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NTA cancelling NEET, CBSE keeping us on edge, I have a brilliant idea for all educational boards, agencies and institutions. Provide free poison to all students, permanently remove us.
good luck to everyone giving boards right now🤍
i fucking hate how people romanticize being an "academic weapon."
"omg i wish i was smart like you", "your parents must be so proud" or "your life must be so easy".
i'm sorry, "easy"?
you mean spending your entire childhood believing your worth was a number on a report card? your productivity?
you mean quitting every hobby i ever loved because there was always another exam? telling my friends "sorry, maybe next time" until they just... stopped inviting me? till i had no friends? watching everyone else actually have a childhood, have fun while mine was just school, homework, tests, repeat?
no one sees the part where you panic over getting 95 because your parents ask where the other five marks went. they don't see the gut-wrenching feeling of coming second and feeling like you've failed your purpose. when you've been "the smart kid" your whole life, being anything less than number one feels like you're disappointing everyone, that you're a waste.
and then there's the burnout.
god, the fucking burnout.
you wake up exhausted every single day. you can't remember the last time you did something because you wanted to instead of because it'd look good on a CV. your brain feels like it's been scraped hollow but you still have to keep performing because nobody gives a shit that you're tired if you're still getting results.
you don't get to say you're burnt out.
people just assume you're lying because your performance is still good, as if straight As somehow cancel out pain.
i swear to god, people hear "you're gifted" and suddenly every problem you have becomes invalid.
"at least you'll get into a good college."
"at least you're smart."
"i wish i had your problems."
fuck off.
i don't want my problems.
i want the hobbies i quit because i thought they were a waste of time. i want the friendships that slowly died because i was always studying. i want the weekends i spent stressing over exams instead of actually living. i want the version of me that existed before i became a fucking rat in a meaningless race.
being an academic weapon, studying to the point of sickness sn't a flex. god.
GUYSSS
LEGIT CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP RNNN
right. hi.
so i just started 11th grade. for context, that just happens to be ur debut into making big decisions for urself, learning responsibility and choosing subjects that will pretty much decide how the rest of your life plays out (in India, at least)
and as excited as i was to finally take the reigns of my life in my hands just abouttt 2 months ago— things have went to shit so fast i genuinely wanna hurl.
personal matters being messed up asf aside, i rlly just wanna talk about the system for a moment— the education system, to be precise.
there is not a single soul in India that doesn't know or hasn't acknowledged just how messed up our education system is. genuinely, you would have to be living under a rock not to know atp. the NEET paper got leaked recently and three kids committed suicide— what action has been taken? absolutely none. isn't it so sickening that when I heard the news of the three kids having committed suicide because of a singular piece of paper, the first thing i felt was relief. relief so bloody intense because I was so sure the number would be much more. to put things into perspective— about 2.4 million kids give the NEET exam every year. and this single paper leak has dragged them all through the mud with no reassurances or solutions.
literally so many students that have taken the science stream and obtained good marks regret their decisions— not because they hate what they're learning or where their interests lie— but because the education system failed to provide the experience and hands on knowledge necessary to actually get a decent job. isnt it so hilarious how PCMB is a stream hated by students and teachers alike?— the very teachers that teach you the subjects?? anybody that has experienced this stream never suggests you take it because its such a brain fuck, you'd be in for it. and yet nothing has changed and it remains a plausible option with no proper amendments.
the education system also continues to fail in the arts department— but that's a separate rant entirely. like tell me why everybody i asked told me that getting a job in that area is nearly impossible because our system hasn't made a bridge between the studies and job opportunities?
also, am i wrong to think that students should be given mandated and official facilities to help with post-tenth grade decisions?? the sheer pressure that was lit pushed on everybody the moment board exams (which is another million pound pressure we have to deal with) were over is so surreal it felt like stepping into another, much more depressing and gloomy, universe— and the fact that we have no guidance for it sucks ass.
i would like to point out that i am like the most positive-optimistic person i know— ask lit anybody, i dont do sad, and if my reality happens to be sad then i dont do reality because i dont. do. sad. this has been my entire thing since i was like 7, and trust i had many opportunities to fail to live up to said sentiment. but i didnt. cuz thats not what i do. but i have been coming apart at the seams because of all this, for a lack of better words, absolute bullshit. like, just assume i do manage to make it through these next two years by throwing away everything else i have loved and cared for— what then?? i have no guarantee that i will get into the college i want to because apparently seats are only open to 99% or above scorers now (an actual up and rising problem btw) and what if the competitive exam i wanna give gets leaked again?? what then?? and what is the govt doing to help? nothing nothing and nothing.
honest to god, did u see the post our education minister made in english like a few days ago?? bro cant spell for the life of him and cant tell apart "meet" and "meat" but we are all damning our lives under his reign??
and don't even get me started on how society pressure plays into all this— thats where all the main issues fester anyway.
all in all, the system sucks— especially the education system, but also, the entire system. and we are all stuck to play slaves because we have no other choice.
moral of the story: kill me :) or run away with me idk
Why...am I getting rickrolled by cbse?
I scanned the qr code on my maths board exam paper and I got rickrolled
Only good thing cbse had done this year in boards😔✊
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trying to stay motivated and not freak myself out in the days before my exam, the waiting after half my cohort has already passed is the worst 🥲 🥲 acomaf is one of the only things holding me together rn
current plan for monday, the day before my exam:
9 am workout class followed by sauna
study flashcards
walk dog
12 lunch
clean a bit
30 min practice chalk talk
study 1-2 hours
relax (as much as possible)
bake something for dessert
will report back once it's over with 🫡
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