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[lostdrarryfics]

hello amazing people <3

I read this fic years ago and it's all a bit blurry in my mind. I'll try to pen all the details i remember.

1. It was on ao3, pretty sure and it was a long fic.

2. Harry and Draco were sleeping together. One day, Harry walks onto Draco having sex with another man, which really hurts him because he thought they were exclusive. They weren't really, nobody said that, but Harry just assumed cuz he had feelings for Draco.

3. In this scene, Draco kind of comes to meet Harry and have sex. Harry was sick, and tells Draco so. Draco goes like okay I'll go, and Harry desperatly agrees to have sex so Draco won't go.

3. Pansy was there, and she gets sort of mad over Draco for hurting Harry this way when she realises Harry has feelings for him, but Harry makes her promise not to say a word.

4. Harry had slept with a lot of people in that fic. Draco once asked him how many, and i think Harry replied with 60? Or smthing like that. Draco was i think a bit disgusted?

5. Draco later leaves and Harry falls into a sort of depression, but with help from Hermione, Ron and Pansy starts being kind to himself. I remember this scene where Harry shouts at Hermione that will she be able to live if Ron left her, and Hermione calmy replies something along the lines of she'll be sad, but she'll live.

6. Draco later comes back and now he has feelings fot Harry. He knocks on Harry's door on new year (they were staying at a hotel) and they make up and Harry forgives Draco. I think this scene was similar to the first time they kissed, which was new year of last year (not sure about this tho)

7. There was some sort of charity group where Harry and Pansy worked? That's how they knew other i think.

That's all I remember. I hope this isn't too vague <3 Thank you so much yall are incredible <3

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Back Where We Began

Cassiara @cassiaratheslytherpuff

Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter Characters: Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy Additional Tags: Accidental Bonding, Bonding, Magical Bond, Hogwarts Eighth Year, Except it's several years later, Auror Harry Potter, Professor Draco Malfoy, Student Harry Potter, Explicit Sexual Content, Getting Together, Praise Kink, Legilimency (Harry Potter), Light Angst, Happy Ending, Sexual Tension, Bottom Harry, Top Draco Malfoy

Summary:

Harry has to go back to Hogwarts to get his NEWTs, and being well into his twenties he figures the course will pass without too much trouble. Enter Snape’s old Potions book, a bonding spell, and Draco Malfoy.

Excerpt:

“I knew it! You’re following me!”

Harry stutters, not sure how the hell he’s going to get out of this one.

“No, I’m not, I just, er, needed some air?” Harry winces when the excuse comes out sounding like a question.

Doesn’t trust me.

“You needed some air?” Malfoy says, voice dripping with disbelief. He looks – cold. Like he used to, closed off and inaccessible to Harry. Harry hasn’t realised how much more he’s been seeing of Malfoy’s expressions until they’re gone.

“I know, I just – I swear I don’t think you’re up to something,” Harry says. “I just, Merlin Malfoy, you make me so bloody curious.”

His words cause a crack in Malfoy’s armour, who draws his brows down in a confused frown.

“Curious?”

“Yes,” Harry says, surprising himself by sounding almost out of breath with the need to make Malfoy believe him. “I don’t think you’re evil, or up to something bad. I swear. But I never know with you, what you’re thinking or feeling, or why you do the things you do. And I know my curiosity usually lands me in the stupidest situations, but I can’t help it with you.”

Want him.

Harry draws a sharp breath at the words, this time so strong he would have sworn Malfoy said them out loud if he hadn’t been watching him. They sounded just as needy as Harry feels, and the force of his desire makes him take a step back so he’s leaning against the wall.

“You’re curious about me?” Malfoy asks, pushing off the wall where he’s been leaning and taking a step closer to Harry. “Why don’t I believe that’s the full story?”

Harry feels his heart speed up as Malfoy gets closer, and he can’t make his mouth work well enough to form words to say anything at all. Not when Malfoy is so close, and when Harry is so desperately horny after that night’s dream. A dream in which, incidentally, Malfoy had him pushed up against a wall as they desperately clawed at the other’s clothes and rutted against each other.

“I think you’re following me because you’re interested,” Malfoy says, voice low. He’s smirking and cocky, but Harry doesn’t miss the way he forces his hands open. He’s nervous too.

“And what if I am?” Harry challenges, forcing his chin up so he’s meeting Malfoy’s eyes again. His heart is still beating at full force, sending Harry’s whole body into overdrive. His cock hardens as Malfoy steps closer, and it’s so much like Harry’s dream that he can’t help but anticipate what comes next.

