RANT!!!
it's funny how parents will say that they don't care about your marks but the moment you tell them, they start caring about it.
i get it bhai, nahi aaya accha marks... i get it i disappointed everyone by scoring 83.2% but no one was happy even when i had scored 96.6% in 10th... even then all i heard was "you could have done much better" and "i expected more from you" wtf man? paper check karne wala naa hi mera chacha naa hi mera mama, kaha se aur number le aate??
my mummy isnt speaking ever since i told her my marks, oh and she even cried... and i truly believe ki itna gam toh usko mere mar jaane pe bhi nahi hua hota
and my papa is the biggest hypocrite ever. mere saamne he will tell me that "it's okay" and "chalta hai" but the moment he steps out of my room, he will rant to his friend how this is such a poor percentage and how anyone could have scored such meagre marks. okay? and? plus, mere papa ko toh expectations rehti hi hai, i dont fucking know why lekin unke "colleagues" ko bhi mere se expectations rehti hai. lmao what? theka leke rakhe hai kya hum sab koi ka?
aur agar isi mein hum kuch palat ke bol denge, ki khud kyu nahi laaye the apna baari mein accha number toh bas alag natak shuru ho jata hai... ki "behes karti ho" aur "baat karne ka tameez nahi hai" aur bhi pata nahi kya kya
because apparently he didnt have the "resources"... lekin papa woh jo aap kal shaam ko facebook post dikha rahe the about that rickshaw wala ka beta, jo khud bhi rickshaw chalata tha, and still cracked upsc and even became an ias officer... uska kya? i am sure uske paas bhi resources ki kami rahi hogi, nahi?
kuch nahi bolte hai tab they think that i have anger issues, jis din kuch bolne lage uss din toh khoon ke aansu roo denge.
rehne do na yaar, stop with the fucking taunts. i already feel like a huge disappointment and a failure, you don't have to come in my room every 15 minutes to rub more salt in my wounds and remind me the same fucking thing for the umpteenth time. i am so fucking done with this bullshit.
don't get me wrong, i love my parents bahut zyada... jo hu, jaisi bhi hu, jo kuch bhi haasil kiya hai zindagi mein, it's all because of them... but there will always be a tiny part of me that will hate them like anything.
