Lets Talk About Jasper. I am Australian. For all y'all Muricans that may happen upon this text and decide to read beyond this point, this, in regards to Steven Universe, means that I get new episodes a day later than the date on the box. I get Monday's episode on Tuesday, because of timezones. I met Jasper during Double English on a Friday, which means I had a hundred whole minutes to ruminate on twenty of the most turmoilistic minutes in my entire life. Smack dab in the middle of my worst overall depression periods, it was rare for me to feel anything very strongly. Steven Universe brought me joy and excitement where my life was filled with fear and sadness and repressed anger. When Jasper first appeared on screen I was visibly shocked. The whole short time I could see her, I was gaping in horror and anxiety. Silently, but horrified nonetheless. No-one in my class noticed, but in retrospect, I wasn't making as much of a deal of it as I could have been. I think back now and realise I was satisfied with Jasper. The show needed an antagonist; I didn't know about Homeworld, Peridot genuinely came off as harmless to me - mostly because I knew Steven would try to befriend her, but also because she was becoming more of a meme than a threat - and monster-of-the-weeks would only hold the show over for so long. Lapis surrendered to her, and I felt for Lapis, because, at that point, Malachite was only implied to be formed willingly by Lapis because she wanted a surefire way to keep Jasper at bay. Just like I had come to really feel for Pearl at that point in the show; it was because they both showed a loyalty to someone they loved, and that loyalty drove them to sacrifice. It is, even now, a few years on, something I share with both of them. Jasper, as Malachite, was out of sight for a while, and thus, I didn't think about her all that much. I thought about Lapis, though; I was worried for her, and I wanted her to be safe again. While Jasper was off-screen, her body gained a following. And I do mean just her body. Users like Jen-iii and Brideake, they just flocked; mostly because Jasper prospectively had abs. There was a tiny amount of "what could be" art, but lets face it; it was the exception rather than the rule. (I love Jen and Brid and I'm not out for blood I just want to point out why I don't agree with them. Also I hope they don't hate me.) This bothered me for a few reasons, but largely because I saw nothing in Jasper worth all that attention. In my other fandoms, and especially in real life with my actual social group, I tend to gravitate toward people with life problems, because I want to do everything I can to help them. I am friends with some people who don't have problems, but they aren't nearly as numerous, unfortunately. Take Homestuck, for example. There's a character in it called Cronus Ampora. He only shows up for fifteen minutes, at best, and everyone seems to hate him. He's one of those people that flirts with everyone and ends up coming off as a jerk. Looking harder at his canon behaviour, I saw that it went deeper than that - he was lonely. He was literally stuck with the same eleven people for millions of years in a time-space-stasis bubble, and they were all sick of him. He's my favourite character, mostly because I like writing about him. He has a bad personality, but he's a good character to work with. I tend to divide personalities into two categories: 97% of people, who are worth love and attention, and though some of them may be assholes, I still care about their well being because they are people and most people deserve to be happy, and the 3% of people that cannot be saved and do not deserve mercy, like serial murderers and many politicians. In Super Watermelon Island, Jasper slides into a crack in the earth. We thought she maybe was cracked, some hardcore Jasper fans were worried, a lot of people made jokes about Sugar and her ability to toy with us, etc. And I didn't even consider that she'd be back so soon. But then "Alone at Sea" aired. I gained new understanding of both characters - Lapis and Jasper. I was informed that Lapis was actually out to hurt Jasper, and that she was in the wrong. I forgave her instantly, because I understood her, and I love her a lot, but mostly because she expressly wanted to get better, to not be in the wrong anymore. She was willing to amend what she did. And Jasper? I was conflicted. Here was someone that I had been comfortable disliking. Someone I "hated" in the appropriate manner, as she was an antagonist. And she was damaged. Mentally, I mean. She's addicted to Malachite. And this made me want to extend sympathy, to help her - but then she went at Steven and I abandoned that inclination. And yesterday with Gem Hunt, Jasper returned. She was still aggressive; still an antagonist. So, I was at an impasse; on the one hand, Steven Universe tries to tell us that reforming villains is better than defeating them, and she is clearly in need of help - but on the other, she is still the most antagonist-like element to the story, and she still seems to show no remorse. So I'm holding my judgement. I refuse to make my mind up about Jasper until we see enough of her for me to hate her properly - or respect her.