New NicoElena fic / prologue can be read on AO3 and Wattpad.
SUMMARY:
Told in dual POVs, this two-shot shows Elena and Nico reminiscing their past relationships before they met each other, and how it made them who they are today. Elena remembers the boy who gifted her the ring and who took her virginity. Nico remembers all the shadows of his past, who all pale in comparison to what he feels for Elena now.
Note that this NicoElena fic contains explicit scenes.
EXCERPT:
Our bodies became one, a pulsating need of sweat and warmth and lust. He continued to kiss me, burying his lips in my neck and over my boobs, even sucking a nipple. I threw my head back, crying out in ecstasy, even as he placed his mouth on mine to silence me. Throughout it all, his grinding hips never lost its pace as he thrust in me again again, and my hips rising up again and again in an attempt to match the rhythm he craved.
Soon enough he was moving against me so hard and so fast that I could scarcely catch breath nor keep up. The wildfire feeling was still there, burning more than ever, spreading throughout my body and threatening to singe my limbs and face alive with the heat of its flames. With a guttural cry, I threw my head back and let the feeling consume me, a rush of ecstasy coming across me so violently that I shuddered. He did the same, moaning all the while, as he crashed against me, landing a few more thrusts before stopping and spilling his seed into me. I wondered if we would have yelled each other’s name, had we known what to call each other.
KaySun: These Unbridled Thoughts (Episode 61 rewrite) 🔞❤️🔥
I am back with a steamy rewrite of that Episode 61 scene, because no one can convince me that KaySun did not want to fck then and there among the shattered remains of their bedroom. 🔞❤️🔥
I am really grateful for all the positive feedback I have received on Wattpad, AO3, and of course, Twitter and Instagram so far—because people seemed to like the way Suna’s emotions were covered, and ofc the KaySun smut.
Special thanks to my homegirl Yasha for helping create a new cover for Ultraviolence as well. 🖤
SUMMARY:
A rewrite of that specific Episode 61 scene, when Suna gets all up in Kaya's face and taunts him. You could cut the sexual tension in that room with a knife. I can't prove it, but they almost kissed. What if Suna let her intrusive thoughts win? What if Kaya gave into his desires? Well, they'd do more than just kiss, then.
Anyway, I saw Taylor last week for the Eras Tour, and aside from the fact that she was amazing, she sang False God X Slut!—meaning KaySun endgame, of course! 🩵🧿🙏🏻
Hiii so I finally made good on my promise to write a more mature AU. This is a two-part fic, with part 2 coming soon already out! 🖤
I wanted to explore the dynamic of love Kaya and Suna have together. Ideally, they’ve already established that they love each other + are already physically intimate with each other, and they’re comfortable with that. But my poor babies are such big believers of consent and afraid of hurting the other, so despite their best efforts to communicate, they end up blundering. 😅
As usual, these have been cross-posted on Wattpad and AO3!
SUMMARY:
Suna bites her lip. “Kaya, why don’t you ever finish in me?”
Kaya blanches, and Suna tries not to feel hurt—tries to soldier through her promise to herself to have the conversation with him, no matter what. “Oh, God, Suna. Do you really want me do that?”
A two-part mature AU wherein Kaya and Suna have established their love for each other already. They are comfortable and intimate with each other, determined to always openly communicate. However, Suna wonders why Kaya isn't finishing in her like before. Does he not want to have children with her? Love is embarrassing, maybe that's why she can't ask him. But she promises herself to be more honest and open with him. She's just not sure how to do it.
Some casual KaySun headcanon smut I wrote because I’m delusional. Read at your own risk! I don’t have the time nor the plot idea to make a full-on fic and I just remembered I used to write short-form / bullet point stories on here, years ago, and I enjoyed the non-committal format.
First of all, Suna is not conservative since we saw how she used to excitedly talk about halvets with Seyran…it’s horrible foot fetish man who gave Suna the trauma (which she got over during her first night with Kaya). I talked about this with @/academyofbrokenhearts and we both agreed Suna is not conservative, just repressed!!! There is a difference! Also, she is a product of the environment she grew up in (like with a father as terrible as Kazım in Gaziantep, no wonder the Şanlı sisters dressed like old ladies back then).
