I just read through your ramble about coca duo and as an outsiders Krow fictionkin seeing the line "SIGHHHH c!Krow i believe u can be good c!Krow.." literally the day I fell back into the routine of blowing up at everyone and generally just being an asshole was crazy timing and hit me like an actual brick and almost completely took me out of that space (I would send this from my main but my irls follow me and I don't like them knowing when I'm not doing well lmao)
Oh dear :(
I'm.. glad? it helped? idk if im reading this right-
but. i meant that. i do believe so.
as an outsiders Magic IRL. I believe in you Krow, I actually do, you can do better. It's not your fault. Learning to deal with stuff like this is- really hard, speaking from experience.
And you're bound to fall back on it many times, and that's okay, as long as you learn from it and make amends with whoever you may have hurt when that happened.
I'm serious, even tho I may not know you as a person now, I know what I remember, and that is that. You're trully a wonderful person, at your core, and I think striving to be better, to be good when you've gotten used to, or maybe have been taught by life, to not be? to be rude, mean, aggressive or push people off?
The fact you realize its wrong and try to do better is already more than most people do.
Being kind is a choice, and not always an easy one, depending on your circumstances. I think making the active choice to be kind when your brain insists it should be otherwise, and fighting agaisnt that, is admirable.
Sorry if you didnt want this long of a response- but what I'm trying to say is-
I mean it, Krow, I believe in you.
