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[faithdragon36says]

DOES THE EVENT SECURITY GUY EVEN PLAY DUEL MONSTERS? DOES HE HAVE A DECK ON HIM? I FEEL LIKE IM LOSING MY MIND

[habibialkaysani]

idk how I'm gonna survive tomorrow with a full ass day of work when all I want to do is watch bridgerton s3 part 2... and I acc need to just flat out avoid the bridgertonedit tag until then bc I'm sure there are spoilers there already. but idk if I will truly make it doing my 9-5 - all I'll say is that my body is ready the moment I get home. it'll be like part 1 where I get home and literally no one fucking talk to me bc IT'S HAPPENING EVERYONE STAY FUCKING CALM BECAUSE IT'S HAPPENING

[nightmareentertainment]

ken's whole story is built in [insecurity and loneliness] that funnels into [anger] which turns into [GRIEF guilt and even more anger] which makes him the prime suspect to be used but also makes him , like , fundamentally mentally weak , leads him down an even LONELIER path, leads him towards cruelty , and the turning point in his story is actually like. he describes it, verbally, as realizing in his moment of healing that his parents loved him. like going through life feeling completely abandoned by a better-than-you brother who was also suffering under their parents' negligence towards their kids' emotional stability, feeling abandoned by your parents, and then that brother dies and you are still left standing in his shadow, its just even bigger now, its full of grief, and youre full of grief, and you dont know what to do other than to just stare empty-eyed at his closed casket

and all you thought before was i hate you, i want you to dissapear and now you want to take it all back, because did i do this? did i wish this into existence? this isnt what i wanted. this isnt what i meant.i was nine years old and angry and sad and alone but i never wanted you to dissapear. not for real.and now your room is just your room, and you get an email, and someone wants to help you :-). except no he fuckign doesnt he just gives you a place to relinquish all that anger, and it builds, and youre still alone but youre convincing yourself now you have control over that. you step into your brothers shoes. youre better than him now. youre finally how tall he was when he died. your parents seem so happy to have their boy back. they dont realize they never got him; they just lost the kid they had left. you are a husk made from guilt and grief and you fill it with anger until its exploding from every part of you. you no longer know who you are, but the news decides youre ken ichijouji, boy genius and soccer star! so you go with that. eventually you find your way to your escape. a new world. and you get to decide who you are in this game; you get to pick your destiny, you get all the control. theres no consequences for not smiling at the camera, here. and youre alone, and the world is weak, and theres something itching in your mind; something telling you what to build and how to build it, and you never know your control isnt actually your own. you never get to know. you play the game how you want to. its your world. its not your parents, its not your brothers, its yours, this is yours and you are going to fucking rule it!!!!!

ken is very much like , hurt-people-hurt-people but the thing is that, in the real world hes trying very very hard to be NORMAL and NICE and GOOD even while hes bubbling with rage and hatred and wants to be left alone, he smiles for all the cameras everyone is putting in his face, taking his anger out in secret and only when nobody is watching, because hes aware of consequences but in the digital world there is no consequences. its a game, after all! then there's other players and at first it's kinda fun, having an enemy in your game, but then theyre not playing fair, then theyre in your way, its getting annoying, and its not fun anymore. and the worse you feel online, the worse you feel offline, and hes pissed, and everyone wants everything from him, and one day he throws it all down and decides fuck this and ken ichijouji runs away. the ichijouji family loses their second and final son. (this is their turning point, too. they realize maybe osamu was never happy, before he died. maybe they pushed ken into the same box. they bury their faces in their hands and just pray they havent completely lost their chance to try)

ken- the kaiser- is having a really Really Bad Fucking Time. hes not even having fun anymore he just wants to be in control of something, he wants the chance to be a winner, and theres other players and theyre in the way. and then. well, shit. and then they win. Doesn't that suck? It’s the first time you’ve failed at something in years. i like him. i like the digimon kaiser. thats just a little kid hes up playing games in this bitch. its shown he actually really, really loved and admired his brother, and i feel like this and his persona as the kaiser are involved. he literally resembles so much of his brother even in his persona as someone who rules the world isnt it crazy how you resemble your prodigy brother no matter where you go or what you do because without him there youre the only one who could possibly fill the space. ken is nobody, but everyone loved osamu. why not be osamu? even if you dont realize it!!!

