body clutches at him because it wants more, and he does not give it; he gives you exactly what he wants to give and no more. “Three.”
“Don’t rush,” he says. “That’s my job.”
Four, five, six—your breath has a sound now, a wet open thing that makes the air in the room feel heavy. Seven, eight—he rubs the heel of his hand against your clit, just a tiny drag, and the hot spark shoots up your spine and shatters across your shoulders.
“Nine,” you gasp, and your voice shakes so badly you have to bite the duvet to hold it together. “Ten.”
“Color.”
“Green.” It sounds like you had to find the word in the dark.
“Good. Eleven.”
You obey. Twelve. Thirteen. It becomes a climb and a fall at the same time. Your thighs shake. Your fingers ache where you’ve fisted them in the cover. Your face is wet and you don’t know when that started. Fourteen. Fifteen. He shifts angle by a hair and the world changes shape.
“Sixteen,” you say, and then—“Seventeen—oh—seventeen—” and you hear your own voice tear and can’t stop it.
“Slow it down,” he says, steady as a metronome, the press of his thumb relentless. “You’re not done.”
You drag a breath in like it’s heavy. “Eighteen.” He crooks again and it’s like he’s scooping the orgasm up in his hand and refusing to hand it to you.
“Nineteen.”
“Ask.”
“Please.” You don’t know what you’re asking for because he already has his fingers inside you, already has the pressure on your clit, already has your whole body held in his grip. It doesn’t matter. “Please let me.”
He waits half a second, a full second, the exact length of the cruelty you can bear, then: “Twenty. Be good and come.”
You come so hard you forget how to hold your body together. It rips through you from inside, hot and shaking and bright, your voice breaking into the duvet because he told you to be loud and you can’t manage anything but this. He keeps the pressure steady through the first wave, the second, the third, until you are wrung out and stuttering, until the contractions go from claws to flutters and your legs stop trying to leave you.
He eases his fingers out slow. Your whole body feels like a struck match cooling. You stay folded over the bed because you don’t trust your knees.
“Hands,” he says, and his voice has shifted again—still Brian, still the strict line under everything, but the sharpness has softened around the edges. “Up.”
You push up onto your forearms. He catches your waist when you sway.
“Color?”
“Green,” you say, shivery and small. “I’m green.”
“Good girl.” The praise lands like the warmest thing in the room.
He steps away. You hear the bathroom faucet. He is back with a washcloth warm as a bath, with a bottle of water that drips on your wrist, with a small jar you’ve seen him stash in the bathroom cabinet and never questioned. He presses the water into your hand. You drink. He waits until you take three swallows, then sets it on the nightstand and eases you to your side, then your back.
“Stay.”
He pushes your knees up a little and cleans you carefully, efficient but gentle, the warmth a balm on tender skin. When he touches the cloth to the heat across your ass you hiss and he stills, palm flat on your thigh until the sound dies. The aloe is cool and clean-smelling; he rubs it in with careful circles, not lingering to tease, just tending to what he made. He kisses the sore spots as if he can pull the heat into his mouth and keep it.
“Too much?” he asks. Not anxious. Just checking.
You shake your head. “It was… a lot,” you say truthfully, and then find a better word. “It was… right.”
“Good.” He sets the jar aside, wipes his fingers, then slides up onto the bed and pulls you into him. The hoodie smells like rain and laundry and him. The harshness is gone so fast it makes you swim; what’s left is steadiness, the exact shape of safety you crave after you’ve been held down and asked to be better.
“You were impossible,” he says into your hair, amused again like the guy who steals your ice. “And then you were perfect.”
“I messed up the count.”
“You picked it back up.” His thumb sweeps at your cheekbone and finds damp. He kisses the tear track and does not make a joke. “That’s what matters.”
You lie there while the rain writes soft lines on the window. He breathes slow. Your body finds the rhythm and meets it. When your brain starts to come back, the edges of you tingling, you angle your face up.
“Do you…” You clear your throat. “Do you like me bratty.”
His mouth crooks. “I like you honest.” He taps the inside of your knee under the blanket. “Sometimes honest looks like bratty. Sometimes it looks like the way you obeyed so fast you couldn’t breathe. Both of those belong to me.”
Heat flares all over again, not the panicked kind, the molten kind. You nod against his chest. He hums—contented, satisfied, the note he makes when something fits exactly where he planned it.
You lay there long enough for the oven timer to beep in the other room and die. He doesn’t move to get it. You don’t either. The kit—washcloth, aloe, water—sits like a tidy inventory at the edge of the nightstand. The room smells faintly of mint and clean skin, the air cooler now against the heat blooming under the aloe.
Eventually, he shifts. “Roll,” he says gently, and you obey, slow, ginger, tits skimming the sheet, ass lifting a fraction whether you mean to or not. He drapes the blanket over your hips and lays his palm over the curve of one cheek. You tense automatically and he laughs low.
“Relax.” He rubs, slow, warm. “Just a handprint for me.”
You feel the faintest pressure, not pain, something closer to a stamp. He lifts his palm and looks down at his work like an artist stepping back from a canvas. Whatever he sees pleases him. He leans down and kisses the place, mouth briefly open, reverent.
“Back,” he says, and you roll again, face to him. He tucks you in, fixes the blanket around your shoulders with absurd care, thumbs the damp hair away from your temple.
“Tomorrow,” he says, and the strict line glints in his eyes even while everything else about him is soft, “if you try that foot thing again, you’re counting leather.”
Your breath stutters. “Brian.”
“Not a threat.” He smiles, small and sharp. “A syllabus.”
“You’re insufferable.”
“And you’re mine to instruct.” He kisses you slow enough to erase the word insufferable from your vocabulary. “Sleep.”
You shut your eyes because he told you to and because your body has spent what it had and is happy to ride the residue. He holds you while you fall, one hand at your nape, one palm shaped to your hip like a promise. Just before the dark gets deep and easy, he speaks again, voice low, not for effect, just for you.
“That was my hand,” he says. “Next time, if you want to gamble, we’ll make sure you don’t sit right for a week.”
You huff a laugh that’s half whine, half want, and he chuckles, pleased that you’re still listening. He kisses your hairline to sign the night off. Somewhere in the apartment the oven gives up and cools, the rain shifts direction, a car passes and is gone. In the bed, the sting settles into warmth, and the warmth settles into a shape your body would like to keep.
Morning has the good manners to arrive late. When you open your eyes, the window is a pale square and Brian is a line of heat behind you, his breath finding the back of your neck in quiet even pulls. Your ass aches when you shift. A pleased sound you didn’t authorize escapes. He wakes at the sound like you summoned him.
“Color?” he mumbles into your skin, still halfway under.
“Green,” you say, and you’re smiling because your mouth does that automatically where he is.
“Good.” He kisses the bruise of his teeth on your shoulder you didn’t realize he’d left. “Kitchen or captivity.”
“Kitchen,” you say, heroic. He laughs into your back and releases you.
You attempt standing. Your body remembers the lesson and sends a hot reminder through you. You make a sound that is not dignified. Brian leans against the doorframe with his arms folded, eyes lazy and satisfied.
“Hurts,” you say, accusatory and fond.
“Educational outcomes achieved,” he says. “Pancakes?”
“Please.”
The please makes him grin like you just did a trick. He pads away, barefoot, hoodie sleeves shoved up again, already humming as if last night was just a well-executed plan and not the best kind of ruin. You follow at a slower pace and watch him move around your kitchen like he lives there—which he does, in all the ways that matter. Every time you shift your weight, the ache lights and you glow inside it.
He flips the first pancake and glances up. “How many breaths do you think you can go before you say please again,” he asks lightly, as if inquiring about coffee.
You meet his eyes over the heat of the stove. You hold his gaze for one heartbeat, two. Your body remembers his hand and gives the answer for you. You lick your lips.
“Not many,” you admit.
He looks smug and unbearably sweet. “Good,” he says. “Then we’re both learning.”
kamden & siyun seem like they'd be a little sarcastic with it – maybe a little mean.
brian & jiho are more likely to praise you just to see your reaction to it.
kyrell is almost worse than the other two types. he just can't help it.
୨ৎ kamden ˎˊ˗
it's almost degrading how kamden says he "thought you were gonna be so good," nails scratching your scalp lightly as you whine that you are! you're doing everything you were told to! and — while that may be the case — kamden just loves to see you squirm; watching you work harder to make him cum in hopes he'll actually praise you how you need him to (even if that means choking on his cock). he especially loves backhanded praise, murmuring a "just look how dumb you are for me, how pretty you look" into your nape, hands dragging your chin up to view your fucked-out form in the mirror.
୨ৎ brian ˎˊ˗
brian is so incredibly interested in what exactly gets you off– always asking you questions about this and that, inside and out of the bedroom — so imagine his surprised when he doesn't even have to ask about your praise kink. if there's one thing i think brian likes most, it's light bodyworship; simply muttering "look how gorgeous you are, how lucky i am to have you, and — fuck — you take me so well," may have had you writhing beneath him like he so loves, but the short "perfect, angel" you get when you tell him what you like (in bed or not) might just have you ready for round 2.
୨ৎ jiho ˎˊ˗
jiho knows exactly what he's doing, it's entirely intentional. the whispering of "i told you you'd do good" and "perfect for me, as always" slipping through his teeth never fails to have you crossing your legs, and he knows. he's worse when there's others around, even more-so when they're close, hoping someone will notice the way his words have you clinging to him and rubbing your thighs together. even when jiho's not intending to start something, he's always focused on how you worry your lip or swallow a little harder to keep your composure after a "you did so well on this project — good job, baby." he's so in tune to your body, you almost hate it.
୨ৎ siyun ˎˊ˗
siyun is almost the complete opposite, acting so disinterested as you try to get the both of you off, bouncing up and down in his lap, scrolling through his socials while you grind against him. dry, emotionless "praise" falling on burning ears, but as soon as you stop he's flittering his eyes over you, "did i tell you to stop? you were doing so well, are you tired or something?" it's almost humiliating, but the small smirk on his face let's you know he's nothing but entirely amused by you. siyun never dwells on you for long, scrolling on his phone with one hand and forcing you to move with the other — dull words continuing, smirk ever present when you're still pulsing madly around him.
୨ৎ kyrell ˎˊ˗
kyrell is so casual with it — we see it so often with the members, it's only natural to apply it to you as well — right? but, like jiho, he knows exactly what it does to you. when you dress up for him he can't keep his eyes or words off of you. "such a pretty little thing, aren't you?" — "woah, don't you look gorgeous?" they slip off his tongue so easily, and the way everything makes you so flustered is just so cute. kyrell isn't blind to the embarrassed look on your face when he calls you his "little doll — because you're pretty like one," and he'd honestly rather lose every other sense than never be able to feel the way you pulse around him when he kisses those words across your skin.
★ summary: young, rich and sexy, what alse is to do if not ruin the friendship? its not like everyone cares about your love life? right?
★ wc: 10.5k words and an insane amount of dividers.
★ warnings: suggestive but not explicits. reader is literally stupid.
★ a/n: forcing myself to post it before i edit it to oblivion. Gonna try to start writing longer fics for someone else besides the ampies even if i have a kyrell one (that i think im gonna rewrite lmao)
★ permanent taglist: @blubb0 @gyubvlin
If someone asked how it all began, you would tell them the truth. Exactly like every other gala. The same people, the same topics and the same goal. For net working, or as your mother actually meant, you to find a partner. Having resigned to forming an alliance with their only match worth, way to focused on their longstanding feud between them for them to think of you and the He heir as a possible match, they now scouted every young boy from a acceptable background in hopes one catches your eyes, or even better yet, your heart. It always annoyed you, having just gotten out of what could have been described as a situationship from hell, as any twenty something years old girl did, when you were suddenly presented to another of your parents' friends son.
You knew him, he was somewhat of an acquaintance from the last few years. But you were not interested in getting to know him in a romantic light, since he probably was the most boring guy you could meet. You could see Brian disapproving stare as he stood behind the guy, mocking every word the guy let out, particularly the forced pick up lines that felt very rehearsed. You had to stifle a laugh as he gagged at a particularly bad joke, and scrambled around for an excuse when he signaled for you two to get out of there, like you had done hundreds of times before.
You walked around the infinite halls, his hand resting on your waist like it belonged there, guiding you around. This time felt different thought, the way his thumb rubbed against the fabric of your dress is way too familiar, but still unsettling enough to have you second guessing where the night was going. Everything felt way too romantic for you to be walking with Brian in the same halls you used to play hide and seek a few years ago.