And now, I personally believe Suna WANTED to have a good first night with her husband, not just to get over her trauma, but because 1) As she told Kaya, she didn’t want their marriage to be defined by fake formalities, 2) she has had enough of the evil men in her life defining her, and 3) She was just…horny…scared and traumatized, but horny…very willing too because consent is important and both of them wanted eo and both of them wanted to feel wanted by eo. Chile anyway Kaya definitely wants his wife and he can help her with everything! I choose to believe both of them have a great sex life together despite them both trying to figure their lives out. (Let’s forget that as of writing, they’ve only been married for like 4 days haha).
First, yes, Kaya eats Suna out. I think that’s obvious. And Suna gives him head too eventually aurrr 😭😭😭
I’m gonna be honest, Kaya loves pleasuring Suna, he eats her out every chance he gets (so long as she’s willing, of course).
Suna is shy at first but he tells her to let go and just enjoy it…and she does! Yes there is a lot of tongue but I won’t get into that because that deserves privacy.
Suna won’t always admit how good it feels, but when Kaya is between her legs she grasps their sheets until her knuckles turn white, and she calls out his name,
…so Kaya is satisfied and can sort of tell she’s having a great time, anyway.
Also, my headcanon is Kaya personally doesn’t mind if Suna has a bit of a bush down there (he’s open-minded like that)—
But our girl Suna is so neat, she keeps everything down there clean and completely hairless because that’s just part of her new rich girl aesthetic 💅🏻—brows shaped, lashes filled, and every inch of her skin smooth and well-oiled like butter. Honestly so slay of her.
Yes, Suna also ends up giving head to Kaya for the first time. 😭
Suna has never given head in her life but she’s so grateful to Kaya that she wants to make him feel good for a change.
She’s hella scared though, so she tries to Google how and she reads a bit before stopping herself 😭
(and she has mortifyingly invasive thoughts about scraping him by accident with her teeth)…
One night though as they’re kissing she just goes for the jugular, she tells Kaya she wants to do something for him for a change.
He raises his eyebrows but doesn’t say anything because he’s confused, even while Suna is putting her hair in a ponytail.
It isn’t until she kneels down and starts pulling down his pants that his eyes widen.
“Are you sure, Suna? You don’t have to—”
“No, I want to do it for you for a change.”
“But—” “Do you not want me to?”
“I…I never said that.”
It goes better than Suna expects, because while Kaya is pretty big in terms of girth, he’s not too gigantic, and she closes her mouth over him without much difficulty.
Kaya is a gentleman and vvv supportive sooo he actually encourages her when she’s doing it 🫶🏻
He also closes his eyes and tells her how good it feels, because holy crap it does feel amazing !
Honestly, this makes Suna feel better and more at ease with using her tongue and swirling it around when she’s sucking him off ~
At some point she stops and looks up and asks him innocently if she’s doing alright, and he immediately gets frustrated and says yes, please just continue!!!
So she laughs to herself and does just that.
And yes, it feels so good that later on Kaya can’t hold it much longer and tells her so.
And he comes in her mouth. Hard.
And Suna is a bit surprised by the sensation but with a lot of effort she manages to swallow most of it, except for a bit that stays on her mouth and drips down to the ground.
Everything is a bit too salty and her cheeks were kind of painfully full…but she kind of enjoys it and the look on Kaya’s face + knowing the effect she has on him?
Kaya is apologetic and a tad bit embarrassed but he also finds what Suna is doing so hot:
She’s dabbing away what remains of it from her lips with her hands, looking at it curiously as it drips down stickily from her well-manicured fingers.
Kaya’s about to say something, maybe say sorry(?), that was too much, but she throws her hands around him and starts kissing him, so he just sorts of…melts away…
But wait, there’s more.
