fyolai celebrating their anniversary
I love this idea sm. Thank you for your request anon! I hope you like the drabble.
TWs: Extremly slight Fyodor-typical religious imagery I think? If you read the manga/watched the manga you know how he speaks often. If that counts as a trigger warning. It's all very fluffy though.
They are probably a bit ooc. It's fully sfw too btw.
I also apologize for any grammar or spelling mistakes. English isn't my first language.
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Fyodor and Nikolai don't really "celebrate" their anniversary with going out or with big presents. They celebrate it in a more quiet way but also in a really loving and intimate way.
Their anniversary is in winter. Nikolai confessed his feelings a few years ago in a cold winter night after a horrible nightmare which was the result of going to sleep after a terrible day which ended with an argument between Fyodor and him
He went to Fyodor's room after the nightmare. He wasn't even sure why he did it but he ended up confessing his feelings for his childhood friend
The confession was messy and emotional due to Nikolais' struggles with his ideology and even though Fyodor was well aware of the others feelings, he was internally a big emotional mess too during and after the confession since was was completely unprepared for having to face his own emotions so suddenly and for being confronted with so many emotions in general.
Nikolai wanted to excuse himself after realizing what he just did and tried to leave the room but Fyodor demanded him to stay and surprisingly they've sorted it out that very night and actually got into a relationship
They expected the relationship to be a bit messy at first but surprisingly they worked together extremely well, most likely due to the fact that they have known each other since they were children and know each other thoroughly.
By now they are in a relationship for a few years already
On the morning of their anniversary, Nikolai let Fyodor sleep in while he got up to prepare a breakfast for them
After that, he went to their bedroom again, lied down next to Fyodor again and gently woke him up
After Fyodor stirred awake, a small but warm smile appeared on his face
He sleepily wished Nikolai a good morning and also wished him a happy anniversary making the other grin happily before wishing the russian a happy anniversary as well as a good morning too
Fyodor hummed happily and scooted a bit closer, wrapping his arms around Nikolai and pressing his face against the others chest
Moments like this, made Nikolai feel all warm and fuzzy inside, because they reminded him how much Fyodor trusted him, how much progress they've made in the last years and that Fyodor felt comfortable enough to show his vulnerable side around him as well as that he felt comfortable enough to touch Nikolai
Nikolai returned the hug happily, pulling the other even closer and burying his face in Fyodors' hair
After lying curled up together like this for quite some time, not saying anything and only enjoying each others' presence, Nikolai told his partner that he made breakfast for them downstairs and that they had to get up now or else the bread rolls would get cold again
While Fyodor was happy about the breakfast, he was no fan of the thought of getting up and getting exposed to the cold.
It was warm and comfortable in their bed and having such a quiet and calm moment where it was only the two of them and where they could cuddle was rare so when Nikolai got up, Fyodor scrunched his brows together, burying his face once more in his pillow before getting up too.
Nikolai stood next to their bed, waiting patiently for his boyfriend to get up
As soon as Fyodor was up, he hugged him tightly and the other returned the hug
They stood like this for a moment, neither of them saying anything but both knowing exactly what the other felt, before they pulled away
Nikolai then handed Fyodor his wool vest, knowing how much his partner hated the cold and they went downstairs
The breakfast was cozy and calm. They chatted while eating and both drank the coffee which Nikolai freshly brewed. There was no stress and no hectic like usual. Usually Fyodor would quickly greet Nikolai good morning, give him a quick kiss, grabbed something to eat and a cup of coffee before hurrying back into his office but not today
After the breakfast, Fyodor proposed to take a walk, knowing how much Nikolai hated to stay in the same place for a whole day and Nikolai instantly agreed so after they both got dressed up they went out for a walk
It was cold outside and a thick layer of white snow which shimmered slightly in the winter morning sun covered everything
Their walk was long. They strolled along the streets, holding hands, Nikolai talking about whatever came to his mind and Fyodor listened to him, occasionally nodding or humming in agreement while a warm smile never disappeared from his lips which made Nikolai incredibly happy
It was rare to see his dear friend being happy and at ease like that for such a long time already and it made him feel utterly happy
Fyodor was happy too at the sight of his boyfriend chattering so freely with him. There was no faked overly cheerful facade. It was just Nikolai being cheerful and feeling happy and comfortable.