You reach the balcony you only deem worthy enough in situations like this, too obscure to be used at any other time. It's the ugliest one, by your family's standard, since it has a view of the city instead of the lavish gardens that are part of your home. You two would spend most of the parties staring the night away, sitting on the forgotten space, sometimes with company, sometimes alone; that mostly depended on who was in the country.
You drank your first glass of champagne there, sneaking them around when you were thirteen, smoked your first cigarette; coughing and way too scared of getting caught, every small milestone of your friendship seemed to have happened in the confined space.
Your reminiscing is cut short as Brian props himself against the railing, pulling a pack of cigarettes out of his jacket. He gracefully plucks one out before inviting you one, as if making a peace offering for the extensive question his mother had put you through. Fraternizing with the enemy if you will.
You waste no time grabbing one, manicured nails scratching at the familiar packaging. The same brand that occupied your nightstand, the same one as that one for the first time. Some things never change, you guess.
"You got the lucky one" he comments, discarding the package for later and pulling out his lighter, struggling to light his. It seemed to be dying, having to be shaken and tossed in order to work.
"What does that mean?" you ask, grabbing the lighter out of his hand. You weren't stupid, having fooled around enough questionable boys for you to know the smoker lingo, but you don't know why you needed to hear him say it, maybe it was the champagne talking or how good he looked in a suit.
"It means you want to kiss me" he explains, watching you struggle with the lighter that seemed to be giving its last breaths before, now accepting its death.
"Nice to know" you say, throwing him back the lighter before coming closer, grabbing the neck of his jacket. "Come here"
"Gonna cash in your prize so early?" He smiles, teasing, cigarette resting on his lips. You can see his eyes wander all over your face, tracing your eyes, nose, before deciding to pull a stop on your lips.
"You wish." You say, pressing the tip of your own cigarette to his, inhaling to ignite it. His breath hitches at the sudden closeness, and you can feel his eyes scanning your face, searching for a hint of anything that gave him leverage, hoping you didn't feel his fastening heartbeat under your palm.
You finish lighting your cigarette, taking a step back. He lets himself admire your beauty for once in his life. He always knew you were pretty, in a girl next door type of way, but something about the way you looked tonight was driving him insane.
"Maybe" he shrugs, a teasing smile on his lips and he turns to look at the city view. You watch the way he leans against the railing, exhaling the smoke as he lets out a sigh.
He really had grown into his frame, no longer the lanky kid that you remembered from all those parties years ago. Truth to be told, your friendship with him was relatively new, sure, you had known each other for years, but didn't care enough to form an actual relationship between the two of you besides odd interactions at this parties, usually in company of the other kids there.
You actually hit it off beyond vapid conversations during a party around a year ago, after your parents had deemed necessary to try and set you two up for once and for all, a great opportunity to mix with the enemy since you turned of age. You both had been tipsy, and what would have been an uncomfortable conversation with any other of the available bachelors had turned into a really nice friendly banter. Sure, you knew he was hot, but at that moment you found his wit way more interesting.
Brian finishes his cigarette, throwing it into the ashtray as he grabs the discarded pack. Your eyes follow his every move, taking one of the last drags of your own. He wastes no time pulling you closer by the waist, pressing the tip of his new cigarette to your own, torturing you in the exact same way you did to him moments prior. He takes a drag. Teasing. Clearly enjoying that the effects of the closeness aren't one sided.
You seize the opportunity, pulling his cigarette out of his hand and pressing your lips to his, the sigh he lets out forcing the smoke into your lungs, and even if you have smoked for a while now, it has never tasted better. His hand wraps around your waist, as if trying to pull you impossible closer.
You have to break apart, just enough to air enter your lungs once again, letting the smoke trail against his lips as you exhale it. He presses his lips to yours once again, his hand forcing yours to put out the barely started cigarette, just so he could place it on his shoulders. You gasp, feeling the taut muscle under your hands, and he can't help the smile that presses against your lips once again.
Brian wastes no more time, his kisses now trailing lower. “We should go somewhere more private” he says between kissing and sucking, leaving the tiniest marks he could, as if claiming you “unless you want to give them a show”
Right, them.
You were on a balcony, that other people could very much see the way you were basically devouring the boy in front of you, and you were sure the tabloids would have a field day if they got photos of the kids of the two most known rivals dipping in some public indecency.
You nod. “We should go somewhere more private” you repeat, not bothering to pull away from him, not like he tried to put some space between you anyway.
“Your place or mine?” He asks, lips barely brushing yours.
“Yours is closer” you say, and he nods with a fervor you haven't seen from the laid back boy before.
That's all the argument needs before separating from you, pulling you by your arm along with him, surfing to the crowd of people, greeting the ones you know who are not that shocked of your alliance, already used by you two being together in these events.
The ride to his house is tense, to say the least. His chauffeur is trying to ignore the tension that crowds the backseat. Even if you try to disguise it, it's dense enough to cut with a knife, even more once his hand drapes itself across your thigh, caressing it ever so lightly. You try to act unbothered, but all that act gets thrown out the window once his hand cradles your cheek, pulling you in another kiss.
It feels like an eternity, even if it wast more than a few minutes. The elevator ride even worse, given the eagerness Brian had to press you against the mirrored wall, barely waiting for the doors to fully close. Heir to such an empire only meant he had to be at the top, so he made sure to entertain himself with you during the ride.
The familiar ping is enough to make you pull apart, bruised lips and flustered expressions. Brian wastes no time before hosting you up over his shoulder, deciding that carrying you would be more effective to finally getting you on his bed than playing house tour.
“Such a nice view” you comment from your very privileged positions. Its not every day you get one of the hottest guys in town basically manhandle you.
“I can give you a better one” he comments once he finally throws you on his bed, wasting no time before getting between your legs, already working on discarding his shirt and tie.
Something told you you were in for a long night.
You remember the next morning as clear as if it was yesterday. How you had woken up with his arms wrapped around you, and how you had slipped out of them, hastily getting dressed while you texted your chauffeur to pick you up, lying about your whereabouts. You lose no time before making your quiet disappearance, excusing last night to yourself as a slip, a mistake.
You don't bring it up, neither does he. But you both remember very vividly the things that happened in between champagne glasses and cheap cigarettes. By the next party nothing has changed, still acting as if it had meant nothing, even if, unknown to both of you, it was the only thing that occupied each others mind.
You are acutely aware of his presence from the moment you walk into the ballroom, his eyes following your every move. This time, you meet up in his family house, for whatever reason they decided to throw a party this time, probably raising funds for some weird animal that was hellbent on dying or whatever natural disaster had occurred. It has been around a month since that last party, the marks he had left on your skin had now almost faded, now being faint bruises that you can barely notice.
You can feel his gaze following you everywhere, and you guess it's only a matter of time until you will have to actually interact with him. It is an expectation as people of the high society, to act cordially even if you should hate each other, yet you don't plan on going down without a fight.
You have always been good at the cat and mouse game. Scurrying away between butlers, partners and mere attendees become the main activity of the night. You make it past midnight before you make the one mistake that costs you your streak. A sharp turn and its over.
You should have guessed that they would be here, after all, they were as important as any of you. Sons of successful entrepreneurs and diplomats, you had known them for years, first as sons of colleges of your father, then as Brian's friends. Through the years these roles changed, some appearing in your college classes, some dating your own royal blooded friends, but relationships were formed and there was no way of getting out of this one, even if you knew certain someone would definitely use it for his advantage.
Kamden and Jiho do look grateful to see you, the later having just arrived from a semester abroad (and probably more interested on the information he could get form you about his ex), while Kamden just was grateful to see someone who wouldn't try to pressure him to date his daughter.
Catching up with them was always a good time, as they had a repertoire of all the crazy stunts they had pulled at events like this during the years. But you know its just a matter of time before the inevitable happens.
A hand on your waist, squeezing slightly. His chest brushing on your back, the way he enters the conversation so normally and the way he effortlessly gets rid of his friends, as if telepathically telling them he wanted you all to himself. In just a few minutes, he had successfully whisked you away and gotten you all to himself.
"You have been ignoring me" he says as soon as he gets to turn you around, staring straight into your eyes. The way he had grown through the years, now towering over you, made you go slightly insane.
"I have been busy" you lie, even if not even yourself believed it. his face alone tells you he neither does.
"Busy doing what" he inquires, thumbs rubbing on the naked skin of you back with the sole purpose of make you fluster.
"Things" you try to sound convincing, as if you hadn't spent every waking moment replaying the way his lips felt on yours. You try to play his game, your fingers fidgeting with the collar of his dress shirt.
"Yeah, ignoring me" he mocks, a playful smile on his lips, the same ones you wanted to kiss oh so bad right now, even if you would never even tell him.
"I wasn't ignoring you!" you complain, pushing his chest playfully. "I just had to do some back to school shopping, i guess"
"Right, cause I'm sure you needed another bag" he teases..
"I did! and some new shoes. I needed to find a pair that matched the dress" you whine, partially lying. Sure, you did need some new shoes, but that wasn't the reason you didn't answer his texts. "your mother wouldn't forgive me if i showed up with mismatched shoes"
"What a crime that would be" he says, leaning even closer, his breath fanning against the shell of your ear "but I think this dress would look better on my bed, or on the floor next to it"
"Don't be so crass" you try to sound unaffected by his proposal, even if you were highly considering a rematch of last times game.
"That wasn't what you said last time"
"I was drunk"
"You weren't. I know you can handle your liquor, and I know how you act when drunk" dammit. he got you there.
"Ugh, it was a mistake" you groan, hiding your head on his shoulder, not wanting him to see your flustered state.
Brian decides to ignore that comment, even if it makes his heart pang. Hes preoccupied with tracing the curve of your back as if memorizing it. He knows how this will go, you will act all high and mighty, on how this shouldn't have happened, but at the end of the night you will find yourself in his arms once again, questioning how. But he is willing to let you until you realize that is your rightful place after all.
The morning feels off, the sunlight hitting your face too directly for your bed that doesn't face the window. Your mattress too soft and too hard, your pillow oddly muscular. Oh.
Oh.
How you had ended up in here now a real mystery, you didn't have the easiness of the balcony to have an easy justification for your actions.
Later you will find the texts, the calls, directions and code, even if you will never acknowledge the way it was you who texted first, even if Brian didn't show an ounce of resistance.
For once, you don't even try to get up, basking in the feeling of the sun on your skin, its not until you feel his burning stare that you realize your company had awakened.
"Morning" Brian croaks, throat dry.
"Good morning" you say, turning to fully look at him. You missed out on this the first time, his sleepy eyes and messy hair, a domesticity to it all that made you sick to your stomach, or more accurately, made you feel butterflies about it.
"Didn't run away this time"
"Had to stick around for the breakfast part of airbnb" you joke, earning a small chuckle form the boy, who props himself on his arms to look at you, naked chest now in display for you to say the arduous job you did last night, your cheeks heating up at the extent of your work, deep purple marks following his collarbones and down his chest.
"Don't get all shy on me now" he teases, his hand coming to caress what you assume are your matching marks.
"You are shameless" you say, covering yourself up with the sheets.
"That wasn't what you said last night, it was more like "you are so big", "harder"" he mocks, whiny voice and all.
"oh shut up" you defend yourself, smacking him with a pillow. He wasn't off with his imitation, you guessed, but you wouldn't tolerate such disrespect so early in the morning.
You decide its time to get up, throwing on the first thing you found (one of his band tees) before heading to the kitchen. If you were going to talk about whatever relationship you two had, you needed at least a little of caffeine in your system.
Brian lets his eyes follow your every move, taking in the way you act as if you lived here. It feels odd, seeing you in such a casual manner. He wouldn't mind doing it more often.
Things do not get discussed at breakfast, once again you two act as if nothing had happened, like this was the most common of the occurrences, yet you can feel Brian's eyes digging on the side of your face, as if making sure you were real, and there. You act as if you don't notice, preferring to ask about trivial things, like how his sister was doing and his moms plants.
You leave before lunch, having overstayed your welcome, you wrongly guess, since Brian would let you stay as long as you wanted. You take a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie, your dress way too luxurious for the uber drive you are about to make, your walk of shame already too scandalous for you to add a siren cut to it.
You were grateful at Brian for letting his place be the meeting point, your apartment way too crowded with your other roommate for you to bring a guy over, even less someone as known as him. The less they know the better, they say, but you could only hide it so much if you kept appearing well past the morning hours dressed in his clothes. Sure, they bought the idea of it being a random hookup, but you would need to be way more careful if you wanted to keep this going.
What were you even saying, this was a mistake to begin with.
Fridays were for the girls.
Ever since you had moved out your parents house, you had been rooming with Yizhuo, whose family, under your parents recommendation, had decided to ship her across the world to "further her education" and honestly she couldn't have been more grateful.