It affects him a lot, because one time when Suna accidentally drops the beads of Kaya’s prayer bracelet again and she’s on her knees on the ground just like then picking up the pieces, Kaya does get a boner—
He prays she doesn’t notice it, but she eventually does, and he’s embarrassed but she’s deeply pleased (again, knowing the effect she has on him)—
So she locks the door behind them and helps him out.
Other stuff!
Everyone probably thinks Suna is the dom but GUYS. She is not.
She probably enjoys going on top and riding him, and Kaya loves the view as well (plus being the “sub” once in a blue moon) but at the end of the day she just wants Kaya to take the lead in their relationship—
(And I know what y’all are thinking—isn’t Kaya the malewife here? Isn’t Suna the strong woman in the relationship…guys, here’s the thing, he may seem under her irl but in the bedroom it’s a different story. That’s how the dynamic is usually with powerful women lmfao they don’t always want to lead, and if you don’t believe me, look at this interview of Rihanna saying she’s a bottom and that she wants to be disrespected and then read the Twitter discourse agreeing with her and explaining the psychology behind it.) 😃😃😃
Also Kaya takes birth control as his responsibility very seriously. He thinks it’s his duty as a man—
He disapproves of birth control pills because he knows that they mess with your hormones and he never wants Suna to experience that wtf!
So he’s just extra-careful with using condoms, and Suna does her part with the counting method too, if ever …
Because of course, there are very rare instances wherein they slip up in the moment and forget, so there is a Plan B morning after-pill going on in those times.
At one point, Suna brings up getting an IUD, but Kaya shuts it down immediately— “No way are they cutting up skin and embedding something in my wife. I’ll wear the condom.”
I do think they have a very fun sex life and they do it semi-frequently, like that meme “until the window fogs up…” blah blah, but guys—
Suna tried that, and while she did enjoy getting slutted out by Kaya, and while she did liked how warm she felt when he came inside her…
God did she feel sticky after a couple of rounds, with all that sweat and his cum running down her legs. She needed to take a shower, stat lmao—(Suna is neat as hell guys wahaha)
So they decided to stick with condoms and a few rounds at a time only. (Sex is tiring, KaySun can get freaky but I honestly think they need a good night’s sleep if they want to successfully get their revenge and function as regular humans in society lmfao).
Besides that, I do think they try a variety of positions. Mostly I imagine they would like missionary the most and cowgirl sometimes.
Have they ever tried the 69 oral style? Probably they have…I honestly can’t see them not wanting to do it, but I do think they’ll find it a bit inconvenient lmao.
They have tried doggy style, but Kaya isn’t impressed. Like do you think he would enjoy fcking his wife if he can’t see her beautiful face 🥲
I do think there will come a point where they take a small couple’s vacation in a log cabin somewhere with a lot of beautiful snow and trees, and he’ll just fck her from behind while she’s bent over a table. But honestly—not his favorite position! #LetKayaSeeSuna!
First night…(?)
First night fics are very common already, so I’m not sure what to add to it, but…
I do think Kaya is amazingly gentle. I do believe he tried to use his fingers to get her comfortable first.
He definitely held back as much as he could and encouraged Suna to relax and trust him.
He’s probably aware that she’s a virgin so he won’t be rough with her.
He’s doubly aware she has had some trauma so he won’t do anything too harsh to her too, and he looks at her for consent at every turn.
Suna is nervous as hell but he makes her feel so good and at ease that by the time he enters her, it’s not the most pleasant feeling, but it isn’t painful either—she doesn’t even bleed!
And okay, she doesn’t come yet but she really enjoys it. They don’t use birth control that first night either so they’re just lucky (and good with counting) that she didn’t end up hamile.
Both of them feel really good and yes they cuddle afterwards!!!!!!!!!! 💞
Fantasies?
Suna definitely has her fair share of fantasies of Kaya having his way with her, lol—
And she tells Kaya she wants this, and he’s just so confused, because consent is a big deal to him and Suna’s fantasies don’t sound very consensual.
