#cccisanidiot

[cleancutegirls]

I swear, romantic stories are like a drug to me. It's so nice during the action but I crash so hard after; yet, like an addict, I keep coming back for more.

[cleancutegirls]

With each passing day I feel a little more lonely and isolated from the world.

[cleancutegirls]

What do friends talk about?

I can’t think of anything people would want to know about me. My usual day consists of working on my thesis, going for a long walk playing Pokemon GO, and a little bit of fun things (usually one of either writing, worldbuilding, playing visual novels, watching anime).

My day to day life is pretty dull so I don’t know why people would want to know about it or me. If I’m not saying anything about myself, it basically turns into an interrogation of bombardment of questions.

Anyone with more social prowess have suggestions?

[cleancutegirls]

Next week I have to meet with the head of the department after failing the first assignment in her course. I hadn’t done igneous petrology for four years and it seems the mineralogy textbook I had didn’t help me. Congrats, CCC, you’re already behind on your thesis, struggling to keep up with your classes and work on your thesis at the same time, will probably have to stay the summer to finish anyway (and at this rate maybe later), and you suck. Just go die in a hole already.

[cleancutegirls]

Seeing all this wonderful art makes me want to do some too. Then I remember that I have no talent and I've tried before only to fail miserably. It's very frustrating.

[cleancutegirls]

The last monopoly game I just played, I lost pretty badly. I was the only other player left and only had 3 properties to my name by the end but I hung on and fought tooth and nail against the terribly wealthy player who won. I was like a freaking leach! That was fun even losing because I was such a tough out. Lucky rolls past the hotels like nobody’s business.

[cleancutegirls]

I sometimes think the world would be a better place without me.

[cleancutegirls]

How does one accept mediocrity?

Some people have talent, others don’t. I like making up stories, but I suck at writing them--I’m mediocre. I can’t think of a single way I am not mediocre. Most people don’t have the kind of talent that the truly great people have. So how does one give up and give up trying to be anything beyond what one can be?