You liked her, but hadn't seen her enough for her to be the first choice when it came to rooming with someone, yet your parents were (very) adamant for you to be the guide and savior of this poor foreign girl. Now, you were grateful of having furthered your relationship with the girl, considering your bestest friend.
That all leads to tonight, another Friday night at your own place, deciding that staying in and ordering takeout was a better experience than venturing out in the rain.
"I talked with Kamden the other day" Yizhuo comments, mindlessly taking a sip of wine. You can feel her stare on you, as if waiting on your reaction.
"And? hows he doing?" you ask, more interested in finding a decent rom com on Netflix, which is a harder task than one would think.
"Fine, he told me something interesting tho" she says, your ears perking up at the comment "said you and Brian were awfully cozy during the last party."
Shit. now that was a reminder that you had left the boy on delivered a few hours ago, and maybe you should get to that later, the conversations now awkward. What do you tell her, do you accept it? do you tell her you slept over not once but twice? even played house while making breakfast?
"I told him there was no way, since you were seeing someone else" she adds, and the sigh you let out may have given you away on its own "you will have to tell me at some point who is the mystery man"
"I will get to it, I guess" you mumble, your heart racing out of your chest as you press play on the first movie you can find. That was a close one.
"We should be more careful" its the first thing you say to Brian. Well, that's after he basically devours your mouth against the wall once again the elevator, once again being a poor bystander to your crimes.
He hums, entertaining himself with trailing kisses down your neck. "I'm serious" you add, even if you make no effort to stop his ministrations. Hell, you even let your fingers tangle in his hair, pulling him impossible closer.
"Where is this coming from?"
"Kamden told Ning that we were too close last party"
"And?" he says, still not giving up. You wish he would stop just to let you gather your thoughts, the feeling of his lips on your skin barely let you form a word.
"They will get the wrong idea" you try to sound authoritarian, failing miserably.
"Or the right one, we are sleeping together" he says, matter of factly.
"No we aren't" the deadpan look he gives you makes you stifle a chuckle. "Okay, we are. but they don't need to know that"
"Then you need to stop looking so good at the galas"
"And wear what? a tunic and a habit?"
"Well yeah, for starters."
and with that joking answer, or at least you hope, the doors to his penthouse open. The conversation long forgotten as the race to get on his bed starts once again.
Another morning on Brian's apartment, another time you didn't make the scape. You could have, since the guy slept like a trunk, could have gotten dressed, in your own clothes, since for the first time there wasn't a fancy gala and alcohol in the middle, just a now shameful text of you up. You could have just ran away, but you didn't want to.
You chose to put on his shirt, you chose to start making the coffee and dissociate staring out the window. Why had you chosen to send that text to him out of all people a mystery, you had to lie to Yizhuo, well, was it a lie or just a half truth? you were seeing a guy, you just didn't specify who.
Your monologue gets cut off once you feel the now familiar warmth drape himself over you, mumbling a good morning as his face hides in your neck. Brian had never been a morning person, so you appreciate the effort of him getting up for you.
You hated how uni sometimes felt so close (spiritually) to high school, everyone moved withing their same circles and classes and sometimes, as the years went on and people dropped out, the circles became smaller smaller, the tea hitting closer to home. And if there was something worse than gossip, was rich peoples gossip. You could guess it could be worse than teenagers sometimes.
You find yourself in the bathroom, hoarding a stall in between classes while you waited for any of your friends to be done with them when you heard it.
"I heard he left with some girl the last galas" you hear one random girl tell her friend in a hushed manner, as if she was telling a confidential matter, not just some stupid gossip.
"Did you get invited?" the other one asked, as if it was the most unachievable thing and not a regular obligation to half of the population of the uni.
"As if? there's no way to just getting an invite to the He's galas, its a generational ordeal" shit. The last gala the hes held had been one you attended, and the one you left with him. Double shit if they where talking about him. Chances were they weren't, a bunch of your classmates did attend that party, so the odds should play in your favor. "My boyfriend told me he saw them enter his building, but he couldn't make out who the girl was" she informs her now way more invested friend.
"And what was your boyfriend doing there?"
"He lives there silly!" and with that they were gone, chatting about who this mystery girl might be, unaware that she was huddled in the stall behind them, suddenly scared for her life.
"You look like you have seen a ghost." Minjeong tells you, taking a sip of her overpriced under prepared matcha latte.
"I just heard gossip about me in the bathroom" you confess. You had met her during your first year of uni, and since then you had looked up to her as some kind of older sister, always coming to her when you needed advice.
"Real or fake gossip" she asks, going for the neck. She never was one to sugar coat things.
"It was real but they don't know it was me" you say, diving in your bag for a much needed cig. An espresso wasn't just gonna cut it.
"So then there's no gossip of you, as long as you don't own it, its false" she says, offering one of her own "And if it keeps coming back just say his dick was small and he was a bad fuck"
Sundays during the semester were strictly reserved to lunch with your family. It had been a thing ever since you had memory with the distinction that yours wasn't a family get together where everyone catches up and has a good time. it was more like a business meeting meets casual lunch at the club house.
You make honor to your title as the disappointment, perfectly managing to always join late and hangover. You had a personal vendetta against this kind of meet ups, defender of the idea that anything your mom had to inform you could be said over email and didn't need to drive one hour to the club house just to be told how disappointing you were, once again. And how much of a role model your brother is, to which you can only small and nod and roll your eyes as soon as she turns her attention towards the light of her eyes, whom also seems to be violently suffering this whole ordeal.
Around tea time you tend to be free, scurrying away to enjoy smoking with your brother as you walk around the park, now actually updating about whatever is going on in your lives.
Today was just like every Sunday; you did try, and failed to arrive on time, your mom had little to say beside a disproving stare. Lunch was good, but you were craving something more like a greasy burger than the smallest salad known to man. You make the mental point to stop at a drive thru on the way back.
"You should try to get someone in your life dear" your mother says, passive aggressively stirring her coffee. "you aren't getting any younger"
"Being under twenty five makes me plenty of young actually. Not like others" you say, earning a playful scolding from your brother.
"If you plan on being single for the rest of your life, sure sweetie. But the clock is ticking anyways" she says. "Besides there are many great matches available"
"Yeah sure" you laugh, not so kindly remembering the parade of finance bros nepo babies they had tried to play cupid with during the galas. More particularly you remember how Brian had mocked them from behind, before trying to whisk you away (and succeeding).
"Well there's always the Lee's son, he is allegedly engaged but that's something we can fix" she comments, and you don't know if its worse the home wrecking or the buying you a boyfriend "but you get along with the He guy just fine, you could ask him for a match" she adds as an afterthought, and you have to restrain yourself from rolling your eyes at the disgust with which she says his name.
There it was, you could feel the heat rising to your face, there was no way they out of all people knew, but just the mere comment made you wish the earth swallowed you.
"I don't know, ma. We are just friends, isn't it something weird to just ask for"
"Well see, you get along just fine! you can ask him to set you up, the Na's are also a good family and they have not one but two sons for you to choose from" she comments, completely disregarding your feelings once again, and the stare you throw your brother is enough for him to meddle in, changing the subject to the girl he's seeing.
Studying at the library was just as common as sleeping over at Brian's apartment by now, in the category of occurrence that happened way more often that you would like even if you tried to fight against it. The fact that was a comparison you could make made your stomach churn.
You really tried to go against it, yet something about skipping the eternal lectures just to hide between bookcases and spend hours revising materials and flipping through editorials made more sense in your opinion, being a more productive use of time. Sometimes your friends joined, sometimes you stayed alone, for hours on end your silhouette could be seen thru the glass panels, you don't know when he notices your little habit, or when he decides he should become a part of it, his presence now a constant. Brian had wormed his way into the routines, appearing with coffee, food or whatever you needed, it almost seemed like he could read your mind.
You didn't mind him joining. You did enjoy his company after all, even if you tried to make it seem like you barely tolerated him at times, you both knew the truth.
"How long have you been here" he asks, after the second time he refills your coffee cup, taking a trip to the stand outside the library.
"A few hours" you mumble, submerged in your essay. It wasn't a lie, just omission of information, if anyone cared.
"A few hours since lunch or a few hours since breakfast?" he asks again, this time his tone a little more accusatory.
"… since breakfast" you comment, still not daring to look up from the screen. The corner of your eye allowed you to see the annoyed stare he shot your way. "but I had some snacks in between"
"Okay, we are getting lunch" he says, starting to collect your own things that had scrambled all over the table by now.
"Let me just finish this paragraph" you object, to which you just receive his hand closing the laptop for you, much to your annoyance.
"You literally just said you still have a week to turn that in" he says, strategically pulling the computer away from you, saving it in its case "a week you wont be here for if you keep skipping meals."
"You are so dramatic" you say, narrowing your eyes at the guy while not even trying to fight it, letting him do the work for you. If he was gonna force you to leave your work in the middle the least he could do was help you pick up.
"you are so dramatic" he retorts, mocking the tone in your voice, that's enough for you to finally stand up, just to hit him on the shoulder at the insult.
You put on your jacket, before heading to the door of the study room. Brian makes use of the last minute of privacy, pressing his lips against yours. A fleeting thing, almost unnoticeable. You think that of you had blinked,you probably would have missed it
Its oddly more private that all the times you had basically devoured each other, more meaningful than all the mornings on his bed, yet way more ephemeral, fleeting.
Even less once the door opens, and you are back to square one, where you both act like you barely know each other.
"So, what are you doing this weekend" he asks, shoveling a piece of lettuce unto his mouth, courtesy of the cafeteria salad.
"I don't know, i owe the girl a hangout"
"Do you want to do something together" he questions, easygoing, light, normal. And you know how he means it. Not in a secrets lovers kind of way, scurrying away and defiling each other in private. But in a couple kind of way, who have lunch together and kiss each other in the library, and that thought scares you.
So you cough, trying to disguise the blush on your cheeks, and you come up with some excuse, owing the girls, whom you haven't really seen in a while, a vile lie since you live with one of them and the exams next week, not really making sense. He hums, and you like to believe he buys your excuses, you even say you can do something next weekend, just to add salt to his wounds, it seems.
"And I don't know, I just think he's taking this way more serious than I am" you say as you finish painting your nails, having used the opportunity to vent to Minjeong once again. You really needed to start paying her if you were going to keep using her as a psychiatrist.
"I don't get why you don't want more with this guy? he seems nice and you couldn't even give him the hour of the day if you didn't like him" she comments, and you hate how right she was. You did like him, and that was what scared you.
"I don't know, i just- i think its weird to, like, picture us together." you comment
"What? like hes a dealer?" she asks.
"God no! he is from a good family. I wouldn't steep that low." you defend your (and his) honor.
"He still can be a dealer, or one of those nepo babies with countless dui's" she half jokes, still trying to find out more about the mysterious man, probably mentally playing a guess who game of all the available bachelors of age.
"I don't know- I think I prefer the privacy" you say, between blowing your fresh nails "you know how everyone gets when one of us gets a partner"
Of us. An odd sense of belonging that most of the high class children, now not so child like had about the group. Most didn't actually like each other, forced to spend time in countless galas, charities and diverse events, competing for the same spots, just so many vacancies available for the amount of nepo babies. But between all of that animosity, a sense of understanding came, the constant pressure, the high standards, your name splayed across tabloids from the moment you could speak. Random accounts idolizing you, calling you an icon just to hate you next month, shit happens, in a level your working friends class wouldn't understand, the same way you don't understand their mundane problems. So that's were this alliance comes from, the need to have someone who understands you.
"You are right, besides if you think he wouldn't fit- you would be correct" she comments, no malice behind it, just a fact. and you wish you could correct her, about how he actually would match the high standards of your life, just because he already was there, smiling down at you in all the possible senses.
Overworking and overthinking is a lethal combo, you think. And what better way to fix that that getting wasted with your favorite girls and clubbing in the most exclusive parties. You never were one for healthy coping mechanisms after all.
It all starts from the pregame, barely eating just so you can almost start day drinking with how early the expensive drinks started appearing on the table. You are still discussing what you are going to wear, different dresses and tops and matching sets spawning on your bed.
An annoying ding, the different one, that you would never admit you had set for Brian of all people, decides to make itself known. You can barely contain the blush on your cheeks as Minjeong and Yizhuo throw teasing glances at you, eyebrows wiggling and all.
brian he: i miss you
Its a stupid text, you think. Its not the kind you send to your barely friends mostly benefits deal. Its the kind you send your boyfriend or girlfriend, not the girl you casually fuck, and that makes your blood boil.