They kept their hands linked together for the whole walk, occasionally caressing the back of the others hand with their thumb
After they arrived at home again, Nikolai made tea while Fyodor changed into more comfortable clothes
While waiting for the tea to steep, Nikolai changed into more comfortable clothes too before going back to the kitchen where Fyodor was sitting on the kitchen table, reading
Nikolai loved how domestic everything felt.
The two tea cups with tiny rats which wore christmas hats on it, stood next to each other on the counter board filled with sweet steaming hot tea, the snow was falling outside of their window, the fire in the fireplace made cracking noises and his Fedya, his gift from god, who he loved so dearly that it made his heart ache sometimes, sat on the kitchen table, wearing comfy warm clothes, reading a book, looking less worn out than usually, having his guard nearly fully down and when Nikolai entered the kitchen, he lifted his head, looking at him and with a small but soft smile.
The whole situation made Nikolais' heart feel all warm.
If someone had told Nikolai about this a few years ago he wouldn't have believed them at all.
After he looked at the timer to see how long the tea still had to steep and after he saw that there was still plenty of time left, he made his way over to Fyodor and bowed in front of him, holding out his hand and asked him if he could have this dance
They did this since they were only teens living on the streets in the ukraine
Nikolai would often bow in front of Fedya, asking him to dance with him and Fyodor never once declined. Even when he was still deep in denial about his feelings towards the other, he always danced with him and enjoyed it greatly
This time too, Fyodor carefully put his hand in Nikolais', telling him that it would be a pleasure to dance with him so Nikolai beamed with joy and pulled Fyodor on his feet.
While doing so he was still careful with him, not dragging him on his feet too quickly, keeping his condition in mind.
Before they started dancing, Fyodor asked Nikolai about the music.
Normally they always had some music playing in the background while they danced. Even back then as teens, they turned on their pocket radio which Nikolai shoplifted.
Nikolai cheerfully replied that they could just imagine the music but then he got another idea, telling Fyodor to wait a second before he ran upstairs to get his phone
After he entered the kitchen again, Fyodor looked at him with an amused smile and raised a brow
Nikolai quickly typed something on his phone, before putting it down on the counterboad and going to Fyodor again, taking one of his hands in his and putting his other hand on Fyodors' waist
Merely a second later, the song to which they always danced when they were younger started playing.
It was the first song to which they ever danced and since then they kept dancing to it. Whenever they would do so, the world around them seemed to stop existing for a while together with all the problems and struggles. Those were always the most carefree moments. It was just them then and the music then. This was their song.
Upon hearing the song, Fyodor turned his head quickly to look at the phone, eyes widened a bit before looking back at Nikolai
Nikolai just smiled sheepishly, asking him if he still knew the song to which Fyodor replied with cradling the others face with one hand, pulling him close and kissing him.
It was a short but soft kiss full of affection and love without any trace of lust or sexual intend.
Nikolai genuinely felt like he was going to explode from happiness. They didn't kiss that often and it was even rarer that Fyodor was the one who kissed him first. They usually hugged, held hands and were verbally affectionate. Nikolai would also often kiss Fyodor's hand, his forehead or his neck. Everything wasn't any less affectionate than a kiss to them but a kiss on the lips was still something special.
After they seperated again, Nikolai hid his face in the crook of Fyodor's neck, smiling widely with a faint blush on his cheeks and he felt the tips of his ears heat up too
Fyodor just chuckled and gently put his free hand on Nikolai's shoulder, asking him teasingly if they could start dancing now which they did then
Just like back then, it was like the world would just dissappear around them. It was just them and the music
They were dancing around in the kitchen and eventually Fyodor carefully laid his head down against Nikolai's shoulder, letting himself fully relax and close his eyes, his thoughts at ease for once
Both of them completely forgot the time and where so lost in the music and their embrace that they got startled when the timer for the tea went off
Nikolai quickly turned off the timer before turning to Fyodor, bowing deep in front of him and thanking him for the wonderful dance
Fyodor smiled, thanking him for the dance too
After flashing Fyodor one more smile, Nikolai got the tea bags out of the cups and handed the russian his cup before they went to the living room where they sat down on the couch
After they chatted for a while and after their tea cups were empty, Fyodor laid down on his back against the armlean of the couch
A moment later, Nikolai laid down on top of him, wrapping his arms around the others' waist and laid his head against the chest of the other, listening to the steady heartbeat of the other. It always calmed him a lot
Fyodor on the other hand started to roam through Nikolai's messy white locks with one hand, playing carefully with his hair
Eventually Nikolai changed his position a bit, looked up to Fyodor and told him how happy he is that they met, that he's with him and how much he loved him
He also told him that he could never imagine loving any other person as much as he loved him and that he will stay by his side, walking this world with him until the end, calling him his dearest friend as well as Fedya.
