Just thinking about the two parter, for no particular reason whatsoever, and thinking (probably wishfully) of the possibility of Buck thinking he's been contaminated with whatever virus they're involved in, and being quarantined all alone (something something the only thing worse than going through life alone is going through death alone) and wanting nothing more than Eddie. And the clarity NDEs sometimes bring, like Dr. Salazar told him after the lightning, and that clarity being the fact he is in love with Eddie. He's starting to experience symptoms (psychosomatic or the flu or something don't worry) and he's going to die, but he's not going to die without telling Eddie just how loved he is. He's allowed his phone so he can at least text the team with updates. His thumb hovers over Eddie's name for a beat. He debates not telling him. But he can't die keeping that from Eddie. They neither one deserve it. He calls. Eddie answers almost immediately, his Buck-specific grin on his face. He's in the process of taking off the closet door in his room. Isn't quite looking at the screen as he rambles about what he's doing. And Buck, voice shaking the same way it did when he told Eddie he lost Christopher in a tidal wave, just says "Eddie." And Eddie stops. Smile falls. He looks at the screen, at the plastic surrounding Buck, at the paleness of his skin. And he just knows, because he always has, that he wasn't ever going to get his chance at happiness with Buck. He shakes his head. Tries to stop Buck before he can say anything. "Just let me finish," Buck says, voice way too soft.