So you decide to ignore it. You won't deal with this today, tonight, nor tomorrow. Maybe the next week if you feel like it. Which probably wont be anytime soon.
You try to ignore it, really, the ache in your chest and how your mind wanders to the same canadian boy over and over again. The story you post serves as a distraction, until his like makes his presence wonder once again to your mind.
"Problems in paradise?" Minjeong teases, when you huff at the phone screen for what must be the tenth time of the night.
"Something like that" you say, staring at the annoying emoji reaction he had sent before throwing the phone on the couch. You were too grown for this bullshit, anyway.
It was a good fucking night to be at the club. The DJ was good, the girls were having fun and the guys from the table next to you seemed like they couldn't stop sending you things. It was a shame, really, that the overpriced champagne bottles wouldn't really cause an impression on any of you, but they were cute enough for you to at least play the part.
And you should feel bad, dancing with them while your mind wandered off. Even worse when your mind wandered off to him. Brian. Who probably was home alone, or maybe he had company. Maybe it was the guys, maybe one of his siblings. Or maybe he could also be making good use of the night, spending it with another girl.
That thought made your blood boil. Who did you think you were to be getting mad at hypothetic girls that didn't exist fucking not your situationship even less your boyfriend. With what right?
To make it worse, you knew that he probably was playing call of duty in rotting his room. But that didn't stop your mind from running around.
And you tried to tell yourself that it meant nothing, talking with a guy sculpted by adonis himself just to want to call Brian of all people. That it wasn't a tell tale sign of you being falling for the guy you swore to not let yourself get caught with, the one you acted like you hated for years- yet here you were, missing him. So you allow yourself one slip, one mistake.
y/n: i miss you
come pick me up?
He finds you infuriating, really. Brian still couldn't understand why he still was so hung up over you, out of all the women in his life, the one he could barely tolerate while growing up was now haunting his dreams. It seemed like a bad joke.
He still remembered how annoying he found you at thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, all the teens, albeit he now questioned whether that was all misplaced anger, confusing desire for hated. He always had a soft spot of some sort for you, only intensifying when you suddenly hit it off past your legality. Sure you always hang out at galas, but it took both of you becoming actual adults and getting out of high school to consider being somewhat friends, even if you still only meet up at galas. You were one for tradition.
He doesn't know when all of that derailed into coming to pick you up form the club, where, for once in his life, he feels underdressed. He was in a zip up and sweats, having just rolled out of bed. A stark contrast to your heels and mini dress, the same one that drove him insane on your stories, not that he would tell you.
It didn't seem to matter to you, wasting no time from the moment that passenger door close to press your lips to his. You tasted like alcohol and the expensive cigarettes you liked, but felt like heaven. He has to really contain himself from just pulling over, the idea of someone catching you mid indecency in a public area haunting enough for him to drive all the way home, finding solace in his hand on your thigh, rubbing mindless circles over it.
"My house is closer" you comment in between the kisses you were pressing against his neck. It truly seemed like you were dead set on driving him insane tonight.
He doesn't know whats worse, the level of neediness you exude, result of either the amount of alcohol you consumed or maybe your interactions with other guys (idea he doesn't want to entertain), or the fact that for the first time since you started this arrangement, you actually invited him to your house.
From the first time in his penthouse, it always was his bed the witness to your meets ups. The agreement was his house since he lived alone, and you felt like it was better to not have one unwilling witness to your relationship who also wasn't particularly the best at keeping secrets. The less they know the better, right?
"Yizhuo is not coming back tonight" you add, biting his lobe. You always had a knack of seeing how far you can push it, "we have the house all to ourselves"
Now those were the magic words if you asked Brian.
You were playing with fire and you know it. Bringing him home already was a risky move, letting him stay over was simply stupid.
The light entering thru the window painted simple patterns on the naked expense of his back, tempting enough for you to trace it, feeling the muscle tense under your touch.
"g'morning" Brian mumbles, turning around as he finally awakes.
"morning handsome" you say, gently caressing through his bed head. "wanna stay over for breakfast?"
If falling for you was a foolish, starting to love you was plainly stupid, Brian thinks. yet he does nothing to try to stop the house of cards of tumbling down.
"Tell your little boy toy he left his shirt here," she says, entering the living room as she throws the piece of fabric at you. "balenciaga, he has good taste"
"Thanks, I know how to choose them" you comment trying to seem nonchalant. After what had happened, and the debauchery that your couch had witnessed, you might have forgotten to pick up the shirt, probably thrown around whenever it could land.
Yet something about it had bugged you way more than a stupid balenciaga shirt should. Since when were you the girl who brought guys over and made them breakfast? you weren't the one that looked forward for texts or signals of life from your partners, you don't chase, you attract, as Minjeong would say. And you followed that down to a t, so why now whit Brian of all people it was different all of the sudden? and why the idea of everyone knowing made your stomach twist in the worst way?
[him being like would it be so bad for them to know]
You had been ignoring him, and Brian knew it. Barely answering his texts, changing your usual routes in campus just to not see him, you even turned around after seeing him in the hallway, an empty one at that too.
Brian doesn't know what he did wrong, truly. He gave you all the space when you wanted, all the love when you needed it, yet it seemed like it would never be enough for you to fully trust him. You take one step forward and three back. Every small advance comes with its draw back and this time it feels to him like hes in the verge of being cut off.
And hes mad that he cares. You never tried to meet halfway. You are selfish by nature, self centered thru and through. You never cared how he felt besides pleasure.
With that train of thought, he comes across you where he least expected it, even if based in past meets he should have expected. Sitting in the library in the same spot where he had kissed you that one time, an odd memory if you asked him, slightly soured over his changing feelings on the subject.
You act friendly when he sits across you, acting as if nothing had happened. Light topics like when is the next gala that his parents host on having to go to the club house for lunch once again.
"So yeah,shes still on the getting me a boyfriend boat" you comment mindlessly about your mom, a character Brian knew not that much, something he was incredibly grateful for.
"Would it be that bad?" he asks before he can think of the consequences this question would have on your relationship. "For them to know you are dating someone, I mean"
He tries to play it as a hypothetical question, but you both know the truth behind those words. Hes asking why you haven't considered to date him, if you had done everything but that. how much can a mere title change? it's just a word after all.
But that word scares you shitless. Not only the word but the meaning behind it too. Behind close doors everything is easy, you can play house and act as if anything would be alright. the reality outside of those four walls, of the expectations your family and adjacent had on both of you would, in your mind, kill every little thing you two shared. You heard the comments his mom said about other girls, way too similar to you, and you knew your own family like the palm of your hand, literally. You knew how the blogs based on nepo babies and new riches acted when dating rumors started, how every little thing become a reason to be scrutinized.
And honestly, it just scares you how much you had come to rely on Brian after all this time, his presence now a constant that played a crucial role in your life.
So you answer a meek "I'm not looking to date right now" and hope that it doesn't come back to bite you in the ass.
You had screwed up, and you knew it. You knew that you and Brian never had the no-strings attached you two acted like you had. you were on a thin line when you kissed on the library and already falling when you invited him over, even if he screwed first when he picked you up, not that it mattered who was first when now you weren't on speaking terms. And to make matters worse, it was Sunday, which meant having lunch with your family once again.
You tried, truly, to have a good time. they were your family after all, and you wouldn't change them for the world, even if you threatened to. But the sigh you let out when your mother brought once again the topic of your love life made it clear you were, once again, over the situation.
"I just think you need some boy in your life. It gets lonely after some time." she comments when you ask the need to discuss your dating habits once again.
"I have friends, ma. I have the girls, my roomie, Brian" you list, trying to hide the way your throat threatens to close once the last name leaves your mouth, you regret it before you even finish saying it.
"Right, Brian. You should ask him to set you up with someone. We couldn't be a good pair with the He's, but the Choi's are a nice family" She starts one of her rants again, and you know you have at least fifteen minutes before she even acknowledges you as your own person amid her rant.
Across the table, your brother signals you to look at your phone.
bro: you are screwing him, arent you?
its written all over your face
And with that you leave the table to catch some air, not even bothering to hide the cigarette pack as you abandon your sit. At least, next time she will have something else to scold you over instead of your failed situationship.
Another charity event, another gala. You hadn't seen your brother, or anyone of that sphere, since that catastrophic dinner. Suddenly you had became hyper aware if every person you ever came across knew. Why hadn't they said anything ? or did they just not say anything to you?
You tried to get out of going, even inventing exams to see if your parents ever so cordially would let you skip. You acted as if you didn't have clothes to wear, only to receive a perfectly sized dress and matching heels with a threatening note on top of it. You even got a makeup artist sent to pull you out from your post situationship hell, making you look more than decent.
That's how you end up there, trailing awkwardly after your parents, your brother, whom should be playing your savior tonight nowhere to be seen, and him, across the place, acting as if you didn't exist. You never felt like crying like this.
You make excuses, going to hide behind the fancy food and beverages to see if you can get anyone to save you.
"Problems in paradise?" you hear a voice question from behind you. Kamden was standing there, nursing a champagne glass, looking just as in place as you did. "you don't look so good"
"Thanks, I tried' you half joke, greeting the older guy "and no, everything is fine"
"Considering I am actually seeing you and you are not hiding god knows where with Brian, its pretty obvious it's not." Obvious. How you started to hate that word and every sentence it was used.
"I don't know what you are talking about" you have always been a terrible liar, and this one was only reclaiming that throne for you.
"So it's just a coincidence Brian has been mopping around for the last weeks, and you just happen to look so miserable?" Had you been at any other place, you probably would have sent Kamden to hell and back, but the circumstances didn't help your case.
"Isn't life so strange?" you say, fake smile and all, and you can physically feel the way his eyes roll.
"What it's strange is why you are so scared of being with him"
"I don't know what you are talking about"
"I had actually came to cuss you out, because you were a bitch and broke my friends heart" he starts, "but I somehow care for you, and know you enough to see you are also hurting, so it would be really cool if you could get your act together and grow up, or you will live the rest of your life based on what others would think. The guy has adored the ground you walked on ever since he has had a memory, and you still cant see it."
You stare at the usually quiet guy shocked. You don't think you could recall a time where you had heard him say so many words, being left speechless at his sudden outburst.
"I think he already left" he informs you, stirring around his cup as he looks around "but I wouldn't let that stop me if you actually want a chance"
You don't think you had ever ran this much since you took the cooper test back in high school. Even that was easier that trying to go down the stairs in five inch heels. You really were cussing out your stylist once you finally make it outside, your ankles barely making it alive.
You see the valet guy, and you make the math on how long you would have to wait for your chauffeur to get here, them to find the keys, the car and finally leave. You needed to get there fast, so you opt for the unimaginable. A cab.
You tell the old man driving the address, and stare out of the window of the cigar smelling vehicle. Should you call him? whats the protocol for races against time to declare your feelings to the presuming love of your life? you didn't know, and you hope you don't have to go thru this again.
Before you know it, you are standing outside his apartment, after paying probably the most over priced taxi fee in the story of the city. It seemed irrelevant in this circumstances.
The elevator ride seems eternal, giving you time to rethink all of the times you were here before. Its an odd feeling, you realize, replaying every time you were here, kissing him, chatting, going to get the take out you had delivered for those times it was more about company than other things. You miss it all, you realize. even the moments where he makes you so mad you want to tear him apart. Because its with him you are, and you wouldn't change him for the world.
The elevator dings, and the door opens. You are standing in front of your last obstacle. His apartment door. and you know the code, but you don't know if its fitting to just open it, act as if nothing had happened. It doesn't feel right. So you do something you don't think you have ever done in this situation.
You ring the bell.
And wait.
You hear him cuss out, his steps getting closer, his voice asking who even is out there at this hour.
"It's me" is the only thing that you can think to say, would he even recognize your voice thru the door? does he even want to see you now? or ever?
You can feel the doubt on the other side of the door. Or maybe that's what you convince yourself to make you feel better about him not wanting to see you. You turn around, defeated, deciding to retire yourself. You never where one to stay where you weren't welcomed anyways.
The door opens, and you see him. His hair slightly disheveled, even if it holds a resemblance to his styled version from earlier. His shirt now all wrinkled,his tux and tie nowhere to be seen. His face is unreadable, and that makes you worry.
"What do you want" he asks, his tone more pungent than you ever can recall him speaking to you.
"You" and the sigh he lets out let you know you probably could have worded that a hundred times better " -wait! not like that, or yes. I don't know, can we just, talk?" you ramble, wanting to slap yourself from the pitiful performance you were giving.
Brian reluctantly agrees, letting you in. You cant help but think how similar this is to that first night.