Fyodor listened to him with a soft gaze and after Nikolai finished his speech, he told Nikolai that he was the one who showed him that he was still capable of feeling human emotions, that he loved him more than he could ever put in words, that he was glad that they met back on the streets, that he never met such a interesting person before and that he was thankful that god send him Nikolai
Nikolai then leaned closer, kissing his Fedya once more before mumbling a quiet "I love you" while they were still only inces apart and Fyodor actually replied an equally quiet "I love you too Kolya"
He then wished the a happy anniversary again calling him darling
Nikolai wished his boyfriend a happy anniversary again too
The rest of the evening they stayed on the couch in the same position, cuddling and watching game shows since both actually enjoyed game shows
Nikolai would always burst out laughing when something stupid happened or when someone fell during a challenge and Fyodor would comment on how stupid those candidates where
They went to bed late at night after both nearly dozed off on the couch multiple times but after they've lied down, Nikolai suddenly shot up again, nearly yelling that he forgot something and he quickly got up,running downstairs leaving Fyodor in bed pretty puzzled
He returned to their bedroom just a quickly as he left but now he held a little neatly wrapped up present in in his hands which he carefully gave to Fyodor while he smiling sheepishly, telling his boyfriend that he had buyed something for him for their anniversary
Now it was Fyodor who told Nikolai to wait a second before he hectically looked through his nightstand until he found the little present he was looking for
It turned out that both completely forgot that they got anniversary presents for each other
Nikolai was practically vibrating with excitement when he unwrapped Fyodors' present and when he saw what it was, he tackle hugged Fyodor thanking him over and over again
Fyodor got him a very detailed small silver dove brooch. A tiny shining gem reassembled the visible eye of the dove.
Nikolai clipped the brooch directly onto his pyjama top, refusing to take it off for now. Later he put it on his black and white vest which he always wore.
Then, Fyodor unwrapped his gift. It was a beautiful, fragile but also expensive looking silver bracelet with tiny violet gems.
Fyodor looked at it in awe, appreciating it's beauty and it's detail before hugging Nikolai, thanking him happily
He put it on his wrist with the help of Nikolai right after they hugged and since then he'd always wear it.
He would rarley ever take it off. Not even while showering, bathing or while working with the rats. He then just kept it hidden under his sleeve the whole time to avoid any annyoning questions.
After they exchanged presents, thanked each other, put on Fyodor's new bracelet, after Nikolai put his new brooch on his vest and after they admired their presents for a while, it was already way past midnight and since Nikolai was getting sleepy they finally went to bed
Fyodor was, like always, still wide awake despite it being late at night but for once he didn't dissappear into the living room or his office and he also didn't started to read like usually.
He was lying on his back, Nikolai had one arm wrapped around him and he was unconsciously playing with the latters hair while staring at the ceiling.
Both of them felt all warm and happy (as happy and warm as Fyodor could feel).
They maybe didn't went out to a fancy restaurant and they didn't open a bottle of expensive wine for their anniversary like they did last year but they didn't really needed it anyways.
The calm way in which they celebrated their anniversary was exactly what they needed. A day only for them without any troubles or issues where they could be gentle and loving with each other and where they could things together which both of them liked but for which they rarley had time
After Nikolai already was half asleep, Fyodor hugged Nikolai, burying his face in the messy locks of the other and quietly thanked him for the wonderful anniversary as well as for being with him in general, calling him "my love"
To his surprise, Nikolai actually still heard him so when Nikolai mumbled a thank you for the amazing anniversary too and sleepily told him that he loved him, Fyodor stifled a laugh after being chaught off guard at first.
He then told him that he loved him too
Shortly afterwards Nikolai was fully asleep, snoring lightly while keeping Fyodor in a dead grip
Since there was no chance to get up to get a book to read anyways, Fyodor stayed like this, cuddling with Nikolai and watching the snow outside while thinking about the day as well as about everything they've already went through together until he also started to doze off too, the light snoring and the warmth of Nikolai calming him and keeping his mind at ease
While falling asleep he had one thing on his mind. On their next anniversary he would propose to Nikolai. That's for sure.