Dreamed about this.

The thought is whispered just as Malfoy closes the distance with a final step. Harry’s brain is flooded with the sensation of Malfoy’s chest pressed against his own; Malfoy’s breath hot against his face and the pure heat between them.

“If you really are, I’m guessing you won’t mind this,” Malfoy says. He places his hands on either side of Harry’s head and leans forward, lips brushing softly against Harry’s. It’s so chaste it hurts, like the smell of something delicious that leaves you desperate to taste it. It’s a question, Harry realises. Does he really want this? And yes, fuck yes, he does.

Harry lifts his arms to pull Malfoy impossibly closer and leans in to deepen the kiss.

Finally.

Malfoy doesn’t need Harry to answer twice. The second Harry shows that he wants it, he leans in and kisses Harry like he’s been starving for it. It’s all teeth and desperate clinging and Harry’s grateful he’s sandwiched between Malfoy and the wall because he’s pretty sure his legs stopped working somewhere around the time Malfoy took his bottom lip between his teeth and bit gently.

Harry can’t help the urge to rut up against Malfoy, letting his hands fall down to Malfoy’s hips and pulling him close again and again as his cock becomes fully hard and aching in his pants. Malfoy doesn’t seem to be holding back any better than Harry, panting hard against his lips in between kisses and jerking his hips to meet Harry’s.

Harry.

The sound of his name startles Harry, and he’s not sure if Malfoy said it or thought it, but it doesn’t matter. He needs Malfoy’s mouth on his neck, on his ear, breathing and licking and biting. He’s been so close to that for weeks now, and he needs it for real.

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Title: Blue roses and other impossible things

Author: Cassiara

Summary: After Harry saved Draco from the Room of Requirement there was a moment when Draco gave Harry a look. Harry didn’t know what to make of it, and he had a war to fight so he ignored it. Now though, they’re back at Hogwarts sharing a dorm and Harry is obsessed with seeing that look again.

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Length: 11 chapters, 40,283 words

Rating: Explicit

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 10/10 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley, Ginny Weasley/Blaise Zabini, Draco Malfoy/Other(s), Harry Potter/Other(s) Characters: Harry Potter, Draco Malfoy, Hermione Granger, Ron Weasley, Pansy Parkinson, Blaise Zabini Additional Tags: Angst, Alcohol, Excessive Drinking, Drunk Sex, Friendship, Romance, Drama & Romance, Rough Sex, Anal Sex, Bottom Harry, Bottom Harry Potter, Top Draco Malfoy, Hung Draco Malfoy, Pining, Pining Harry, charity work, Promiscuity, Infidelity, (sort of), Harry and Pansy are friends, Unhealthy Relationships, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Dubious Consent, Spanking, Choking, Depression, Depressed Harry, Self-Esteem Issues, Addiction, Orgasm Delay/Denial, Rimming, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Bottom!Harry, top!draco Summary:

Harry runs away from responsibilities as if they’re Voldemort reincarnated. He’s decided he wants to be free, and the best way to feel that way is to stay alone. That is, until he crashes into Draco Malfoy. After that Harry learns there is freedom in commitment, relief in responsibility and that happiness can only be found if you allow other people to rely on you. He doesn’t once consider the risks.

This is a story about loving someone so much you lose yourself entirely, but also about being loved so much you almost forget about being lost.

[trashy-drarry]

Spoiler review/rec #7 - Hair Pulled by the Stars by Cassiara

Hear Pulled by the Stars by Cassiara Harry runs away from responsibilities as if they’re Voldemort reincarnated. He’s decided he wants to be free, and the best way to feel that way is to stay alone. That is, until he crashes into Draco Malfoy. After that Harry learns there is freedom in commitment, relief in responsibility and that happiness can only be found if you allow other people to rely on you. He doesn’t once consider the risks.

This is a story about loving someone so much you lose yourself entirely, but also about being loved so much you almost forget about being lost.

First thing’s first: this is a fuck-fest of angst and when shit hit the fan, shit. Hit. The. Fan.

This fic was seemingly split into two sections when it came to the themes; for the first five - or possibly four - chapters, it was almost pure fluff. We saw Harry and Draco develop what both the reader and Harry assume to be a relationship, we see them flirt and become friends, we see him slowly develop a friendship with pansy and in general, things are pretty good.

Then the rest of the fic happens.