"What do you want to talk about" he asks, even if both of you knew the answer to that question.
"Us" you say, and Brian thinks that might be the most honest answer he ever got out of you.
"There is no us" that answer kicks the air out of your lungs even if you knew he was right, technically.
"There is, and everyone knows" you say, and you can see how his face falls even more after your comment.
"Was that the problem? that everyone knows you were with me?" he asks, annoyed. "i think its best if you leave"
"Not that everyone knows, it's that it doesn't matter"
"You are annoyed cause no one cares if we fucked?" Brian reiterates, "I don't know why you thought it was a good idea to come here to tell me this. We shouldn't be seeing each other anymore"
"God you are so obstinate" you sigh, making Brian shoot you a questioning look. You nervously run your hands thru your hair before adding "I don't care if what they think. Cause i want to be with you. and whatever opinion they have its not important if they think this isn't right."
Brian looks at you dumbfounded. He doesn't know what you might have gone during this weeks you didn't talk for you to finally understand that, but hes thanking to the lords above and everything in between.
"So I don't know if you still want me. But I couldn't let you go without at least trying" You say, bunching up the absurdly long dress you had on, way too ridiculous for the situation, as you turn to head out. "I just hope we can still be friends"
"You are so infuriating" Brian says, breaking the awkward silence that had settled, walking towards you, almost in a predatory manner. "You have a way of pissing me off in all the right ways"
"It's a talent" you joke meekly, not really knowing where he was going with all this.
"And you make sure to use it" he says, pressing his lips to yours, finally after how long. and all you can think is just how much you missed this, missed him. His body against you, the way his lips felt, the sounds he made. And the fact that it was Brian whom you got to do this with. not some random at the club, not someone your mother picked. But someone who choose you as much as you choose them. And there is something satisfactory about that.
Once again, the sun shines across the room, and you are disoriented for a brief period of time. this aren't your sheets nor bed, and this is definitely not your pillow. yet you don't complain, cuddling towards the chest of the boy laying besides you. You missed this too, after all.
And he seems to agree, pulling you impossible closer, his arm resting across your naked back, enjoying tracing idle patterns on the skin.
"good morning" he mumbles, voice rough from his sleeping. You can see the traces of last night activities, reddened skin, bruised lips, placid look on his eyes, the afterglow if one will. you allow yourself to enjoy it, pressing a fleeting kiss to his lips.
"morning handsome" you say, getting even more comfortable on the naked expanse of his chest, as if trying to become one.
"Should we go have breakfast?"
"There's no hurry, we have all day" you say, hiding your face against his neck, as if you needed to convince him.
Those words replay on Brian's mind. we have all day. For the first time in your relationship, there wasn't a place for you to be, somewhere you were arriving late for, or his apartment being somewhere you couldn't be seen, cause you were his now, and there was no sense in hiding it anymore.
bonus:
Next Sunday, another lunch at the club house. Your mother was infuriated with you, disappearing from the last gala, even abandoning your car there, to go god knows where. You know how much of a bad impression that left in the guest and hosts? you always were such an insolent brat. Those were the texts you had the delight of reading to Brian the morning after, once you actually made it out of bed. He found them hilarious, obviously, and planted the idea of his first appearance as finally your boyfriend.
So here you are now, getting off his sleekest, blackest car in front of the same club you had hated since you had memory. He makes a show for it, enjoying the animosity his presence brings to your family lunch.
You finally make it at the table, arm in arm, selling the idea of way more maturity than someone who had spent yesterday watching cartoon reruns all day. You can see the face of your brother, the first one to see you, as he tries to suppress the laugh when he recognizes the gentleman besides you. Your father, always a chicken, decides to act as if hes above it all. Your mother doesn't have the same decency, face contorting in the funniest manner.
"hello, dear. Long time no see" She greets you, and you just know she doesn't mean it "and what do we owe the honor for your presence, He" the disdain to which he says your boyfriends last name makes you want to slap that customer attention ass smile right out of her face.
"i heard you were looking for a partner for your princess and decided I might be the fittest one for the role. Seems like she agreed anyway" he explains, making you laugh as he throws you a cheeky wink, pulling your chair out so you can sit. "besides, seems like your options were wildly miscalculated, since you know, pretty sure Na Kamden is gay" he adds, throwing a sad smile to your mother.
If you could replay a moment for the rest of your life, this probably would be the one.
𝜗ৎ 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 ⋆.˚ .ᐟ [fakeboyfriend!rival!brian x reader] ...୨ᢉ𐭩୧... wc. 9.3k w. agressive language, very suggestive! e2l, fluff ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
brian ho was considered a fairly lovable person.
he was nice enough, got good grades and was an overall decent person, according to everyone that had ever met him.
except you.
in your eyes, brian ho was nothing but a petty, rude, two-faced asshole that seemed unable to stop chasing you around to ruin everything you loved.
you had a new favorite coffee shop? that’s coincidentally his new favorite place to study!
you wore a white shirt to a party? surprise! his drink accidentally spilled on it.
you began having a crush on a guy from campus? don’t get your hopes up! they’re now the bestest of friends.
and it wasn’t like you had done anything to him, okay? you had met brian all the way back in middle school (before the bitch had followed you to college), when his family moved to your city and you were suddenly finding him absolutely everywhere you went, even at your house because your mom couldn’t help but socialize with the new neighbors.
you really did try to be friends with him at first, but instead of the shy, friendly guy everyone else saw in him, you were met with the rudest, most entitled boy that had ever stepped foot inside your house. and still, you gave him the benefit of the doubt, because maybe he had just had a rough time with the move.
if that was the case, that rough time had been going on for the last nine years.
“do we really have to go? brian is over there,” you groaned as your friend dragged you towards the group of boys by the beer pong table.
“dude, just ignore him,” chae answered, much too busy watching her boyfriend to even be annoyed by your childish dislike for the boy. “hey, baby,” she smiled as soon as euijoo’s hands wrapped around her torso, her hand immediately leaving yours.
you made a small gagging gesture and looked away, wanting to give them whatever privacy you could while being surrounded by so many people.
“don’t be bitter now, yn, it's not their fault no one wants you.”
the voice that pierced the air made your eyes roll instinctively, already feeling the hatred prickling your skin at the anticipation of the forthcoming interaction.
“no one is asking you to pay attention to me, you know,” you replied, looking up at him with an annoyed expression.
he stood there, sporting an all black outfit and the stupid smirk you had hated for almost half of your life.
“your cheap perfume doesn't let me think about anything else,” he smiled sarcastically.
“funny, because i actually got it from your mom last christmas.” you smiled back, enjoying the way his face fell for a fraction of a second. “i’ll let her know what you think though.”
your body filled with satisfaction as you watched him roll his eyes and look away. one thing about the two of you, having families that loved each other was either the best shield or the worst curse.
“i think your perfume smells pretty good,” kamden’s voice called for your attention as he leaned in to whisper in your ear, making your scowl be replaced by a flustered smile.
“good, it’s probably still on your sheets,” you retaliated, smiling at the small amused chuckle that escaped his lips. just as he opened his mouth to answer, he was rudely interrupted by none other than a very annoyed looking brian turning off the screen of his phone like he had done three times in the past minutes.
“kammy, wanna go get some drinks?”
the two friends connected their eyes for a couple seconds as if they were having a conversation through them, leading up to a sigh leaving kamden’s plum lips. “what are you drinking? i’ll bring you a refill.”
you smiled softly at the offer, feeling more satisfaction for how much it seemed to bother brian than anything else. “whatever you’re drinking is fine, kammy.”
if looks could kill, you’re sure that brian ho would’ve had you six feet under a long time ago.
it didn’t take them long to come back, the oldest handing you your drink with a smile. you watched brian open his mouth to make what was most likely another snarky remark when the door opened, the sight of whoever walked in making his words die in his mouth.
you couldn’t help but turn around curiously, a dry, astonished scoff falling off your lips the moment your eyes set on brian’s girlfriend holding hands with another guy.
you averted your gaze to him immediately, almost feeling bad by the way his face had fallen. the keyword being almost.
“oh, shit,” euijoo muttered from a couple feet away, voicing everyone’s thoughts.
“brian,” kamden spoke up, voice tentative but firm as his hand reached out to his friends, unsure of what his next actions would be.
“it’s fine,” the boy answered, moving away from the touch and turning around to face his back to whoever was looking for his reaction. “we broke up last night.”
but you knew damn well that was a lie, because you had seen him buying a huge pink teddy bear just that morning. you almost called him out, just for the sake of being a bitch like he was to you; but the sight of his lost eyes and the way his grip tightened around his cup advised you not to.
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days had passed since the party and by then, everyone and their mother’s had heard about the music major whose girlfriend cheated, even if the narrative of them having broken up the day prior was being pushed around by everyone that knew them.
you handn’t seen brian since then, which meant you were having a decent couple of days while he was focused on his own little scandal.
that was until a pile of notebooks was dumped on the table you were oh so diligently studying on, making your eyes raise until they met his.
“what the fuck? go get another table,” you urged, eyebrows furrowing as brian took a seat on the chair in front of you.
“aren’t you especially pissy today,” he rolled his eyes and leaned back on the chair.
“you have that effect on me,” you scoffed, kicking his spread legs under the table where he had monopolized the entire space.
“ouch, bitch,” he groaned, kicking you back but sitting a little straighter nonetheless.
“what do you want?” you asked with a small glare, taking back your rightful leg space while making sure not to touch him.
“i have a proposal for you,” he answered, an annoying little smile taking place on his annoyingly plump lips.
“no.” you smiled sarcastically and placed your headphones back in your ears, having the full intent to ignore him until he went away.
“stop being annoying,” he said exasperatedly, taking the headphones off and taking them hostage on his side of the table. “listen to what i have to say.”
“i’ve been doing that against my will for nine years,” you glared, leaning back on your own chair.
“so it won’t kill you to do it again,” he gave you a fake sweet smile, not waiting for your answer before speaking again. “be my fake girlfriend.”
his words made you choke on your own spit, eyes widening as you watched his serious expression. “excuse me?”
he rolled his eyes as if your reaction was the ridiculous part of that interaction. “be my fake girlfriend so everyone will stop fucking talking about me like i’m some idiot.”
“you are an idiot, though,” you answered without missing a beat.
“can you be serious for like a second?” he asked, now being his turn to glare at you.
“okay, sure,” you sighed, looking at him with a confused expression. “why the fuck would i do that?”
“for the pleasure of everyone thinking someone actually wants you, for once.”
you rolled your eyes like you always did when he was around, “fuck you, you’re so annoying.”
“it’s an offer you shouldn’t refuse,” he shrugged, sitting up from his slouching position and leaning forward on the table. “but i’ll give you another option, i can pay you.”
“oh, so now you think i'm a hooker?” you scoffed, having a hard time believing the words that were coming out of your mouth.
“oh my god, no,” he sighed exasperated, taking his hand to rub his eyes “ but you’re a broke college student that has no way to fly out to see her family on the break.”
well, he was right.
his family had always been better well off than yours, so it wasn’t uncommon for brian to get more chances to see them than you did.
and your youngest brother was turning sixteen in the middle of the holidays.
“why me?” you asked with a glare, not wanting to admit he had a point.
“you’re the only person i actually hate enough to be able to do this without complicating stuff,” he shrugged.
you thought over his words for a couple seconds, trying to find a way in which they didn’t make sense.
brian watched you with a smug smile on his face, basically being able to see the cogs turning inside your head.
“that… makes sense.” you mumbled, taking your hands up to rub your eyes annoyed.
“i can see you considering it, just give in,” he pushed, still wearing that cocky smile. “you’ll get your reward.”
“don’t talk to me like i’m a dog, asshole,” you glared, kicking him under the table again. you took the time he took to complain about your aggression to think about your options.
you really had no chance of seeing your family until the next break if you didn’t take him up on his offer.
with a loud sigh, you spoke up again. “i’m not paying for anything we do.”
brian perked up at that, smile widening.
“i’ll pay, but i’ll keep you on a tight leash.”
“again with the dog thing, is this a kink or something?” you asked annoyedly, causing him to roll his eyes.
“you just can’t help but be fucking annoying, can you?” he asked, exasperation laced to his voice.
“you’re the one asking me to be your girlfriend, you know,” you scoffed.
“fake girlfriend.” he clarified, making you let out a groan of annoyance.
“i don’t care, you’re trying to use me to get back at your ex,” you remarked, looking at him seriously. “who has always been a bitch, by the way.”
“don’t talk about her that way,” he defended, suddenly more serious than he had been that entire talk.
“my bad, i just thought you had gotten the hint when she cheated on you in front of a whole frat house full of people,” you lifted your hands up in surrender.
