#capricious-minstrel

[easthete]

capricious-minstrel started following easthete @capricious-minstrel

Clownie, hello !

(Am Kurloz, nice to meet you)

[i-shakeitoff]

capricious-minstrel replied to your post “-my peers get so much more interaction than i do -what am i doing...”

MiGhT hElP iF yOu TrIeD tAlKiN aT fOlKs?

-oh i try to talk to people -i am met with silence

[hemoskittish-blog]

I know you got shamed for this but tbh nothing wrong with leading a rebellion

I WASN’T SURE IF I WANTED TO GET INTO THIS ASK OR NOT, BUT I AM ASSUMING THIS IS IN RELATION TO THIS POST AND I JUST WANTED TO CLARIFY A FEW THINGS. 

I WASN’T BEING SHAMED FOR HELPING LEAD THE REBELLION. WHAT MY MOIRAIL AND I TALKED ABOUT WITH EACH OTHER PRIOR TO TAKING THESE PICTURES WERE HOW UNHEALTHY WE BOTH WERE IN OUR SELF-SACRIFICING MINDSETS. IT ISN’T *THAT* I CHOSE TO LEAD A REBELLION, IT’S *WHY* I CHOSE TO LEAD A REBELLION THAT WAS REALLY THE PROBLEM. 

WE TALKED ABOUT IT WHEN WE FINALLY GOT TO SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN, WORKED OUT SOME OF THE TENSION THAT HAD BUILT UP FOR THE PAST PERIGEES WHILE I WAS AWAY AND HE WAS UNDER PRESSURE FOR HAVING A MUTANT MOIRAIL, AND WHAT YOU’RE SEEING IN THAT IMAGE IS THE USE OF HUMOR AS A TOOL TO RELAX A LITTLE AFTER A VERY LONG, INTENSE, AND EMOTIONAL CONVERSATION ABOUT WHAT WE NEEDED FROM  EACH OTHER, WHY WE DID THE THINGS WE DID, WHY WE MAYBE SHOULDN’T HAVE, AND HOW WE CAN BE MORE RESPONSIBLE WITH OUR LIVES AND ACTIONS IN THE FUTURE.

I’M PROUD TO BE A REBEL LEADER, BUT I’M NOT PROUD OF THE WAY I TOOK RISKS THAT MIGHT BE STRESSFUL TO THE PEOPLE I LOVE AND THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME. 

I KNOW YOU DIDN’T REALLY ASK FOR THIS EXPLANATION, BUT I THINK IT NEEDED TO BE SAID.

[hemoskittish-blog]

MY MOIRAIL @capricious-minstrel AND I ARE STUPID DUMBASSES AND NOBODY IS SURPRISED.

[hemoskittish-blog]

I’M ON MY WAY TO VISIT MY RAIL FOR THE FIRST TIME IN PERIGEES AND GOD I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE HIS DUMB FUCKED UP MUG IN PERSON AGAIN.

[emoskittish]

PART OF ME WANTS TO VENT ON MAIN BECAUSE I NEED HELP BUT THAT’S SUPPOSED TO BE JAMESES JOB AS FRUSTRATED AS I AM I DON’T WANT TO CHEAT ON HIM BY GOING TO SOMEONE ELSE FOR HELP

[emoskittish]

HE DIDN’T EVEN COME TALK TO ME... INSTEAD OF TALKING TO ME HE JUST MADE SOME VAGUE POST ABOUT FEELING AWFUL. WE’RE TOGETHER BECAUSE I’M SUPPOSED TO HELP HIM WHEN HE’S FEELING LIKE THAT AND HE’S SUPPOSED TO HELP ME WHEN I’M FEELING BAD. I THOUGHT WE FIGURED THIS OUT. I THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA STOP AVOIDING ME. WE CAN’T HAVE A RELATIONSHIP IF IT ONLY SITS ON THE SURFACE BUT HE DOESN’T EVEN TRY TO TALK TO ME ABOUT WHEN HE’S ENRAGED. I FEEL SO USELESS.

[hemoskittish-blog]

THIS IS MY PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMENT THAT I’M DEEPLY PALE FOR @capricious-minstrel AND MY PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMENT THAT I’M AN ABSOLUTE *IDIOT* IN GENERAL. THANK YOU.