#bts reflection

[dreamaze]

     hyung line x ∞

[cupidyg]

MAP OF HEART : self-love.

a walkthrough behind the lyrics of self loving.

my #WordsByBangtan monthly event entry.

the shape of heart: self love isn’t linear. we first go downwards into the pit of ourselves, going through thoughts and hatred, taking wrong paths to realize which one we are to deserve, an epiphany that shapes us to love and accept ourselves; until the arrival, the answer.

the first stage of our heart shape is the first bending downwards to observe the depths of ourselves, the reflection namjoon speaks about that can be caught by looking down on the Han River, whenever he gets absorbed in his own being. we meet who is the us to reach the loving of.

the second stage is the first trial of choosing a path that turns out to be wrong, the fake loving. in their words, we can recognize the act of looking back at that reflection, unable to recognize the own being as fake self love, is an erasure of self, neglecting to be perfect.

the stage is at the bottom of the pit of self discovering, turning point when the right path of self loving is taken. as jin sings, the mask of the “fake love” fell, we are the one we should love, with imperfections, perfections unnoticed to adapt to a surreal perfection.

the rising point is the true shape of love that shapes us into loving beings. as namjoon outlines, love that is true and love that comprehends the human, accepts the nature, approaching and embraces its sharpness to mild, gently rough them until turning into beings of love.

the last stage, we have reached our answer. loving ourselves means also to love when we weren't able to rightfully, when we got the wrong loving, when we have visited the wrong paths, not to conform to fake beauty but to find in our own being the reasons, the true self love.

the voyage is completed, the shape of heart has been rounded and has taken place. it might be repeating itself, it might be a constant cycle of rewriting the same path loving shaped.

if you're interested in reading the entire analysis, here is the link:

archiveofourown.org/works/29676483

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all the translations have been taken from doolsetbangtan.wordpress.com

[poshtae]

[becomewings]

Timelines: 30 August Year 22 (Diary)

“The red diary lay between us like a traffic light.

… I became more frightened the more I tried to be someone else. Wouldn’t my real self be discovered? Wouldn’t she be disappointed and leave me? I frantically hid myself and turned my head away from myself.

… I know now. That the insufficient me who makes mistakes and fails is indeed a part of myself. That no matter how cruel and merciless things are, only by being true to myself can I take the next step forward. I stood up from my spot and she didn’t try to grab me.

I went out to the street and took off my hat. As I swept my hair back, all the time I had spent trying so hard to be someone else seemed to slip through my fingers. I lifted my head and locked eyes with the me reflected in the window. A frail face, pale lips, thin shoulders. I looked endlessly shabby. I laughed. The me in the window laughed too.”

— SeokJin, 30 August Year 22. The Notes: Answer. Translation cr. @origamifirefly tw.

Gif 4 (SeokJin, 30 August Year 22; The Notes: Tear) and gif 6 (SeokJin, 30 August Year 22; The Notes: Answer) translation cr. @origamifirefly tw. All other captions from The Notes 1: SeokJin, 30 August Year 22 (#2).

Commentary below the cut. CW: contains mention of blood

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It’s been a long time since my last posts in the Timelines series (May 22, to be precise)! While August 30 is the latest entry of all the Notes published to date, references have been made to events later in September that trigger more time loops. I doubt this will be the end of the series—and I am also certain that I will be revising and reissuing posts for earlier key dates, including this one, as more information is revealed. My goal with these Timelines posts is to trace SeokJin’s specific efforts to manipulate events and to highlight these changes within the different versions of each date’s texts.

There are currently 4 entries for SeokJin on August 30: one from Tear, one from Answer, and two from The Notes 1. The version from Answer, excerpted above, is apparently the “repaired” timeline: rather than intending to confess his love to the girl that night at the fireworks display, he confesses that everything he has done for her was taken from the diary she lost. On the other hand, the entries from Tear and Notes 1 seem to present (an) earlier version(s). The uncertain parentheses are brought to you by the fact that, while they seem to describe the same unfolding of events—the girl being struck in the road as SeokJin looks on with the smeraldo bouquet—the texts are slightly different.

Both the Tear and the second August 30 entry from Notes 1 include the quote captioned in gif 3. The full quote (sourced from Notes 1): “The bouquet of Smeraldo flowers fell from my hand. She was lying in the middle of the road. Blood began to spread out from underneath her tousled hair. Dark red blood flowed down the road.” But the following lines are different. Gif 4’s caption is from Tear: “I thought. If only I could turn back time.” Gif 5’s caption is from Notes 1: “With a loud pop, the first set of fireworks burst into the air on the night sky in the distance. Somewhere, I heard a mirror crack.”

“I thought. If only I could turn back time.” To me, this is a fascinating turn of phrase. We are most likely assuming, at this point, that SeokJin has already time travelled. In the Save Me webtoon, it certainly appears that he begins returning to April 11 much earlier in order to save his friends. But what if that wasn’t the case? What if his thought wasn’t a reflex but a sign that he had not yet been sent back in time? There is plenty of evidence in other entries that the number of loops SeokJin has tried and failed is affecting both his character and his memory. Still, I’m only tentatively posing this as a possibility because the ambiguity of the Tear version’s placement in the overall timeline of the narrative is further complicated by its first paragraph (also not present in Notes 1):

“Can anyone remember the moment they fell in love? Can anyone predict the moment their love will end? What could be the reason that humans don’t have the ability to recognize those moments? And why was I given the power to return [restore] all of those things?”

— SeokJin, 30 August Year 22. The Notes: Tear. Translation cr. @origamifirefly tw.

Therefore, it seems possible that the Tear entry, as a whole, is written from two different perspectives: a SeokJin who is aware of his time traveling and a SeokJin who has yet to embark on that journey. But like much of the Notes, it is really up to interpretation. What do you think? Please come yell at me in my inbox if you have thoughts to share!

Note: I unfortunately do not know Korean and do not own either the Korean Notes 1 or Notes from the album (with the exception of MotS:7), so I rely on the official English translation of Notes 1 and fan translations of the album Notes (I do my best to compare multiple versions of the latter). Any mistakes in misunderstanding the differences between the text are my own. Particularly in this instance, I recognize the possibility that some of the variations in the August 30 texts occur between the translations of Notes 1, rather than between the Tear and Notes 1 entries. If you have the Korean Notes 1, I would LOVE to hear how similar its August 30 entry is to its English counterpart, especially in regard to the fireworks/mirror cracking line that seems most different from the final line in the Tear entry. (And/or if you also happen to have the original Korean Tear entry, that would be a fantastic point of comparison too!)

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Love Yourself Highlight Reel '起承轉結' Wings Short Film #5 Reflection

[ladsofsorrow24]

some sketches for wip inspired by Run and the entirety of HYYH era stuff

[my-wordy-brain]

0097

“I know every life’s a movie

We got different stars and stories

We got different nights and mornings

Our scenarios ain’t just boring”

[btsrand0m]

But sometimes, I really really don’t like myself Actually, I really don’t like myself often

[suggable]

BTS Inktober Day 19 - ‘Reflection’

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