“she didn’t, we had broken up,” he muttered, his eyes travelling down to the table.
“was that before or after you gave her the pink teddy?” you dared, lifting your brow at him.
“fuck you,” he spat, looking up at him you with anger in his eyes.
“you wish,” you smiled sarcastically and stood up from where you sat, taking the last sip of your drink and gathering your things. “i’ll consider this as our first date, thanks for the coffee, honey.”
he gave you an unamused look, standing up as well. “you’re already taking too much advantage of this.”
“well, those big teddy bears are expensive, i’m sure one cup of coffee won’t dent your wallet,” you feigned a pout like you knew annoyed him.
“shut up and let's go,” he groaned, grabbing his own things. his eyes travelled to your free hand for a couple seconds, weighing his options before he let out a sigh and grabbed it, awkwardly hanging onto it. “i’m driving you home.”
“i would rather die, actually,” you spoke quickly, trying to pull your hand away until he gave it a firm squeeze.
“we’re treating this as our first official date though, aren’t we, princess?” your own words being turned against you made your blood boil, a million thoughts passing through your head before you sighed.
“i hate you,” you answered, moving your hand to intertwine your fingers. “more than i’ve ever hated anyone else.”
“then i hope you’re an incredible actress,” he gave you a sarcastic smile before moving you along with him, paying for your coffee and leading you to his car.
you got onto the passenger seat with an uncomfortable grimace on your face, immediately pulling your knees to your chest as he got inside of the car as well.
“don’t put your shoes on my seats,” brian said firmly, waiting until you reluctantly moved your feet before driving towards your apartment.
“it’s kinda stalkerish that you know my address,” you grumbled, breaking the silence that had been drowning you for a couple minutes.
“i’ve picked kamden up from here,” he scoffed, knuckles almost white as he gripped the wheel.
“ah, makes sense,” you nodded, a smile settling onto your lips at the mention of his friend.
“this arrangement means you can’t fuck him anymore, you know,” he warned, making your smile disappear in seconds.
“shit, i didn’t even think about that,” you groaned, genuinely distraught. “can we just tell him and i’ll keep it on the down low?”
“he knows,” he stated, short and straight to the point, “i asked him what he thought this morning and he knows you’re off limits.”
“off limits,” you repeated with a scoff. “what? do you own me now?”
brian acted as if he was deep in thought for a couple seconds, earning a slap on the arm before he spoke again. “i don’t, this is a mutual deal.”
“if i find out you fake cheat on me, i swear i will end you.” you stated, looking at him seriously so he would see you were not fucking around.
“i won't do that,” he rolled his eyes, “but you won’t either or you won't get paid.”
“you got rid of my fuck buddy, who do you think i’m going to fake cheat with?” you mirrored his gesture, already questioning why you had ever agreed to this ridiculous idea.
“you never know,” he shrugged as he parked in front of your driveway. “i’m picking you up in the morning for classes, so be ready at eight.”
you sighed, knowing nothing would make him back down from his decision. it was also kind of good considering you took the bus every morning.
“bye,” you said shortly, climbing out, slamming the door behind you and not looking back as you entered the building.
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the next morning, brian kept you waiting for fifteen minutes more than it was initially agreed. it was eight fifteen in the morning and you were already wishing you had never agreed to having to interact with him more than you already did.
you were about to call an uber when brian’s car rolled into the driveway, making your blood boil with how unfazed he looked sitting on the driver seat.
“you’re late,” you complained the moment you sat down in the car.
“and you’re ugly, nothing we can do about our flaws,” he shrugged, not even looking at you before he started driving.
“asshole,” you muttered under your breath, putting your feet above the seat again.
“put your feet down, jesus christ,” he grumbled, taking your ankles with his free hand and pushing them off of the seat.
“you’re so annoying,” you complained, simply not being able to contain how much annoyance filled your body every time he spoke or moved.
“shut up,” he snapped, his eyes still trained on the road. just before you could answer, he spoke again. “we need to agree on a backstory for this, by the way. we can’t be caught lacking.”
“sure,” you hummed, eyes moving towards the window to watch your city pass through it. “what is it?”
“i don’t know, i tried to come up with something and i just couldn’t think of any situation that could make me feel anything positive towards you.” he shrugged, once again making you roll your eyes. your mom used to say they would get stuck like that one day, but you really couldn’t help it whenever he was around.
“or maybe you’re just stupid, did that ever occur to you?” you scoffed. “it’s not that hard, we can just say we hooked up a couple times and you just couldn’t resist me.”
“you came up with that quick,” he hummed, an amused smile taking place on his lips. “how much have you been thinking about fucking me?”
you let out a dry laugh at his words, simply not believing his shamelessness. “you’re literally impossible,”
“you didn’t answer the question,” he pointed out, making you slap his arm again.
“it never even crossed my mind,” you glared, sitting back on your seat. “some of us are just actually capable of critical thinking.”
“i’m sure that’s the reason,” he nodded, his smile still not gone from his lips as he pulled into the college parking lot.
“shut up,” you got out of the car the moment you could, begrudgingly waiting for him as you leaned on the side of the car where his door was.
“don’t wanna,” he answered as he got out, throwing his bag over his shoulder. his eyes caught a sight of his ex getting out of her own car, making him let out a sigh. “oh shit, she’s right there.”
your eyes followed his, catching the way her eyebrows furrowed in confusion when she noticed you were there together. “then start acting, kid,” you urged.
brian really wanted to listen, to put on his part and make her feel even half as bad as she had made him, but he was frozen. his eyes couldn’t be teared away from her until you let out an exasperated groan and took your hand to the collar of his hoodie, pulling him close enough that his attention was caught by you again.
“no one is going to believe you if you freeze when she’s around,” you said, hand still fisting the fabric.
“shut the fuck up,” he mumbled before he suddenly leaned down to press his lips against yours. you let out a small surprised gasp before kissing him back, your grip not loosening as he pushed harder, trapping you between the car and his body and kissing you like he needed it to survive.
your entire body blared with alarms and bright colored lights. you were kissing brian. out of everyone, brian.
and the worst part is that he wasn’t half bad at it.
he broke the kiss off a couple seconds after, taking a breath before moving further away from your face. “is she gone?”
your eyes darted where his ex formerly stood, now an empty spot. “yes, get away from me.” you said as you pushed him away, taking a larger distance now. “that was gross.”
“fucking disgusting,” he nodded without looking at you, setting path towards the building you both had your shared classes in.
did you already mention he also copied your major?
weird looks were exchanged by certain people in the room as they watched you and brian walk into the room together. it wasn’t that you were particularly popular individuals, but the hatred you had very loudly voiced ever since your first year had built up quite the reputation between you.
you begrudgingly sat next to him, pulling out your materials as you ignored the way your best friend and her boyfriend desperately tried to get your attention from the other side of the room.
the class passed by without any special events, and it was finally time to bid each other goodbye and go to the next class. you could see him hesitate on what to do because of the weight of your friends’ eyes.
“uhm, bye,” you waved shortly, lips pursing awkwardly.
“bye, bye,” he muttered, looking to the side where euijoo and his girlfriend pretended to be occupied saying bye to each other just to stare at you.
brian leaned in to leave an awkward peck on your lips, both of your bodies as stiff as they ever could be.
it had been so different in the morning, and your cheeks were burning with embarrassment as you cringed at the entire situation. he waved once again and turned around, which you took as your signal to leave and walk away alone.
however, your peace didn’t last long after because of your friend’s voice piercing through the silence in a scream of your name.
“wanna tell me what the fuck that was?” she asked with furrowed eyebrows.
“brian drove me here, that's it,” you shrugged, feeling the guilt of lying to her already churning on your stomach.
“oh, so you just kissed him as a thank you,” she scoffed as if it was obvious before looking serious again. “last time i checked you would rather shoot yourself than spend time with him, so what’s going on?” she pressed, grabbing your arm to make you look at her.
the moment your eyes connected, you fumbled immediately. if kamden knew, there shouldn’t be an issue with you saying something too, right?
“we’re fake dating each other,” you blurted out, watching as her eyebrows furrowed even more.
“what?”
“he asked me to, because he doesn’t want people talking about his ex,” you sighed, honestly a little surprised that you had folded that fast. “and he told me he would fly me out to my family this break, so i accepted.”
you could see the way the cogs turned inside of her head, as if she was trying to assimilate the information you had just given her. “that’s ridiculous.”
“yep, you don’t have to tell me,” you let out a loud sigh, rubbing your eyes.
“what are you going to do if this goes south?” she asked, now a little more nervous than confused.
“kill myself,” you shrugged, earning a slap on your shoulder and a small laugh. “i’m kidding, i have no idea.” you chuckled, “i think i just have to hope for the best and deal with a couple weeks of spending time with brian.” you gagged, causing her to laugh again.
“he’s friends with ej and kamden so he’s not that bad,” she tried as you got to your class. “he’s also hot.”
“compared to a sewer rat,” you scoffed, finding a seat for both of you and settling your things there.
“sure, whatever you say,” she rolled her eyes just as the teacher came in.
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“let me get this straight. you two have hated each other for nine years and now you’re suddenly healed and dating because you fucked it out?” intak asked as he pointed between brian and you.
“things happen, man. we’ve been over this too many times this week,” brian shrugged, popping a fry into his mouth. you tried so hard to conceal your reaction and not show any type of annoyance at his attempt to be nonchalant.
“it’s really not that hard to understand, tak… have you ever had sex with someone you hated?” you asked, reaching over to take some fries from brian’s plate and watching he glared at you when no one was looking. being his fake girlfriend had perks, and one of them was annoying him a little extra without the consequences.
“no, but now i’m going to have to try,” intak scoffed, cleaning his hands once he finished eating. “if the pussy was so good that it got rid of nine years of hatred then it’s probably worth it.”
you choked on your food at his joke, reaching for the glass of water kamden wordlessly handed you while brian leaned in to smack the back of your friend’s head.
“don’t talk about her like that, asshole,” he defended, obviously lightheartedly as he continued eating.
you smiled and stuck your tongue out to intak as he whined, finding the situation way too amusing.
“i’m just saying,” he threw his hands up in surrender, “but like, you hang out like a normal couple and all?”
the real answer is that you didn’t. your interactions were strictly restricted to when you were in public and whenever he drove you, but you obviously couldn’t say that.
“of course,” you answered, now being the one trying to act nonchalant.
“and you both make it out alive?” he asked again, making you let out a little chuckle. it really was a valid question.
“very much so,” you nodded again, stiffening just slightly when brian’s arm surrounded your shoulders casually.
“she’s actually coming over today, right, princess?” he asked, squeezing your shoulders as he looked at you.
well, you guessed now you were.
“yeah, unfortunately,” you smiled and kissed his cheek to hide the truth in your words, ignoring how much you wanted to gag at the action.
beautifully in time, intak did it for you.
“am i really going to your house?” you asked as you and brian walked to his car, your face shrugging into a grimace at the thought.
“yeah, i think we need to post something,” he sighed, visibly annoyed. “we can’t let people realize we only see each other here.”
you let out a twin sigh, knowing he was right even though you hated the thought of having to indulge in him for longer. “i hate it here.”
“you won’t hate it as much when you’re at your brother’s birthday party,” he reminded, both surprising you with his lack of annoyance and reminding you exactly why you were doing this.
“will you be there?” you asked, laying your forehead on your knees as you had placed your feet on the seat.
“most likely, i wanted to see him anyway,” he shrugged, reminding you that you were the only member of your family he didn’t like.
“then i will still hate it,” you smiled ciniically, making him roll his eyes while he reached to push your legs off again.
his apartment was way more neat than you thought it would be. everything seemed to be clean and organized, opposing what you would’ve assumed from the boy.
“you can leave your stuff there, i’m going to take a shower,” he pointed at the couch in the living room, tossing his keys on the table. “feel free to do whatever you want as long as you don’t touch anything or remind me you’re here.”
you rolled your eyes at his words, nonetheless moving to the couch. “asshole.” if he heard you, he ignored it as he closed the bathroom door. you were doing some homework on your computer when he got out, shirtless and with his hair dripping, “would it kill you to wear some clothes?”
“yes, actually. considering this is my apartment,” he answered without looking at you, hanging his towel on a chair before throwing his body onto the opposing end of the couch.
as much as you wanted to argue, you knew he was eight.
“so, we should take pictures so you can be on your way,” he urged, making you roll your eyes again before shutting your computer.
“what are we supposed to do?” you asked with a scowl, raising an eyebrow as he patted the couch closer to him. “what?”
