#but mostly it's

[dolliesrot]

I can't keep it a secret anymore i wanna fuck that old, sad man. when i see that old, sad, pathetic, wet-eyed, feeble, pitiful, hull of a seemingly maybe once well adjusted old man there is nothing more I want to do than hold him down and have the worst sex of my life with him, because, remember, he's old, and sad, and waif like and i need him to know that for some reason god told me to find these traits desirable.

[sanctuaryforwords]

[ramblings] Every so often there is a particular line from a song that pierces the essence of my being so sharply that I cannot stop thinking about it. Take "Northern Attitude" by Noah Kahan for example, because who writes "if I get too close/and I'm not how you hoped/forgive my northern attitude/oh, I was raised out in the cold" and then just continues with their life????? There's some element in it that feels like begging. Begging to be loved unconditionally, begging to be loved in a way in which no one is burdened by it. Like, please, understand me and give me some grace and some pardon because I know I'm colder and harsher than I want to be. I'm trying.

[textsfromthetva]

[balkanlila]

fictional characters who are obsessed with satisfying a narrative and keeping their life in order. fictional characters who try so hard to make their experiences resemble a storybook and by that detach themselves from all that is real. fictional characters who view change as a failure. fictional characters who try so hard to link everything that is happening to them back to themselves. control freaks. dorks. intellectual snobs. those same idiots interacting with characters who are exactly like them, but are also their exact opposites. being forced to accept somebody else's reality. being forced to accept somebody else's reality as a part of your own. enjoying the time spent together, no strings attached. the irony of the whole world disappearing when they are in the same room. want vs need. being understood, profoundly. loving and resenting that. learning the difference between understanding and communication. sharing experiences. slowly distancing from the role you assigned to yourself. questioning. reexamining. being afraid of happiness. happiness vs familiarity. learning how to live. allowing yourself to be more than the main character. appreciating the chaos. choosing happiness.

[contagiousgrace]

I know I really love something when I can’t articulate anything about it in a satisfying way for a few days or more.