#bug vents

[munson-blurbs]

“Minors DNI” doesn’t mean “kids and teenagers don’t belong in fandom.” It means “I am an adult who discusses adult topics and I do not want to discuss them with children.”

Look, I understand that there are worse things minors can do besides read smutty fanfic. And curiosity is normal. But I am a stranger, not a sex ed teacher.

I’m not babysitting the Internet. I am protecting myself. But I will give a word of advice: an internet adult stranger who knowingly has sexual/sex-oriented conversations with minors is not an adult with your best interests in mind.

[critical-bug]

the tumblr trans "community" makes me want to fucking kill myself at this point for being a trans guy. im not kidding.

i'll get skinned alive if i say i don't have privilege over other trans people or CIS women.

ill get skinned if i say 98% of trans men will never have male privilege because the conditions of that applying to us are almost impossible to achieve to the average transmasc.

i'll get skinned if i say transandrophobia exists. or any other term that describes the intersectionality of the oppression transmascs face.

i'll get skinned if i say SOME trans women on this site are horrid to trans men. but at the same time, in this discourse, ALL transmascs have privilege and less oppression than others. the first one is seen as a generalization, while the second one is "the truth." Even though i know many many transfems will stick by our side and fight with us, and the transandrophobic ones are not the majority offline.

i'll get skinned if i say i experience transmisogyny and am not tme despite being "afab" or transmasc. you literally cant tell what im transitioning into and what i was before, so people just hurl both transmisogyny and transandrophobia my way.

i'll get skinned if i say trans men and transmascs of color dont have privilege over white trans people or white cis women.

and its getting worse on this hellsite to the point where a white cis gay man and other non-transmasc folks talk over us, and people listen to them more than us.

man.

[psychiatricwarfare]

ostracization + isolation + neglect in childhood are crazy because you will never feel like you belong anywhere at all and even if you surround yourself with people who love and accept you no matter what, there will always be that little cunt in the back of your mind whispering that you're hurting these people by being near them and the kindest thing you can do is remove yourself from burdening the others with your presence. even if you can rationalise that they don't secretly hate you, you can't stop feeling like you shouldn't be there regardless; that you don't belong, you never have & never will belong anywhere. the feeling that they shouldn't love nor accept you is persistent. it's a wall made of unbreakable glass in which you are always trapped on the inside, looking out at everyone else.

being alive feels like a crime

[musical-dash-trash]

fuck man

[buggiestgaylad]

Hey chat, when will I stop feeling like utter shit over events that transpired on twitter?

I miss roleplaying Knull... i dunno. I'm just... the insidous behaviour exhibited by those very people. Like.

How can you, as survivours of rape, tell a fellow survivour and victim how they should cope? That what they do to cope and what HELPS them, is wrong? My shit isn't anywhere near you. I respect you using avoidance, so why the fuck can't you respect what I use, and cultivate your own space accordingly?

How the fuck does my shit on AO3 affect you, unless you LITERALLY consented to reading my work in the first place? I get it; sometimes you think something might be a cool read, but then regret it, but you know what I do? I back out, and find something else to read instead, because I consented to read it in the first place.

I just feel passionless lately. Empty. Idk.

[xxzimisinhellrightnowxx]

Maybe invader zim will cure my mental illness. U really never know until u stare at a single alien for the Fourth year in a row

[localcuddlebug]

college hard…

keep regressing when need do assignments so everything last minute trying hard to get my brain to be adult and access information

get big headaches lots of body pain body in pain meds no help today

[doofnoof]

Why is it a funny joke that my Uncle will ask me "hey is that your laundry in the dryer" and when I say yeah he will bark at me to "hurry it the fuck up" like how is that funny. Why is that a funny joke I don't get it. It just feels like he's yelling at me to hurry up and fold everything. Why is it funny when he throws a pillow or a wadded up shirt or a towel or a dog toy at me for not folding fast enough. I don't get the joke 😥

Like. Is the joke about the circumstance?? Is it that the way he says it is funny? Because it makes my stomach drop every time, and I never find it funny. Sometimes my Aunt will say he's being mean and tell him to stop it. But when my mom is around it's suddenly a funny joke. Maybe I'm just hormonal, I just don't get it.