“firstly, you need to be closer, for once,” he sighed, waiting until you obeyed to continue speaking again. “now, take a cute picture and post it so i can repost it.”
you let out a dry laugh and grabbed your phone, wanting to get the situation over with. “it’ll be hard for the picture to be cute if you’re in it.”
“shut up,” he rolled his eyes and hooked his arm around your waist, making you grow closer to him and lay your head on his chest. “take the picture.”
you let out a sigh and pointed the camera towards you, putting on your best smile and taking the picture when he leaned down to nuzzle his nose to your hair. the action made your heart skip a beat.
out of annoyance, of course.
once you were content with how they turned out, you moved away from him again.
“i'll post them now, which song do you like?” you muttered, trying to hide the uncomfortable feeling on your chest as you scrolled through the songs.
“whichever you want,” he shrugged, squirming around the couch until he got comfortable again.
“very helpful, thanks,” you mumbled, selecting a song and tagging him before setting your phone down. “and now what?”
“i’ll drive you home when the movie is over,” he said, grabbing the remote control and turning the tv on without even looking your way.
“and why am i staying for the movie?” you asked, annoyance laced in your voice.
“because half our friends have our locations and its suspicious as fuck if you post a picture and then leave,” he said as if it was obvious.
“yeah, because they’re checking our locations.” you rolled your eyes and settled against the arm of the couch. “you’re just lazy.”
“whatever.”
the first time you hung out alone with brian while being in a fake relationship, there was an approximate of 150 words were spoken, and 99.9% of them had some sort of insulting connotation.
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ever since that first time, it had become a known fact in your friend group that thursdays and mondays had been the designated days in which you and brian would retreat together to one of your apartments or to have a date outside. it was honestly awful, because being at such close proximity with him alone was a guarantee to you going absolutely insane. which was now clearly proven by the way that just two months after, you didn’t even mind it that much.
“dude, can you just fucking stop with the pen tapping?” you asked exasperatedly as you put your own pen down on the table, eyes travelling up to the where brian incessantly tapped his against the table. you really tried to ignore the way your eyes did a quick once over, staring at his messy hair for a second too long.
“sorry, princess, i didn’t know you don’t have the ability to tune things out,” he rolled his eyes, not looking up to you while he kept tapping.
“i wish i did so i wouldn’t have to listen to you talk all the fucking time.” you retaliated, snatching his pen away from him, earning a confused look that looked too adorable to be worn by such an asshole.
“you’re such a child,” he mumbled, looking for another pen and resuming his work on his assignment. minutes passed until the silence was broken again. “intak asked me why he has never seen us kiss.”
his words caught your attention immediately, making you look up at him with a confused look, “and?”
“i said we’re just not too affectionate in public,” he shrugged, his eyes still focused on the paper ahead of him.
“you forgot the part about me being repulsed by the thought,” you annoyed, making him sigh and look up with an annoyed smile on his face. “and that i have ptsd from the last time.”
“sure, let’s say that,” he scoffed, cringing a little at the reminder of the awkwardness of your second kiss. “although it was awful, i have to admit.”
still, the memory also came with the feeling of how soft your lips were and how much your lip balm tasted like strawberry.
“we looked like we were made of wood, it was downright embarrassing,” you grimaced, furrowing your nose and eliciting a soft chuckle from his lips. he had been noticing that you did that a lot. “even worse because it was you.”
“we have to work through that if we want this to last until the break,” he commented, his eyes going back to his paper as he ignored the last sentence. “no one believes a couple that doesn’t kiss.”
“sure, and what are we going to do? practice?” you sarcastically asked, mocking his way of thinking and dismissing it as a joke. your words caused a spark to light up brian’s brain, and he suddenly felt much more devious than he had before. the silence that followed made you look up at him incredulously, finding him already looking at you. “you’re not being serious.”
to be completely honest, brian didn’t think he had been that serious in his entire life.
“well, i was promised top notch acting,” he began, a smirk starting to take place on his lips, “and that won’t be possible unless you stop freezing every time i touch you.”
“you’re unbelievable,” you scoffed, finding his shamelessnes astonishing. “like, actually fucking insane.”
“you know, if you could just stop cursing me out for a second, i could show you a much more fun and productive use for that big mouth of yours.” he said, nonchalantly.
your eyes widened as butterflies uncharacteristically erupted in your stomach.
“oh, you’re such a pig,” you groaned, grabbing one of the crumpled paper balls by your side and throwing it at him.
“like you haven’t kissed me before,” he laughed as he ducked, going back into his sitting position to look at you with a small smirk.
“i did and it was awful, that's the whole point,” you glared, pushing the thought of your first kiss far away inside your brain.
“the first time wasn’t.” and oh, there it was again.
“and yet only one person saw that. we clearly can’t perform under pressure.” you pushed, really trying to not let yourself even consider taking up his offer.
“i’m just saying, those things are learnt with practice,” he shrugged, sounding way too amused by your words.
“careful there, i might think you want to kiss me,” you bugged, clearly looking to annoy him. however, his unwavering smirk confused you.
“i mean, it has been a while…” he mumbled, looking at his surroundings in hopes of not sounding too eager.
“you’re actually serious about this?” you deadpanned, genuinely confused about this whole ordeal.
“i’m just saying, it will make our relationship more believable.” he put both hands up, playing the innocent role even when his smirk couldn’t be any more noticeable. he could see you cracking.
“how would we even go about that?” you asked, your voice now a little lower.
aha.
“it’s just kissing, yn, not like we need a set up,” he annoyed, trying his hardest to contain his smile and failing miserably.
“well, aren’t you a romantic,” you rolled your eyes, recoiling into your seat as he watched the tips of your ears light up.
“i can be if that’s what will make you do your job better,” he commented, thoroughly enjoying how embarrassed you looked.
he watched you look at your hands for a couple seconds, playing with one of your rings before you abruptly stood up and grabbed his wrist, making him stand up and dragging him to the couch wordlessly.
“i will only try this once,”
brian innerly cheered as he gave you a small nod, now guiding you to sit on the couch before doing the same next to you.
“hmh, sure,” he nodded, taking some of your hair away from your face as his eyes zeroed on your lips.
“and i’m imagining someone else so i don’t throw up,” you said again, a nervous tinge in your voice.
“sure, princess, whatever works,” he mumbled, far too immersed in seeing the nervousness he was making you feel to even acknowledge how annoying it was that you still had snarky comments to say. “tell me if you want me to stop.”
those were the last words muttered before his lips clashed with yours, starting off slow as he felt your body immediately tense up. he stayed still for a little, giving you time to adjust to the feeling of his lips. just as he was going to retract, your lips moved on top of his tentatively, enough to make him go back for more. the kiss started soft, slow as if you were trying to familiarize yourself with how it felt to kiss him.
that was what the practice was for, anyways.
brian was trying really hard to give you the time you needed, but when your teeth sank lightly into his bottom lip, he really couldn’t take it anymore. his hand travelled to your jaw, angling your head just like he wanted so he could press harder and deepen the kiss. surprisingly, it didn’t take much for you to kiss him back with the same intensity, your hand travelling to his chest as nipped at your bottom lip to ask for access for his tongue.
your entire body was panicking as you felt the wet muscle play with your own. the tongue that was now in your mouth belonged to the person you hated the most, and you had really never imagined that it could feel that good to kiss him.
his hand moved down your neck to your shoulder, pushing you back slowly until your back hit the mattress and his body hovered above you. his fingers made goosebumps arise on your skin as they travelled down to your waist, taking a hold of it and pressing your torso against his own. you really did try to suppress the whine that escaped you.
but the world hated you, and brian did so even more.
“still imagining someone else, princess?” he asked against your lips, hand tightening around your waist slightly.
his words made you roll your eyes. “do you know kamden by any chance?”
and just then, brian remembered that he hated you more than he had ever hated a person. even if kamden was beginning to be a close second.
“shut the fuck up,” he grumbled, not doing anything to hide his annoyance.
“make me.” you smirked, and that just got him to press a deep kiss against your lips once again, adamant to make you remember who you were practicing for.
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after that day, things started to go downhill. lines began to be blurred in the name of making your scheme more believable, hickies made your friends give you questioning looks, reasons started to feel a little unneeded for the actions between you, and worse of all, everything you did was now what both of you described as your new normal. even the word fake had been dissipating from your vocabulary as the months went on.
you still hated each other, though.
“that’s what you're wearing to a party? really?” brian asked as you climbed into his car, looking at you with fake disgust.
“kill yourself,” you gave him a sarcastic smile, hugging your knees to your chest as the soles of your shoes laid against the new seat cover adorning brian’s passenger seat.
“oh, but then who would drive you places?” he teased as he began driving, making you let out a scoff.
“the holy spirit,” you mumbled and turned to the window where the sight of the city illuminated the dark night.
“there is nothing holy about you,” he pointed out, and there was absolutely no reason for that to sound as erotic as it had. “you’re literally the devil incarnate.” there he was.
“i know you are, but what am i?” you defended, making him roll his eyes at your childish behaviour.
the rest of the drive was silent, only differing the moment you opened the door and looked around. “that’s a lot of people.”
“no one important,” he shrugged, casually throwing his arm around your shoulders as he walked into the booming party, “let’s go get drinks first, yeah?”
“i’m going to find chae, i have the jacket she wanted,” you let him know, “get me something though, please.”
“nah, get it yourself,” he said as he flicked your forehead and walked away. you didn’t know at which point you started knowing he would get you one anyways.
you found your friend along with a couple others and situated yourself on the couch with them, rapidly immersed by the conversation. the topic you were discussing swallowed your attention enough to distract you from the fact that brian never did end up giving you your drink.
at the end of the day it was still him, so you excused yourself to go get your own.
what you didn’t expect was to find him by the bar, nursing what you assumed was initially your cup while he was engrossed in a conversation with none other than his ex.
she was shamelessly flirting with him, and from the looks of it, he was not showing opposition. your blood began boiling inside of you as you entered the kitchen nonetheless, moving to make yourself something to drink without interrupting them. to say you were feeling disappointed was an understatement, because you really were falling into the trap of believing he had forgotten about the reasons as well.
“oh, yn, hi there,” the squeaky voice of the girl called out. “i didn’t know you were here.”
you turned around to face them, watching her fake smile for a few seconds before looking at brian. he wore a borderline bored expression on his face, showing no sign of noticing anything wrong with the way he was just interacting with her.
“well, we did get here together,” you answered, your smile not reaching your eyes as you watched her suppress the need to roll hers.
“oh, brian didn’t say anything about that,” she spoke, her fake smile still shining.
your eyes travelled to the man, giving him a questioning look before he shrugged. “didn’t come up.”
didn’t come up your ass.
“yeah, we were just reminiscing, you know, about our past together.” she gave you a dramatic pout before moving towards him and settling so close to him that she could easily be wrapping her arms against his torso.
he didn’t move a muscle.
oh, okay.
that’s what he was playing at.
thankfully, his game didn’t have limited players.
“oh, well, have fun!” you smiled, raising your cup at them. “i’ll go reminisce too.”
you missed the way brian’s eyebrows furrowed as you left the room, your eyes zeroing on your target as you walked up to the group.
“oh, yn, hi,” kamden smiled from his seat, “what’s up?”
“nothing much, kammy,” you smiled, also greeting the rest of the guys before referring back to him. “can i talk to you for a minute?”
he stood up without question, letting you guide him to a more secluded area before asking what it was all about.
“brian is being a bitch and i want to be a bitch back,” you explained shamelessly, grateful that he actually knew what was going on.
“what is he doing?” he asked, a tint of amusement in his voice.
“being all buddy buddy with his ex,” you replied with annoyance, almost rolling your eyes.
“and that bothers you because…?” by the way he smiled, you could just tell where he was going.
“because everyone thinks we’re dating and i refused to be humiliated, much less by her,” you excused, eyes going to the kitchen to see if you would catch anything.
“and this has nothing to do with you being jealous?” he suggested, making you look at him as if you had been personally offended.
“don’t be ridiculous, i still hate him,” you scolded, making him retract. your eyes caught sight of brian going out of the kitchen, his ex behind him like a leach as he scanned the room.
you moved your gaze towards kamden again. “sorry for using you this way, but i need you to look more or less like you want to devour me right now.”
a small chuckle fell off of kamden’s lips. “don’t worry, i have some experience with that one.”
you didn’t even have to fake how flustered he was already making you feel.
it was wrong, though. because even when you had the guy you had drooled for for so long talking to you, you knew things were different. because both of you could see a brian shaped sign on each other’s foreheads.