But she insists, insists that there are times when he must keep on going even when she’s crying no, because it feels good for her—
“Suna, I would never want to hurt you—” “You won’t be hurting me, Kaya, you’d be making me feel good and fulfilled.”
So they end up agreeing on a safe word.
I do think they end up having angry sex and after-fight sex sometimes (because relationship development and they’re very good at communicating by this point…haha right @/writers?)…
Kaya can get rough and unrelenting, but he always respects her boundaries still. And let’s face it, this is Suna we’re talking about, she definitely wants it rough from Kaya; she probably enjoys it, too.
BUT OF COURSE gentle sex and consent will always be KaySun’s thing! Don’t get me wrong! But they’re both freaky af so they’ll eventually evolve and get rough and they’ll both enjoy it extremely.
I do like to think that the post-nut clarity will make Kaya a bit guilty sometimes for how intense he was with Suna the night before, so in the morning he’ll just go out into the terrace and sit by himself and stare into space in the silence. Suna is used to him being like this by now. (Cackling as I write this).
Now, as for other things:
Period sex: Honestly, I don’t think Kaya would mind. Probably a part of him wants to try it. 💀 But I don’t think Suna would ever allow this to happen lmfao. She would rather die. But Kaya will always buy her chocolates when she’s in a PMS mood, and honestly that sounds so much better.
Shower sex: I’m on the fence about this!!! Honestly I think KaySun both need their alone time in the bathroom to cry about their traumas so it’s not their fave thing to have someone else there, but it does happen and they do enjoy it! (Feel free to correct me). (Bruh I think Kaya will genuinely cry in there when he does it with Suna. Poor man).
That brings us to the topic of comfort sex and again, of course it happens, of course it will always be their thing, whether it’s their past traumas or new challenges in life. I definitely think though it’s not always going to happen—see, Suna has a very nurturing side and a lot of love to give, and the problem was she was never loved by her family. So I like to think that yes, comfort sex happens. But sometimes Kaya just lies in bed with her, listening to her heartbeat, and she strokes his back and plays with his hair, comforting him.
As for all the other stuff, I really don’t know much about bdsm or anything like that…I do think some stuff can happen. However, I honestly don’t see KaySun partaking in anything involving odd costumes, because that’s generally not their thing, since they’re not on that level yet but we’ll never know. I don’t know enough about toys either to know what they will use 🤷🏻♀️ they definitely won’t get them delivered since they share a house with the entire Korhan family and a random maid can find it while cleaning and embarrass them. Maybe when they go on honeymoon in London they’ll give it a try. (Head canon is that they’re freakier in London. Idk if Suna will ever enter a sex shop, but I think 50/50 chance that Kaya can convince her haha).
(Also let’s face it, KaySun can get freaky but at the end of the day they are 2 broken souls healing eo, so I guess while they can get rough and while Suna can have fantasies, they’re still relatively very vanilla sometimes…nothing wrong with that—) (But I could be wrong in reading their characters, so if you guys disagree you guys can write your own thing and I would 100% support it).
I do see Suna getting excited to buy lingerie to wear for Kaya though and getting a lot of beauty treatments and doing prep beforehand because she does want to please her man!!! She doesn’t know Kaya would want her anyway. 😂 #LetSunaBeGirly and high maintenance though homegirl deserves it!!!
Finally, I believe that while Kaya has more experience, Suna surprises him more, and he very much enjoys and appreciates it and he tells her so. She’s new to all this but she’s very unsure, and she’s grateful for all his support always and she really does want to do nice things for him. 🫶🏻🥰🥰🥰
Anyway that’s it, bottom line is they have a pretty good and healthy sex life. Kaya and Suna love each other and are endgame. If you made it all the way here, thank you for reading my delusions/ ramblings. 😘🫶🏻
Good day, bbs! I’ve just finished the longest Chapter 1 ever of my most delusional fic yet. Suna with not just anxiety, but the fortune teller’s words, and her burgeoning feelings for Kaya, because he hasn’t touched her since their wedding night. Read it on AO3 or Wattpad, where it’s been cross-posted. 🤎
SUMMARY:
Suna has been feeling more anxious than usual these days. Maybe it's the fortune teller's words about destiny bothering her. Maybe it's the fact Kaya hasn't touched her since their wedding night. Maybe it's just the way she doesn't know how to love, and how she can't even admit her own real feelings to herself.