thats all a big part in why he claims he doesnt know himself after it all goes down this kid has no clue who he is. only wormmon does. quite literally only wormmon knows who he is. who he was before it all went to shit. who he was while it happened. only wormmon was ever there for him. and he treated wormmon like shit, for so long. how do you ever forgive yourself for that? wormmon tells him he's kind. he really is. under all that anger and guilt and never ending sadness, hes kind and hes just lonely. and so ken turns his life around. IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOBODYGETS IT NOBODY UNDERSTANDS HIM LIKEI DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HE HAS NEVER KNOWN ANYTHING BUT THE FACT THAT HE WILL ALWAYS EXIST IN HIS BROTHERS SHADOW SO HE GROWS INTO HIS BROTHERS SHADOW AND ITS ONLY WHEN HES TORN DOWN TO NOTHING, INTO A GUILT-SOAKED MESS , DOES HE STEP OUT OF IT. KINDNESS IS THE ONLY WAY OUT. HE SPENDS HIS TIME TRYING TO MAKE UP FOR WHAT HE DID AND HE ONLY HEALS ONCE HE REALIZES HIS PARENTS AND WORMMON LOVE HIM, ONCE HE HAS FRIENDS ALWAYS READY TO BE THERE, ONCE HE LEARNS TO, AT THE VERY END, BE KIND TO HIMSELF TOO, AND FACE OSAMU AND FORGIVE HIMSELF

[hunny-bxscuit]

After-work party gone wrong.

[beauthief-a]

((BITING KILLING MAIMING AS I THINK ABOUT HARU'S DECISION TO BE KIND WHENEVER SHE CAN. SHE SEES THE CRUELTY OF THE WORLD, SHE KNOWS THE UGLINESS AND THE AWFUL PARTS OF IT, SHE HAS FACED THEM HEAD ON, BEEN TOLD KINDNESS WILL GET HER NO WHERE AND STILL, STILL SHE CONTINUES TO BE KIND!! BECAUSE THAT IS HER CHOICE, BECAUSE SHE REFUSES TO BE PART OF THE SYSTEM THAT ADDS CRUELTY TO THE WORLD!!! LOVE AND KINDNESS IS HER REBELLION AGAINST A WORLD THAT TOLD HER IT WAS BETTER TO BE CRUEL AND IT DRIVES ME INSANE))

[addysfandomdump]

Saw a post and thought of Them (ALSO HIIIII HIIIIIIII SORRY FOR HAVING NOT POSTED IN A WHILE LIFE’S BEEN BUSY)

inspo:

[klugpuuo]

actually fuck it

trans men are also oppressed.

trans men are also trans and experience trans issues.

trans men are also attacked by TERFs and transphobes.

you do not, in any circumstances, have to tell the entire internet that you are transmisogyny-exempt. nobody in the world needs to know that, and if anyone tells you that you need to broadcast it they are exceedingly fucked up.

you do not need to reblog every single positivity or information post for trans women, ever, for any reason. and you do not need to check sources to make sure that you are always and only rbing positivity or information posts about trans women from trans women.

if you are made to feel like you "have" to reblog positivity and information posts for ANY group for ANY reason, ESPECIALLY if it is because people say you have to "keep up appearances" or "avoid just being 'one of the good ones' from an opposing (in this specific case, "opposing") group of people" THAT IS FUCKED UP.

as long as you are not actively harassing or harming trans women, you're okay. you don't owe anyone anything, you don't need to force yourself to do anything, and in this aspect at the VERY least you do not need to change yourself.

and if anyone tells you differently:

THAT IS FUCKED UP.

[weirdandcreepyart]

LISTEN TO THE WORDS I SAY NOW:

YOU'RE A FUCKING IDIOT, AND STATIC'S POURING OUT OF YOUR MOUTH :)

decided to redraw some old art i really liked. original piece under the cut