Chapters six to nine is the fuck-fest of angst. So you know how I just said Harry and the reader assume it’s a relationship? Yeah, assumes. It was never made official and neither of them ever called each other boyfriends. Draco just thought they were fuck buddies. Harry went to Draco's flat one day and saw him being fucked by some Canadian. After that, it was a very quick, heartbreaking downward spiral. We saw Harry put so much of himself into Draco and whatever it was they had between them in attempts to feel something close to a relationship, and it genuinely is so sad. It was a path of self-destruction and his depression seemed to overtake him. There were a few times where I stopped reading the fic for a few minutes because the Depression Harry went through struck very close to me - and I feel like it will for a lot of people. The angst doesn’t last for long, but god does it make an impact. The ending, thankfully, was a much more positive note.

I saw a few people express that this ending was more along the lines of bittersweet instead of happy - claiming things like that Draco fucked it up too bad to be forgiven and stuff - and personally, I do think it’s a happy ending. There was, to me at least, a sense of . . . Difference. It felt like it’d be a different attempt at a relationship than the one they previously tried; they both had nearly a year to fix themselves, to work on the issues that turned their initial relationship into something more toxic. It seemed almost like a hopeful ending . . . But I’m also a dumb ass so take that with a grain of salt.

Both Harry and Draco are very flawed, and there are a few points where it gets frustrating; even now, I’m frustrated at Draco for not properly realizing that it was a relationship, that they crossed the line a long time ago, but then there are scenes - such as when much earlier in the fic, Draco tells Harry not to stay the night - where I get frustrated at Harry for not realizing he wanted much more than Draco did. The fact that I could see both sides and their issues was something that is uncommon for me, I don’t really see it written as well as it was in this fic; Cassiara has undeniable talent.

Throughout the whole thing, I only noticed two issues - one of which I noticed while reading, one I only noticed once I was finished and was able to really think about it. The author had a few minor punctuation issues. There were numerous times where they missed a comma or full-stop at the end of someone's dialogue. It didn’t happen much, though. The second thing was that the characters were kinda . . . Flippant and felt rushed. Harry went from “I want a one night stand,” to “I’m hopelessly in love and will give my whole soul to him” without there being a proper bridge between it. However, the drama that happens in the story was so engaging that at the time of reading it, I didn’t notice it; throughout the whole fic, it never failed to be engaging. Even when I had to have a break, the breaks were much shorter than I intended. 

Smut in this was really, really hot as well. It featured a hung Draco and a Harry with a desire for pain. Doesn’t sound all that great, but it is. It’s just a much smaller thing about this fic I feel like in comparison to the rest.

This review really doesn’t do this fic justice, especially with how much of an impact it had on me and just how long I know it’ll stay with me; so much about it is something far better experienced rather than told.

So do I recommend this? Yes. But only if you can handle heavy angst and god, make sure you look at the tags. 

[justdrarryme]

Hair Pulled by the Stars by Cassiara

Pairing: Draco/ Harry Rating: Explicit WC: 43 K Summary: Harry runs away from responsibilities as if they’re Voldemort reincarnated. He’s decided he wants to be free, and the best way to feel that way is to stay alone. That is, until he crashes into Draco Malfoy. After that Harry learns there is freedom in commitment, relief in responsibility and that happiness can only be found if you allow other people to rely on you. He doesn’t once consider the risks.This is a story about loving someone so much you lose yourself entirely, but also about being loved so much you almost forget about being lost.

This got super angsty about two thirds of the way in and I cried like a baby. I just....yeah....wow.

[lostdrarryfics]

Hi🌸 I hope you can help me! I am looking for a fic I read at least two years ago on AO3. Harry and Draco are auror partners and Harry goes every weekend to a BDSM club (or many clubs) and he gets hurt really badly. Can't remember exactly why tho. I think maybe he believes he deserves the pain or maybe he thinks there is something wrong with him? He goes to work badly hurt sometimes and tries to avoid going to the clubs but he can't.

Draco realizes this when he finds him in a bad state and explain about safe words, after care, etc and becomes his dom as a try-out kinda thing?

There is a happy ending, Draco takes good care of Harry. Can't remember anything else.

I know it's not much! Thanks for your help!!

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So, the fic Im looking for is post-Hogwarts. Harry works at some children’s camp or volunteers there to help kids, and it was something he wanted to do due to his abusive childhood. He starts seeing Draco, they have sex. Once Harry was too sick to have sex, so Draco just decided to leave, and Harry had sex with him anyway despite not being in the mood. Harry thought they were dating, but it was miscommunication. It’s multichaptered and pretty long.

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