When Fikriye is invited to the mansion again by Pırıl and Pelin again, Suna promises herself she won't intervene. But Fikriye pronounces the state of her lovesickness with Kaya fairly well, and offers her an interesting solution.
However, Suna soon finds out that it's not Kaya's feelings she has to worry about, but her own.
It’s a recipe for angst and something more, because should Suna really be worried about Kaya’s feelings for her, or should she be worried about her own ability to love?
Please leave a kudos or a favorite, and even a comment on the fic, to let me know what you think. 🫶🏻 You can also reach me on Twitter & Instagram @caitlined_. Thank you and I hope you like it! 🥰
As requested on Twitter, here’s a new wholesome, light, and fluffy KaySun fic. Kinda rushed, a little cheesy, but I hope you still like it.❣️💖 As usual, these have been posted on Wattpad and AO3.
SUMMARY:
Suna has never been big on Valentine's Day, but she still secretly yearns to celebrate it. And Kaya delivers. What surprises await when they head off on a work trip together, in the days leading up to Valentine's Day? It's something Suna never expected. Fluffy and light one-shot AU.
So a lot of y’all don’t know, but I do play around with fics sometimes and write what Twitter oomfs request. I never publish them because I have a reputation to uphold, I just send them straight to the DMs.
However, after much convincing from Twitter friends…(and people reminding me that what I wrote is weird but tame—forgive me, I am a Catholic Chinese schoolgirl at heart so anything is *gasp*-worthy for me)…I am gonna publish some of the requested KaySun smut fics…😄
Very weird and OOC, not chronological nor logical, and a little bit out of context since this is part of a series of unpublished fics floating around Twitter, so you’ve been warned. 🖤❣️ Read them on Wattpad or AO3!
SUMMARY:
Suna wishes Kaya would be more rough with her. :D
A non-chronological collection of KaySun smut, as requested by multiple people. These were never meant to see the light of the day, so please treat the stories with darkness. To be continued if it fares well. #madeitoutoftheDMs
And shoutout to my homegirl Cypra on Twitter for requesting this scene. 🖤 (she has yet to read it, hmph). Anyway, lmk what you think—leave a like and comment, and you can always reach me on @caitlined_ for Twitter and Instagram if you have any more requests! 💖
An ErSib fic based on the 2023 Turkish dizi EGO: Erkeğe Güven Olmaz, starring Melisa Aslı Pamuk & Alperen Duymaz
Due to popular demand, I have written an ErSib fanfic entitled Past Loves. It ties in the Cüneyt plot with the mysterious 3 days Erhan and Sibel spent in Antalya. As of writing, five chapters are out. I’ve cross-posted my fic to AO3 and Wattpad.
SUMMARY:
A story about ErSib from the Turkish dizi EGO: Erkeğe Güven Olmaz, starring Melisa Aslı Pamuk and Alperen Duymaz. Erhan knows Sibel is his and his alone. That she loves him as much as he loves her. He's sure that she's his soulmate, and that they'll spend the rest of their lives together.
However, Erhan can't shake the feeling that Sibel is hiding a huge chunk of her past from him. What will happen when he discovers her secret about her past love Cüneyt? And the 3 days he spent with Sibel all those years ago-how does it connect to Cüneyt and Sibel's secret?
Read it here on Wattpad or AO3 and please leave some comments and suggestions. Thank you!
📌 I’m also working on a CemKer one-shot and another ErSib fic about cheating…👀 So look out for that!
A story about ErSib from the Turkish dizi EGO: Erkeğe Güven Olmaz, starring Melisa Aslı Pamuk and Alperen Duymaz. Erhan...
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