im fine im just thinking about how geralt is so dehumanized -- everyone thinks of him in such wildly different ways. people see him as a monster killer, a monster itself, the butcher, the white wolf, they see him as a moping brother, a loving father, a lost father, a scared man, a best friend, a strong hero, a failure, he sees himself as a disgusting monster whos trying to be human, he sees himself as an awful father who can't even find his daughter, a shitty lover, a shitty friend who isn't deserving of the people who love him. thinking about how geralt is everything and nothing at once, how people will remember him as the guy who killed the griffin bothering them, as a person who spared the innocent sentient monsters who aren't harming anyone, as a legend only heard of in ballads and poems. as a person and as a monster.
people project these ideas, true and false, onto him, and people make assumptions of what he must be like based off of these titles. and how he never got to choose who to be. it was chosen for him -- but he still tries to be a good man.