#catholic divorce

[somehowalivestill]

July 9th, 2026 at 6:39am

I am divorced. My ex husband was granted the default judgement.

I’m glad it’s over with finally, but it still feels bad on the inside.

I feel different now. A bit hollow. Never did get my settlement money.

I hope to God I never experience anything as horrible as this again. Not sure if I’ll ever be able to fully move on from this betrayal, but all I can do now is move forward the best I can.

Pray for me

[somehowalivestill]

July 7th, 2026 at 3:45am

Welp. By the time I wake up for class in the morning my divorce will be finalized. I feel a little weird about it, kinda like I wish I could rip the bandaid off and have it be over with, but I’m glad I never gave in and forced my ex to do everything for the divorce. If he wanted to divorce me then he was gonna have to do absolutely everything himself.

It still feels a little wrong though, like watching the last little tread be severed. It’s already over though and has been for quite some time, especially since I caught him cheating and blocked him. Still just feels a little weird though

I don’t want to go to class tomorrow. I haven’t been going recently. I’m so tired and already overwhelmed by the thought of work. I want to stay home, do nothing, and sleep. I want to just exist and further consider the realms of my consciousness. I also want to watch YouTube essay channels and lay in bed while cuddling with my dog and resting without a thought in my head.

I’m tired. I should sleep now, otherwise I’m not gonna wake up in the morning for class.

Pray for me as the court hears my case and grants my ex husband the divorce in a few hours. Please just pray for me and for this whole situation that I’ve had to endure and for my future going forward. God knows I could use the intercession on my behalf.

[somehowalivestill]

Do you think my ex ever misses me?

[somehowalivestill]

Hi! Quick question:

How do you experience personal growth WITHOUT having to go through profound pain first?

Asking for a friend

[somehowalivestill]

August 11th, 2026 at 4:51am

God help me, my bed feels too big and empty

I’m not unused to sleeping alone, but when I know it’s going to continue in perpetuity, it feels fucking soul sucking. Doesn’t help that I catch a chill so easy these days and my chronic pain makes me want someone to rub my lower back as I rest

Why did God make me to feel like the joy of life is gone when I don’t have someone to be in love with? I just genuinely thrive when I have someone to devote myself to like that. When I don’t have a boy to love on and care for, my life genuinely feels empty, like someone removed a puzzle piece and it won’t be whole again until it’s put back. I have no idea why I need this kind of connection so desperately, but it’s been like this for me ever since I was a child

[somehowalivestill]

June 26th, 2026 at 7:26pm

Just learned that my divorce will be finalized on the 7th of next month. I’m glad it will finally be over with, but it still feels kinda shitty. Also learned that he filed for everything not long after I caught him cheating, so that’s also fantastic.

I know I’m much happier and better off without him, but it still feels sad

[somehowalivestill]

March 15th, 2026 at 11:29pm

I miss my husband.

He used to be my best friend and now he only texts me when he wants money or when he needs more information to push forward the divorce. He was my best friend and partner. I married him and he started putting holes in walls, breaking my things, throwing stuff at my head, hurting himself in front of me, threatening me with his guns or when he was driving the car with us both in it, and so much more. I loved him so much, I couldn’t understand why he was doing such things.

I entered into marriage fully intending to spend the rest of my life with him, and now when he realized that he wouldn’t get what he wanted out of me, he threw me aside and completely abandoned our marriage. We’re Catholic. Divorce isn’t supposed to happen for people like us.

Now I’m alone again.

How will I ever find a Catholic man that would be willing to marry a divorced, disabled, and sterile woman? How will I ever find someone that matches my faith and life ideals that would be willing to never have or raise children, and would be willing to fully support me since I can’t support myself?

I know God is good, and if He has chosen not to answer my prayers for reconciliation then there is a good and just reason, but after half a decade I’m back exactly where I began, having to completely rebuild while being significantly sicker than before.

Tried to go to a support group held by my parish, but everyone is significantly older than me, their marriages had lasted longer than mine, and they had all had children. I felt like such an outsider. How dare I be 24 and my marriage already have failed! I couldn’t make myself go back after the first session.

I’m worried I will be a burden upon my mother for the rest of her life now that I have no husband to provide for me. My dad already has dementia that’s can progressing more and more, and they’re both in their early 60s. I’ve been living with them again for a year now, and while my mom talks about me finishing my education and getting a full time job and moving out again, I think we both know that the likelihood of that actually happening is slim.

And the really unfortunate part? I’ve realized over the years that my calling is to stay at home and tend to my family and my home, but without financial support and a husband to provide things, there is no chance I can live that life style.

It is the only time I’ve truly felt fulfilled in work, and I have lost the opportunity for the known future.

I feel so empty when thinking about the future. I try so hard to trust in God and believe that everything will be ok and that He will provide everything I need, but sometimes it really feels like I exist only to suffer. I can’t even become a nun because they don’t accept women who are this chronically ill and requiring so much care.

I exist only to suffer and burden others with my disabilities and sickly disposition. And, I suppose, to also love the dogs that come into my care and show them what warm, safe, unconditional love looks like from a mother. My little dogs are truly the only continuous light in my life, outside of my faith of course. At least my husband doesn’t want to take Ken from me; I don’t think I’d survive all this being separated from my little dog.

I’m just so tired and exhausted with life.

[somehowalivestill]

August 1st, 2026 at 9:58pm

Any time I watch or hear anything Russian/Ukrainian/generally slavic I remember my ex.

I miss him sometimes. He would have liked this YouTube video I’m watching, a perfect blend of slavic horror and gaming. A blend of both our interests.

Sometimes I remember that I’ll never see him again and it just doesn’t feel real. Don’t get me wrong, he was a cruel and abusive man, but he was also my best friend.

I lost my lover, my best friend, and my closest confidant in one horrid move.

I can’t hear anything about the game stalker or the band kino without feeling like I might cry. I miss him. He was my friend.