#canoing issue

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Canon divs -

The most surreal detail of my existence is having a happy ending. I know that in "canon", I became fused with the being known as Lilith, taking part in the disastrous Third Impact.

That... did not happen. I was able to move past all the danger and negativity. How strange it is, to see "me" causing horrible destruction to the world, when my most recent source memories involve peacefully eating lunch and feeling the summer breeze.

How strange. Am I to feel guilt for an act I did not commit? Will sourcemates view me differently?

Sincerely,

- Ayanami

(Fictive of Rei Ayanami)

(Source: Neon Genesis Evangelion)

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Miles Fairchild (The Turning) here, and I have one (1) fear: That the movie will not display or interperate my trauma correctly, and will also make me seem hetero-coded!! PLEASE I beg you don't misinterpret me!!!

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how did i live back then? no, seriously, how? i have #Mental Illness and i can't stand the idea of being disliked, or of people being mad at me. i apologise for things i didn't do, and i stay up at night thinking about the possibility of someone i've only spoken to a handful of times hating me. i don't know how i lived, back then, knowing how many people wanted me dead, knowing how many people hated me for good reason. i don't know. i wish i knew. ~bucky

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I cannot believe I kin a character who's literally living my worst fear. like no!!! I don't want these memories about literally forgetting the people i love, or forgetting myself! especially with the whole part of the relationship missing and its just!!!! hey @ the in between and whoever gave this bullshit time travelling stuff!!! How dare you!!! -a c!karl jacobs kin who is suffering with these new memories

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canon really wrote me off as seeming fine, i am not, i’m extremely far from it. the amount of shit that just happened? what happened in the past? i can’t just be okay after that, nobody can.

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(suggested tags: #puttingothersfirst and #sanderssidesspoilers) my canon name just got revealed and i dont vibe with it for my current kinshift but im getting kinfeels for an unsymp tl of this kin so uh shit maybe that is my name too snsndndf - deceit (#🌩💜🕸)

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i honestly worry a bit about kiran. in my timeline, he was very trusting and kind, but also somewhat naive and a bit too forgiving. back then he had a lot of friends and a big support system to look out for him and make sure no one was taking advantage of his kindness, but if he's here in this life? there's no way of knowing if that's still the case, and it's worrying to think about. he was my first friend, and i hope he's alright wherever he is now. -grima (fire emblem)

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I saw a canon call from a Mikey while going through kin blogs and I'm. Not sure if I should respond or not. I've never been good at dealing with sourcemates and, although I've gotten better at that, I'm still nervous. Besides, I haven't... Fully sorted out how I feel about my Mikey yet.

I mean, we were close, but was he just a good friend to me? Or did I have a crush on him? Or maybe I saw him as more of a little brother, given that I always took care of him even though that bastard could do his own shit. Or maybe I was into him, but it was just sexual with no romance. It could even be that I felt some kind of tertiary attraction towards him (alterous, perhaps?), although I didn't even know that was a thing, so who knows.

I think I'm overthinking this a little - Draken.