#unusannus #unusannusisoverparty #mementomori and all the hashtags you can think of.
sadly the stream was starting at 9pm for me but I'm working on my sleep schedule rn, so I went to sleep after 4 hours. I got out of bed at 7:30am and joined right back in just to cry my eyes out for one last time (or actually for 1,5 hours).
and I'm sitting here hours after the stream's end like "I should have commented on the live, said goodbye there as well, should have gotten screenshots and maybe a tiny recording of the end."
I sat there staring at my phone with a cold and empty coffee cup, a few (mostly used) tissues in my cosiest jumper on the couch covered in a fluffy blanket and.... I lived through the feelings. I let myself cry, I let all the emotions through. refreshing the page like an idiot, looking for the message and the tiny image of a box, feeling so much that I couldn't find any words to describe it.
loss, pain, happiness because I was a part of it, I was there almost every single night watching the videos... dedication, inspiration and so many more positive thoughts and feelings flooded my brain in that single moment when the clock stopped ticking.
I felt something I wanted to feel for a long time now. I felt somehow happy and i was so proud of the boys who really kept their promise, who did throw one years hard work away. all of it gone only to teach everyone a lesson about life, about death and about the importance of it all. they gave up the views, the money, the subs, the super cool group of people who were loving and supporting every step of them to make it loud and clear:
things come and go. people come and go. they die, they leave, they go to the other side. in this very moment your own clock is ticking down, but you never know, when will it happen. tomorrow? one year later? 50 years later? you don't know it, so please live your life like every day could be your last one.
create, leave soemthing relevant behind, help others, give your time and effort to something you are passionate about.
and while you're doing this, remember death.