“hi there, what’s this?” speaking of the king of rome.
brian walked up to the conversation with an unamused expression, arms crossed on his chest. he was livid, clearly. he had counted with many things about the party, had overthought everything about the way you both had been acting with each other lately. but his best friend flirting with you was not part of any of those worries even though it apparently should have been.
“nothing, just reminiscing of our past together,” you smiled cynically.
“oh really?” the tallest guy raised his eyebrows, eyes travelling to his friend. “is that so?”
kamden threw his hands up in surrender before walking away.
traitor.
“the fuck do you have to reminisce about?” he asked once the older boy was out of earshot, now seeming more upset than before.
“many things,” you assured, giving him a tight lipped smile.
“can i know what those things are?” as you looked at him you knew it was an order, not a question.
but since when did you answer to him?
“no, bye,” you waved and turned around, ready to leave him there when he took hold of your wrist, pulling you back to him.
even when the movement was harsh, his hold was still gentle enough not to hurt.
“where do you think you’re going?” he questioned, still holding on.
“to find my friends, don’t you have to go find your ex somewhere?” you snapped, yanking your wrist away from his hand.
“that’s what this whole thing is about? you’re jealous.” he let out a dry laugh, looking as if he couldn’t believe it.
“oh god, you wish,” you scoffed, moving away from him. “i’m not the jealous one between us.”
“and you think i am?” he asked, so visibly annoyed that it was beginning to make you mad as well.
“i’m sure you aren’t, but i’m gonna go find kammy and ask him.”
and that seemed to do it for him. his hand took yours as he began to wordlessly guide you through the crowd, gunning for the door.
“what the fuck are you doing?” you asked, letting him walk with you while you tried to figure out what would happen next.
“we’re leaving.” he spoke, finally getting to the door and pushing it open.
“i’m not leaving, we just got here,” you protested once you were out of the house, stopping in your tracks.
brian turned back to face you, giving you one last look before grabbing your jaw and smashing your lips together. you couldn’t react for a few seconds as your mind screamed at you to stop him and go back inside, to not let him in.
but your body thought differently, clearly. your hands balled up his shirt as you let him pull you closer to him, finally kissing back.
brian groaned into the kiss when he noticed your response, only separating to duck down and throw you over his shoulder in an action that took you completely by surprise.
“what the-? brian, put me down!” you exclaimed as you tapped his back and moved your legs, only halting a couple meters away when he finally put you back onto the ground.
he didn’t give you time to question him before your lips were smashed together again, his arms moving to trap you against the cold metal of what you now recognized as his car. your hands moved up to circle his neck and bring him closer to you, far too immersed in what it was to kiss him to even think of the fact that you weren’t supposed to be enjoying it.
brian took his time to explore your mouth, his right hand sneaking to your waist so that he could feel the exposed skin on his palm as he pressed closer to you. however, you both needed air to continue breathing, unfortunately. and yet, brian wasn’t one to waste time. he moved to open the door of his car and climb in, moving his seat as far back as it went and situating himself. you looked at him a little confused until he spoke again.
“your ride is here, princess,”
and god, how you hated the smug smile he sported. good thing you could replace it with your own lips.
you climbed onto his lap without any more questioning, closing the door behind you and immediately joining your lips together again. his hands found their ways to your hips as he pressed you closer, mouth moving desperately against yours. your hands tangled in his hair, tugging at it slightly when he made a particularly good move. his lips left your mouth to let you breath as they began ghosting over the skin of your neck.
“god, i hate you,” you mumbled as your eyes fluttered closed again, tilting your head to give him more access there.
“good to know, pretty,” he laughed softly, lapping at your skin with his tongue and making your entire body shiver.
“i’m being serious, brian,” you scolded, at least as well as you could when your brain was fuzzy from the way his hands travelled down to cup your ass.
“i am too,” he chuckled, gently nipping at the skin where it would definitely bruise. “i know you hate me, especially when you’re jealous.”
“i’m not jealous!” you exclaimed, hitting his arm lightly without any intent of actually admitting it.
“sure, and what was that whole show inside?” he asked with an amused smile, looking up from the crook of your shoulder.
“fuck you,” you glared, not having any means to clarify anything else that could put your pride in danger.
“will you let me?” he asked softly, giving you a mocking smile.
god, since when had he become the prettiest sight on the planet?
“there’s no practice this time,” you warmed, really trying to hide the way the tip of your ears went red.
“stopped needing that long ago, it’s time for show and tell,” he smiled before kissing you again, his hands pushing down on you enough to create friction that ripped a small whine out of your lips, falling directly into his.
if making out with you had changed him, having angry sex in his car had formed an entire new trajectory for his life.
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“morning, princess,” you heard a voice mumble as you stirred awake. you rubbed your eyes before opening them, finding the face of none other than brian ho.
“morning,” you greeted, stretching your body on the bed like a cat before settling back onto the mattress you recognized as brian’s bed. “what on earth am i doing here?”
the boy chuckled as his hand travelled to the side of your face, caressing slowly as he looked straight into your eyes. “you were pretty spent last night so we agreed to sleep here.”
you nodded as images of the night before flooded your memories, making your body shiver and your thighs press together. “spent from what? it wasn’t that great.” you teased, just enough for him to take his hand to your thigh and give it a long squeeze.
“sure, you were crying and babbling for nothing.” his words made your cheeks flare up at the mention of your previous state.
“shut the fuck up,” you complained, grabbing a pillow and smashing his face on it.
he let out a small laugh and took the pillow away, growing closer to your face. “make me.”
and so you did just as he told you, joining your lips together as if you needed them like the air to breath. minutes passed between kisses and light touches until you were once again laying between the mattress and brian’s weirdly large body while his lips worked magic on your neck.
even with how fuzzy your brain was, there was something that you couldn’t make peace with. something too real and too present to ignore even when your fear screamed at you to just shut up, enjoy, and deal with the consequences of your own actions later.
“brian?” you called out between sighs, making him hum in response as he continued marking your neck. “i still hate you.”
you could feel him laugh against your skin, leaving another kiss before muttering a small, “i know, i hate you too.”
those were words that had been exchanged entirely too many times between you, yet they still felt different.
“we have to talk about this,” you pushed, setting your hands on his chest and pushing him back enough so that you could see his face.
“we have a lot of things to talk about,” he said, moving down to steal a quick, soft peck on your lips, different from any other kisses you had shared until then. “but just one of them is worth mentioning right now.”
“what is it?” you asked, not being able to contain the need to press him closer and steal more kisses from him as you enjoyed the pretty view of him on top of your body.
“this,” he mumbled, kissing you deeply once more and pulling at your bottom lip with his teeth. “is mine.”
your body shivered at the sound.
“this,” he repeated the process, this time kissing your forehead more gently. “is also mine,” he assured, now nuzzling your noses together and closing his eyes. “no more fake claims, no more flirting with other people. this is us, and it’s really fucking real.”
his words flooded your senses as you finally realized what was happening. you were right all along, with the thought of him moving right by your side, forgetting all about the stupid rumors and his dumbass ex while he grew accustomed to having you next to him, hatred and all.
“good to know,” you smiled brightly up at him, pulling him closer to stamp your lips together in another kiss.
time continued to pass while you explored each other again, simply basking in the knowledge of how real everything was.
“wait, am i still flying out during break?” you asked, sitting up from your position laying on his chest.
“god, you’re so greedy,” he teased, also sitting up enough for his eyes to be at the same level as yours. “but yes, you are. i mean, you even convinced me, so if that’s not a good job i don’t know what is.”
relief washed through your body at the answer, making you lean down to peck his forehead with a smile.
“i do have one condition, though,” he spoke again, his eyes fluttering open as his big hand traced patterns on the skin of your thigh.
“what is it?” you asked softly, your eyes travelling around his face as if you wanted to commit his features to memory.
“i get to re-introduce you to my family as my girlfriend,” he smiled, although you could see the tinge of nervousness that flashed through his eyes.
“oh, and i’m the greedy one?” you chuckled with a small laugh, pushing his chest back so you could go back to your previous position. “i guess i’ll have to make that effort and tolerate you for a couple more years.”
brian let out a laugh and sat back up abruptly, letting your body fall on the bed before his hands attacked your sides with tickles that didn’t stop until you called him the best boyfriend in the world.
one based in hate and lies sounds like the worst relationship someone could ever have. but that wasn’t your case at all. lies and hate have to learn and evolve into truths and love as a test of resilience. when they’re proven to have effectively made that transition, they bloom like the prettiest of flowers.
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genre fluff , established relationship , college au , brian x fem!reader cw some dialogue alluding to sex , brian is shirtless , he calls reader sexy once , not proofread wc 902 request yes note first brian fic lets gooo net @kstrucknet @andearnet
Brian had been so confident that his roommates wouldn’t be home until Sunday afternoon. He swore to you up and down that they were never early to anything in their life, and definitely wouldn’t get back from their road trip until the day after next. You were worried about the idea. You’d only been dating for a few months, and you’d still never met his friends. They knew of your existence, of course, but from what you heard about them from Brian, they were loud and a bit messy— what you would expect from college boys.
You had a school trip you would need to leave for Sunday morning, and given that it was already Friday night by the time Brian was suggesting you sleep over at his place, it really was your last chance to spend any time with him. Normally you would never consider something so risky, especially when you had never even met his roommates. There was a no visitor policy for student housing; not that anyone in the male housing followed that too strictly.
You had weighed the chances of it all on the drive back, and you were going to say no, until Brian had kissed you so sweetly and your resolve completely shattered. It was so easy to get swept up staring at his pretty eyes or admiring the swoop of his nose or the plush of his lips. All sane thoughts practically went out the window, except for the inkling hope that you wouldn’t regret it in the morning.
It was quiet when you woke up— a good sign. Brian was still sleeping next to you, one arm slung around your waist, and him shirtless. You had thrown on one of his shirts as your pyjamas the night before due to being so unprepared. You took a moment to enjoy the peacefulness of it all.
Brian’s bed was extremely comfortable, and the blanket was perfectly warm against your bare legs. Not to mention the scent of his cologne that clung to his sheets, giving you just enough of a whiff to feel like the blanket wrapped around you was his arms. His room wasn’t stuffy either, which pleasantly surprised you. You would never regularly bet on the dorm of 4 junior college boys to be particularly clean, but you would take what you could get.
But then you heard it. The distinct and indisputable sound of the front door opening. You tensed up slightly, glancing at your phone. Geez it was almost 10AM.
You listened closely, hoping that somehow it wasn’t what you thought it was. You were so not prepared to meet your boyfriend’s friends like this. Your heart sank as you heard voices. There was no doubt that his roommates had arrived back home a day early, and your plan to have the house to yourself had been ruined just like that.
“Hyung, who’s shoes are these? Never seen them before.”
You heard one of the guys speak, his voice gentle.
“I don’t know. Probably just forgot one of us owned a pair like that.”
The voices seemed to shift, becoming a little quieter as they got further away from Brian’s bedroom. You tried to ignore the pit in your stomach as you turned to your still sleeping boyfriend, nudging his arm with as little panic as possible.
“Mmm… morning, baby,” he mumbled, eyes closed as he pulled you closer.
“Brian, I think your roommates are back,” you whispered with some dread.
“Hm?” he blinked one eye open, staring at you as if to really check if he had heard you right.
“Your roommates. They just came home.” The panic in your voice was rising. Brian sat up, seemingly wide awake now. He raked a hand through his hair, attempting to tame the bedhead he had woken up with.
“It’s okay. You were gonna meet them eventually. Let’s just go say hi, explain the situation— that it’s definitely not what it looks like— and then everything will be fine.”
“I can’t go out there dressed like this— in your clothes!” you whisper-shouted. Your boyfriend blinked, as if he had never considered that before.
“It’s okay. You look sexy like that,” he stated, a smile growing on his face.
“Brian.”
“Okay, I’m sorry. I can try to sneak you out, but it probably won’t work. Jiho always notices everything,” he sighed, grabbing a random shirt from his dresser to throw on.
“This is not how I wanted to meet your friends,” you groaned, head in your hands. “I wanted to make a good impression. Instead they’re gonna see me come out of your room, in your clothes, and fill in the rest.”
“Y/n, you’re overthinking this. They’ve already heard so many great things about you. So what if you stayed the night? It’s not like we did anything.”
“They don’t know that! How are you planning to convince them that this situation really is completely innocent?”
Brian sighed. “I’ll figure something out.”
You hoped he meant what he said, but you could tell he was unsure himself by the nervous expression on his face. As your voices had naturally raised through conversation from the whispered tone you had started out with, you hadn’t considered the fact that his roommates would be able to hear your conversation through the thin walls, or that they were already prepared to tease Brian about all of it.
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