So this canine is feeling a lot of gender dysphoria lately.
But we can't get top surgery until we lose weight. And I can't lose weight without surgery due to my pcos and psych meds. And we wanna start T, but we can't start T because we don't want to just look like an insanely hairy woman.
My bariatric surgeon won't answer the phone. OurGI doctor called him directly and told him to call mum just in case I'm not receiving his calls on our phone for some reason. No calls.
I'm just so tired. I've been wanting this since high school (2016). Before, we were 50 lbs heavier than my surgeon felt comfortable working with. Now I'm 190 lbs too heavy. We are so sick of the waiting. We want it now!!!
I wish I hadn't chickened out of surgery before. Because now we are having the hardest time getting it.
On another note, my species dysphoria is getting worse. We have been feeling quite human lately with the whole weight loss stuff. We just wish both dysphoria's would go away.
